Sidney, All About Me (Ren's Story)
ren
about me. I am so pretentious that I like to talk about myself. You
needed only but ask me. I'll talk your ears off.
I was raised a Southern Baptist Christian by two very devout parents
who both lead Bible study to this day. My father was a Freemason who
kept his Scottish Rite book by Albert Pike out in the library. He saw
me reading it and said nothing. Many accuse Pike of starting the KKK,
I don't know about that. But I found this book fascinating. My sister
helped me to learn how to read and I would use this book to learn more
words. Both of my sisters are New Agers as well. I also liked to study
many different religions. From all this I used to ask the most
questions in Sunday school and often angered the teachers.
I tried to be a very good Christian and my parents wanted me to be
some kind of leading example for the other kids. I don't know why. I
suppose I am driven and opinionated. A guy by the name of Tom wanted
to stay awake at school because he had a job at night. He took diet
pills to stay awake and they almost killed him. A strange goth girl,
back when goth wasn't widely heard of, came to Tom in the hospital.
She was visiting her brother who was in a motorcycle accident. She
gave Tom a charm one night. It was a black cross with a red un-circled
upright pentagram in the center. It looked like a red person in the
center. She said "Keep this and you won't die." Tom kept the charm and
miraculously got better within a week. All the doctors and nurses
couldn't believe it. He was frightened and came to me as I often
witnessed to him about Jesus and angelic powers and all that. So I
held the charm in my hand and something triggered inside of me when he
told me the story of the goth girl. I took the charm to Brother Gary
who led our O'Fallon Illinois Southern Baptist Church. He took the
charm and didn't say anything. I said "Brother Gary, help me identify
this." Again he didn't say anything. I waited for weeks. I finally
confronted Gary. "What have you found out?" Gary said "Nothing like
that goes on in my town." After that, I was no longer a Christian. I
was just going to church to keep up appearances. I then found a chain
bookstore book on Wicca, Vivianne Crowely. I was always reading
paranormal books in the library for as long as I could remember even
as a devout Christian. I couldn't escape it. It was too fascinating
for me. But now that I was no longer a Christian, I was free to be
initiated as a Wiccan. A group I found. Tom started mowing church
lawns for free and I started to feel possessed by the spirits within
that charm he gave me. I felt a very strong connection to this strange
gothic girl that I have never met. My powers started to awaken and I
fell in love with her. I started to idealize a person I never met.
My cousin is from Arkansas and I started thinking about going with him
to college there, a religious school, but intending to find people to
join a coven there. My cousin was fortunate to be friends with a
traditional family witch (not Wicca) and it was my cousin who taught
me what could be considered "real" powers. He taught me to know the
thoughts of others specifically and to call others who have the gifts
-- among other things.
We worked with the Ouija Board where I learned to talk with spirits.
Our spirit was Alice, a girl who jumped out of an airplane because it
was on fire. She connected us with a very dark spirit who gave us
gifts. I was then issued an alignment. Over the years I went from
gray, to white, to black. This is a system of traditional magick. On
the board my level was 50, which means that I am capable of being a
perfect host to spirits.
I joined a group and met Jay who became my mentor. He is an initiate
of a traditional coven and has the mark to prove it. I did not like
Jay when I first debated with him. I was still fighting Christian
brainwashing. Though I was an initiated Wiccan, I was wish-washing
back and forth between the old Christian need to belong and my true
religious Pagan beliefs that were hidden. Jay reminded me of my
commitment and we started to practice ceremonial magick. He taught me
a lot about ceremonial magickal practices and guided me in eclectic
craft work. Jay, myself, my cousin, and many of my cousin's friends
from his hometown were students and practitioners of magick in a
Christian school. Joe was one such friend. His father was in Vietnam
and somewhat of a magickal person himself. He taught me a lot of mind
games and hypnosis. Some of which I have used on you.
During college I had a friend called Randy. Randy's fiance was named
Alicia. Alicia and her friend were murdered one day on a highway. They
were going back to Houston to go to school. Somebody put something in
her gas tank and her car exploded. A state trooper saw the whole
thing. Randy showed me her picture and much like that black cross
charm, Alicia's spirit stuck to me. For years Alicia would contact me
in dreams and do poltergeist stuff around me to let me know she was
there. We became partners. She showed me a lot of stuff about the
other world. Alicia has since moved on and has reincarnated.
