On Friday, December 8, 2017 at 11:56:05 AM UTC-5, Rick C. Hodgin wrote:
> Because I've been changed, my polarity is now toward God, toward His
> teachings, toward truth, toward righteousness. I still have to fight
> the "old man" of my flesh, which wars against me constantly. But from
> within, only a new Rick exists now.
Anyone who purports some degree of self-righteousness coming from Rick
is sadly mistaken. I am not self-righteous. I am a flawed person.
In November, 2007 I went to go spend Thanksgiving with a group of
missionaries in Missouri (I'm from Indiana). We prepared a rental
property, made food, and served around 200 meals to local people who
had no opportunity to have a Thanksgiving with family or friends.
It was the most moving thing I've ever been a part of. I was in
tears there in the rental property watching it all transpire. I
had never been so moved with an outpouring of love by all the vol-
unteers.
I went to go and visit them again near New Year's, and in my full
zealousness to be righteous Rick, God let me go through a painful
lesson.
As it turned out the group I was with were a cult. I was only there
a few weeks off and on over three months, but it was enough to get
my thinking so twisted around. My wife and I separated, I went to
go and live with another woman telling everyone she was my wife, and
even believing in my heart she was because I told myself, "It doesn't
matter if you have a piece of paper or not. My wife had a piece of
paper, and she was no wife. Just because you call yourself a Christ-
ian even, it doesn't mean you are one. And this woman I'm with now
loves me more than my wife did, and she loves God."
I continued in that adulterous relationship for 15 months off-and-on
as she and I would separate from time to time.
It was so hurtful. That time of my life took its toll on me and I
am still, approaching 10 years on, in recovery from those events. My
life is still impacted in every way by what took place during that
time. But, I was a true and faithful servant of God before I went
out there for that Thanksgiving, and I have been a true and faithful
servant of God since then. But during that time I let my pride and
personal lusts get ahead of my walk with God, and it cost me dearly.
Since then (June 2009) I have been back on the road to recovery. Still
harmed, still hurting, still even harming other people I later learned.
But my focus has been upon the Lord, upon a true and proper walk before
Him. I spend a great deal of time studying the Bible, listening to a
wide variety of teachers, going to church and Bible Study groups, and
so on. And my life lived is in purposeful, conscious choices toward
service to Him.
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You will not ever see me pointing people to me. I can testify to you
that I need Jesus as much as anyone, and even more, for I am riddled
with sin and guilt and without Christ I too would be cast into the
eternal Lake of Fire. But because of who He is, because He came to
save us, because I sought the truth, and even in my later folly,
fumbles, mis-steps, and outright collapses, yet has He held on to me,
and carried me in my life.
I owe Him everything, and then some. And I teach everyone about Him
because I am no better than anyone else. I need Him just as much as
everyone does. And since I have found Him, I know what it means to
be on that side (before faith) and this side of faith, and the change
is real ... for all who are born again.
We can still stumble. We can still fall. But if we are born again,
we will not remain down in the muck, and the Lord will come for us
and bring us back (you should ask me about my testimony of how the
Lord rescued me from the 15 month affair ... it was amazing in that
I could not have even gone back if I wanted to. He separated me long
enough to come back to my senses).
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In any event, I need Jesus just like everyone else. I have found Him,
which is why I now teach about Him. He is what all people need world-
wide.
Other religions are tools of the enemy designed to appeal to our flesh,
to give us rituals and works to do. Only Christ can take away our sin
and make us born again.
Napoleon discovered the true nature of Christ, and wrote about it:
(About half way down where it starts in English again)
http://biblehub.com/library/schaff/the_person_of_christ/napoleon_bonaparte.htm
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Rick C. Hodgin