STORY: Lorissa (rape, torture, very nonconsensual)
Lex Stevens
I hate Jesse Helms. I hate Jesse Helms so much I'd rejoice if he dropped down
dead. If someone killed him I'd consider it his own fault.
I hate Ronald Reagan, too, because he mass-murdered my people for eight years.
But to be honest, I hate him even more for eulogizing Ryan White without first
admitting his guilt, without begging forgiveness for Ryan's death and for the
deaths of tens of thousands of other PWA's - most of them queer. I hate him
for making a mockery of our grief.
I hate the fucking Pope, and I hate John fucking Cardinal fucking O'Connor, and
I hate the whole fucking Catholic Church. The same goes for the Military, and
especially for Amerika's Law Enforcement Officials - the cops - state
sanctioned sadists who brutalize street transvestites, prostitutes and queer
prisoners. I also hate the medical and mental health establishments,
particularly the psychiatrist who convinced me not to have sex with men for
three years until we (meaning he) could make me bisexual rather than queer. I
also hate the education profession, for its share in driving thousands of queer
teens to suicide every year. I hate the "respectable" art world; and the
entertainment industry, and the mainstream media, especailly The New York
Times. In fact, I hate every sector of the straight establishment in this
country - the worst of whom actively want all queers dead, the best of whom
never stick their necks out to keep us alive.
I hate straight people who think they have anything intelligent to say about
"outing." I hate straight people who think stories about themselves are
"universal" but stories about us are only about homosexuality. I hate straight
recording artists who make their careers off of queer people, then attack us,
then act hurt when we get angry and then deny having wronged us rather than
apologize for it. I hate straight people who say, "I don't see why you feel
the need to wear those buttons and t-shirts. I don't go around telling the
whole world I'm straight."
I hate that in twelve years of public education I was never taught about queer
people. I hate that I grew up thinking I was the only queer in the world, and
I hate even more that most queer kids still grow up the same way. I hate that
I was tormented by other kids for being a faggot, but more that I was taught to
feel ashamed for being the object of their cruelty, taught to feel it was my
fault. I hate that the Supreme Court of this country says it's okay to
criminalize me because of how I make love. I hate that so many straight
people are so concerned about my goddamned sex life. I hate that so many
twisted straight people become parents, while I have to fight like hell to be
allowed to be a father. I hate straights.
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Ooops!!!! Lex here. Looks like instead of the "Lorissa" story, I
accidentally and not on purpose posted "QUEER MANIFESTO #4" by mistake.
I can be such a klutz sometimes! This is part of a series of writings
by anonymous queers, who seem somewhat perturbed at the way they've
been treated. I hope no one was offended by the description of gay-
bashing cops as "sadists". Anyway, I'll try to be more "efficient"
in my future postings.
-lex
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"Can't we find any other Japanese literature that doesn't discuss breasts?"
-parent opposing teachg Mishima's _The Sound of Waves_s_ in high school
Lex Stevens l...@eskimo.com Anon: an4...@anon.penet.fi
Thoth
>I hate Jesse Helms. I hate Jesse Helms so much I'd rejoice if he dropped down
>dead. If someone killed him I'd consider it his own fault.
>I hate Ronald Reagan, too, because he mass-murdered my people for eight years.
>But to be honest, I hate him even more for eulogizing Ryan White without first
>admitting his guilt, without begging forgiveness for Ryan's death and for the
>deaths of tens of thousands of other PWA's - most of them queer. I hate him
>for making a mockery of our grief.
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>I hate straight people who think they have anything intelligent to say about
>"outing." I hate straight people who think stories about themselves are
>"universal" but stories about us are only about homosexuality. I hate straight
>recording artists who make their careers off of queer people, then attack us,
>then act hurt when we get angry and then deny having wronged us rather than
>apologize for it. I hate straight people who say, "I don't see why you feel
>the need to wear those buttons and t-shirts. I don't go around telling the
>whole world I'm straight."
>I hate that in twelve years of public education I was never taught about queer
>people. I hate that I grew up thinking I was the only queer in the world, and
>I hate even more that most queer kids still grow up the same way. I hate that
>I was tormented by other kids for being a faggot, but more that I was taught to
>feel ashamed for being the object of their cruelty, taught to feel it was my
>fault. I hate that the Supreme Court of this country says it's okay to
>criminalize me because of how I make love. I hate that so many straight
>people are so concerned about my goddamned sex life. I hate that so many
>twisted straight people become parents, while I have to fight like hell to be
>allowed to be a father. I hate straights.
Wow. What can I say, except...wow.