In college the first time, I studied music, Psychology, Speech, and
Political Science. It was then that I ran out of money and decided to
join the military. My blood pressure was too high, but I used magick
to lower it in order to pass the physical. I passed a series of tests
and also because my father was a high ranking officer, I got a coveted
government job. I went to Germany for 3 years doing computer work and
journalism. I had lived in Germany for 4 years as a child. I learned
all about hardware, software, networking, databases, and security. I
even helped port VAX applications to Windows.
My cousin abandoned the craft and became a devout Catholic after
college. I only deepened my commitment to the study of metaphysics.
In 1992, I returned to the U.S. and used my G.I. Bill to go to college
for 4 more years. All in all, I went to college for over 10 years.
This time I studied History and English. I also continued my Speech
and Political Science classes which is why I can argue and persuade.
This is also the time where I started to use USENET and the internet
to connect with pagan friends and practitioners I had known during my
travels and to listen to what they learned and meet new people. It was
here that I felt that I really started to master Spiritism and my so-
called powers. I became very pretentious. In High-School I was gothic
because my friends took me to a club in Saint Louis called
"Reflections" and I met a really cool goth girl. Damn she was perfect.
I wanted to be a part of her world. I met a writer and producer for
the X-Files and started a side career as a writer.
But goth and my paganism and magickal studies didn't really have a
connection other than that girl that visited Tom in the hospital that
day.
I think that she was human but I also think that she was a host to
ghostly vampires. Tom knowingly offered me up in his place by giving
me that cross. Alicia was like a vampire, living on my attention to
keep her form and allow her to influence this world in order to exact
revenge. Once she did, she was able to go into the light. It was there
that she finally died.
I continued to study computers but didn't take many courses in
college. I went to Phoenix Arizona and got an internet related job. I
lived there for 6 years and had a great time drinking, dancing, and
having a lot of sex. Arizona Goths AZGoths were a wild bunch. I was a
member of a coven and went to Pagan conventions and spiritual places
in Arizona. I met someone I believe to be half-alien. I dated girls
with powers as great as mine. They showed me a lot of stuff.
I transferred to Seattle where I lived for 6 years. Not so much sex,
but I met the most amazing people who have no formal metaphysical
training but do have powers. Again I participated in a coven.
I started to notice a change in the U.S. and in 2001 I was led by
dreams to start studying Japanese. I now live in Tokyo and do not
intend on returning to the U.S. I am no longer professionally involved
with hardware, software and networking. I spend my time here reading,
editing, writing, and criticizing.
I have been very rich and have wasted the money on bad habits. I have
also been very poor.
Now I often use and abuse my powers only for the practice. If you feel
I am messing with you, just know that it is only playing around. I
have everything I want and I feel that I am quite happy.
I seem cursed. I am often stalked and chased in real life by people.
But this is not because I am attractive. This is because I am full of
vampiric spirits that have the ability to attract and extract
vitality. You are their latest victim. Notice, how I do not have the
power to keep you away. It isn't your fault. It is my fault for
holding that black cross with the red star in the middle so many years
ago.
I will die one day and I must join this cadre of lost spirits who want
to avoid the light for an eternity.
I am damned to follow Baphomet, the good dragon, underworld warden of
lost souls, refuser of blood sacrifice and first born. He who has
given me the gift of Revelation, Star Making, and Mind Control.
So now you can fight me, Sidney.
aine
>
> I am damned to follow Baphomet, the good dragon, underworld warden of
> lost souls, refuser of blood sacrifice and first born. He who has
> given me the gift of Revelation, Star Making, and Mind Control.
>
> So now you can fight me, Sidney.
<
I think it is possibly your wiccan training that you deny the
existance of blood sacrifice. Most of us use alternatives in these
times but where do you find Baphomet is a refuser?
None refused them that I know of. Even God slaughtered through his
angels.
ren
> I think it is possibly your wiccan training that you deny the
> existance of blood sacrifice. Most of us use alternatives in these
> times but where do you find Baphomet is a refuser?
>
> None refused them that I know of. Even God slaughtered through his
> angels.
I will ask Baphomet tonight in my dream. :) I will also try to contact
Alicia to see what became of her after she went into the light. I
haven't tried, have I?
Damn, I have a ritual that I can use to summon this mystery goth girl
to alt.religion.wicca. If she is still alive, I'm sure she will come.
O'Fallon Illinois, Goth Girl, Brother hurt in a motorcycle accident.
She gave Tom a Black Cross with a Red 5 pointed star in the middle.
Yes. Thanks aine, I'll do that.
aine
> On Jan 15, 9:33 pm, aine <aine_nicne...@hotmail.com> wrote:
>
> > I think it is possibly your wiccan training that you deny the
> > existance of blood sacrifice. Most of us use alternatives in these
> > times but where do you find Baphomet is a refuser?
>
> > None refused them that I know of. Even God slaughtered through his
> > angels.
>
> I will ask Baphomet tonight in my dream. :)<
No offense Brother but Baphomet don't like Twinkies. hehehe Seriously,
you do know he is aspected with Herne/Cerrnunus?
You cannot whitewash with him. Possibly you should let me handle it.
lol~
> I will also try to contact
> Alicia to see what became of her after she went into the light. I
> haven't tried, have I?<
Do I wipe your butt?
>
> Damn, I have a ritual that I can use to summon this mystery goth girl
> to alt.religion.wicca. If she is still alive, I'm sure she will come.<
What mystery Goth girl? I kinda skimmed over your lifes story. I know
it all. I know things even you don't know about it. mwahahaha
>
> O'Fallon Illinois, Goth Girl, Brother hurt in a motorcycle accident.
> She gave Tom a Black Cross with a Red 5 pointed star in the middle.<
Ah..
>
> Yes. Thanks aine, I'll do that.<
Pffft..Telepathically read my sigil. I am able to transfer it with
hand language. One finger actually.
Sidney Lambe
> Sidney, I will teach you to fight me. But first you must know all
> about me. I am so pretentious that I like to talk about myself. You
> needed only but ask me. I'll talk your ears off.
Only problem here is that I don't believe a word you say about
anything.
You are an established pathological liar and I can prove that
using your own posts on this group.
[fiction deleted without being read]
http://groups.google.com/group/alt.religion.wicca/msg/b1dd375194eddc72
Sid
hy
ren wrote:
star magick
Sidney Lambe
> Sidney, I will teach you to fight me. But first you must know all
> about me. I am so pretentious that I like to talk about myself. You
> needed only but ask me. I'll talk your ears off.
And it's all meaningless, Fool, unless you identify yourself so
that people can validate your claims.
All of your claims about magickal abilities and psychic powers
have proven to be false.
You are clearly a pathological liar.
Who do you think is going to believe any of this?
[delete fiction]
> So now you can fight me, Sidney.
I don't have to fight someone who doesn't have any power.
All you have is a big mouth.
Sid
sarchasm
ren
> You cannot whitewash with him. Possibly you should let me handle it.
> lol~
Alright, have a go!
> What mystery Goth girl? I kinda skimmed over your lifes story. I know
> it all. I know things even you don't know about it. mwahahaha
A gold piece for your thoughts. The cross was forged metal. It was
hand crafted and coated with thick black paint, very glossy, the star
was also metal crafted and coated with the same kind of paint, thick
and red.
ren
What do you know?
aine
A gold piece? One? Shoot you did not even get pissy at my pissy. That
is worth 10 right there that you did not sigil me back.
What is *wrong* with you.
Screwy though. I have a metal heavy cross. I didn't likr the color so
I painted it many coats of black gloss paint. I also have a star and I
painted it many coats of gloss red.
My thoughts? None..Im burnt..you wear me out! Im sure I will think of
one but it will be in the middle of the night. You will wake to me
telepathically poking you ...ren ren ren man..ren ..ren..you
asleep..ren
aine
I almost posted the same only mine was.. What do *you* know..as in
sarcastic like bug off the star was not a good thing for you.
Funny how an accent on a word changes someone from good guy to bad guy.
ren
..as in..
What information do you have?
aine
Who knows what?
as in hy or me?
Whose on first?
zayton
"Sidney Lambe" <nos...@nospam.invalid> wrote in message
news:atg446x...@amma.net...
> ren <ren...@hotmail.com> wrote:
>> Sidney, I will teach you to fight me. But first you must know all
>> about me. I am so pretentious that I like to talk about myself. You
>> needed only but ask me. I'll talk your ears off.
>
> Only problem here is that I don't believe a word you say about
> anything.
Tht's no problem