Well, one thing -- it sure goes to prove that homophobes aren't the only ones
obsessed with hate in this world. The author of this diatribe (which, for
references' sake, I assume from the context was NOT penned by Lex himself)
seems to think the world owes him their approval and their support. Now
THAT'S a sticky issue to bring up on this group, and it gets right at the
heart of the other thread, about the definition of a homophobe. To inject
my opinion into the discussion, then (pulling out my syringe), I do not think
that everyone who disapproves of gay sex on moral or aesthetic grounds is a
homophobe. I do not think that everyone who fails to support more funding
for AIDS research is a homophobe. I do not think that everyone (to get
specific) who does not support the legality or legalization of gay marriages
is a homophobe. I think it is possible to condemn the act of gay sex without
condemning, or hating, or fearing, gays themselves. To me, a phobe is marked
by his or her hatred or fear of homosexuals themselves, he or she is marked
by his or her personal attacks on homosexuals, by the "personal" nature of
their distaste or condemnation.
Speaking of personal dislike, I have many gay friends who I like very much.
But I don't like the sound of people like the author above, and I don't have
much sympathy for him. He may be gay and he may have been the victim of
persecution in this society, but in the above piece, he is, above all else --
a whiner.
Thoth@IRC
the one and only true vixen
(Thoth) writes:
>In article <CHJwK...@eskimo.com> l...@eskimo.com (Lex Stevens) writes:
[deletia] ...
>>I hate straight people who think they have anything intelligent to say about
>>"outing." I hate straight people who think stories about themselves are
>>"universal" but stories about us are only about homosexuality.
... [deletia]
>Wow. What can I say, except...wow.
>Well, one thing -- it sure goes to prove that homophobes aren't the only ones
>obsessed with hate in this world. The author of this diatribe (which, for
>references' sake, I assume from the context was NOT penned by Lex himself)
>seems to think the world owes him their approval and their support. Now
>THAT'S a sticky issue to bring up on this group, and it gets right at the
>heart of the other thread, about the definition of a homophobe. To inject
>my opinion into the discussion, then (pulling out my syringe), I do not think
>that everyone who disapproves of gay sex on moral or aesthetic grounds is a
>homophobe. I do not think that everyone who fails to support more funding
>for AIDS research is a homophobe. I do not think that everyone (to get
>specific) who does not support the legality or legalization of gay marriages
>is a homophobe. I think it is possible to condemn the act of gay sex without
>condemning, or hating, or fearing, gays themselves. To me, a phobe is marked
>by his or her hatred or fear of homosexuals themselves, he or she is marked
>by his or her personal attacks on homosexuals, by the "personal" nature of
>their distaste or condemnation.
>Speaking of personal dislike, I have many gay friends who I like very much.
>But I don't like the sound of people like the author above, and I don't have
>much sympathy for him. He may be gay and he may have been the victim of
>persecution in this society, but in the above piece, he is, above all else --
>a whiner.
>Thoth@IRC
Dear Thoth-sweetie,
There's fine line here, a line between whining and core-dumping in the
age-old tradition. I feel the author of this piece has some excellent
points, and if nothing else, sure helps make it clear what it's like to
spend years, one's whole life really, enduring slaps to the face both
heavy and light. The personal nature of the daily insults of living gay in
this society make the difference you describe inoperative for those who
must live it. Condeming gay sex as immoral is a personal attack on every
gay person.
Imagine what it's like to see heterosexual couples walking hand-in-hand
every day without comment -- in fact with smiles following them around --
and then to be condemed with distaste for "flaunting your sexuality" when
you do the same thing with one you love. And that's a relatively small
thing compared with other things that happen daily.
It *is* insulting to have everyone consider you not to be a part of
humanity because your sexuality is different from the majority. It is
angering to be criminalized for an act of love. It is soul-killing when
one's qualities as a human being (such as fitness for parenthood) are
dismissed out of hand by prejudiced people. Add all this on top of a long
history of being told in no uncertain terms that you are wrong in your
soul, sick, dirty, unfit, and have only yourself and your own failing to
blame for people's response to you, and I am surprised at *not* hearing
more outright expressions of hatred from gay people.
No, the world does not owe anyone approval and support, but as civilied
people we do owe each other a fair shake and some attempt at understanding
of our common needs and apsirations.
Personally, I think that some of the things you mention do in fact require
internal homophobia to take hold in a person's heart. If it is purely an
intellectual exercise why do people have such a strong reaction that they
are willing to hurt, to really damage, other people to see their views upheld
and enforced? I don't see it without a germ of unreasoning fear ...
It is sad when hate is planted and when it is watered and fed and grows
becomes mutual and feeds on itself. But dismissing hate in the victims of
hate does not help the whole mess heal. Try understanding where it's coming
from. Maybe the author of the original was whining, we all do sometimes
when reality is a bit much to bear. A core-dump can help, and can educate
as well if those hearing it really listen.
=vixen, aka pollyanna
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