official De-lurk
Christa
lurking on and off for the past 2 weeks, but I figured I'd go with what
I know, and a formal de-lurk would be in order. here goes:
Hi! My name's christa, and I'm a 21 y/o pre-anything M2F transexual.
I've been spending that past few weeks seriously and honestly coming to
terms with myself, something I've known since I was about 10, but have
been too scared(eek!) of the implications/consequences to deal with in
any serious way.
I've been denying who and what I am for way too long, and it's gotten to
a point in my life where I can no longer ignore it, or hope it goes
away. So I'm finally starting to take the steps to asses what I need to
do, and have submerged myself into learning as much info as I can get my
hands on. To say the past few weeks have been really exciting would be
an understatement! ^_^
I'm currently at SCAD, an all art college in Savannah, GA, majoring in
sequential art/2d animation. From what I've been able to ascertain, I'm
a bit of a freak among the majority of TSgirls in the fact that I'm not
very conservative(at all). (note this is based on what I've seen so far.
I hope I'm not offending anyone)
I enjoy the benefits of an externalized protective shell(you know, your
"no I'm not a TS!!" subconcious defense mechanism) which in plain
english means I'm a bodyart enthusiast. The interaction of these two
aspects of myself make for an interesting mix.
though I think this aspect will probably disappear with transition, I'm
going to try and keep at least my lobes and my vert. labret, just
because they're cute.
I'm a non smoker/drinker/user, and a vegitarian. I like ska, emo, punk,
and electronica, as well at the great warsaw philaharmonic orchestra.
Thankfully due to diet and excercise I've dropped all the weight I
gained in highschool, dropping from a pudgey 240lbs to a slim 155lbs.
(I'm 2 smaller in size and weight than my stepmother!). I'm excited for
the future prospect of HRT, for obvious reasons and others.^_^
Anyhow, I'm currently looking for a therapist so I can stop wasting time
and get into the process. Unfortunately I'm not so sure if I will be
able to find one in my town. From what I've seen so far, almost all G.I.
specialists are up in Atlanta. And that's like a 4 hour drive, and I
don't own a car:(.
if anyone has any recent info on therapists in GA, let me know. the list
I have was compiled in 97, so I'm sure there may be some updates.
The more info I can find, and the better educated I can become, it's
better for me in the long term. ok. that's it for me. thanks for
listening.
-christa
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"Of course there's no future when you make sure there's none;
Impatience "time is wasting", there's no future to be won"
If you truly don't care, then why talk 'No Future'; Excuses hang
like a noose "I've given up I just don't care" - Anti-Flag, No future
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Before you buy.
Melissa
wrote:
>I'm not sure how all the formalities of this NG work having only been
>lurking on and off for the past 2 weeks, but I figured I'd go with what
>I know, and a formal de-lurk would be in order. here goes:
>
>Hi! My name's christa, and I'm a 21 y/o pre-anything M2F transexual.
Hi Christa!
Please don't concern yourself with *formalities* - we may be a bizarre
bunch, but we're not formal (we're not *that* strange!).
I'm not anywhere near GA, so I can't be of much help to you there, but
there are people here who will give you very good information, I'm
sure.
I just wanted to say "hello"...................hello.
My roomate in college (CalArts) was an animator (Disney style
animation). That was 21 years ago (damn - you're 21 - now I feel
old!). I've only been to Savannah once, and thought it was a lovely
town. I paddled my sea kayak out at Tybee Island.
I'm happy for you that you've begun your quest for congruency - it
won't be easy, but it's much easier than wearing the mask you've worn
for so many years. Welcome to yourself! And welcome here - we can be
a bit untidy at times, but there's also lots of love, and good
information to be had.
much love
Melissa
Nicole Hamilton
> I'm not sure how all the formalities of this NG work ... My
> name's christa, and I'm a 21 y/o pre-anything M2F ...
> something I've known since I was about 10, but have
> been too scared(eek!) of the implications/consequences
> to deal with in any serious way.
Welcome, Christa! There are no real formalities here. We're all this same
path and if you can overlook the occasional catfights, I think you'll find
the folks here and in alt.support.srs (which you'll likely also want to
check out) to be a pretty supportive bunch. I know that for me, when I
showed up here in late 1997, just beginning transition, the resources and
friendship I found here made all the difference between the failure in my
first attempt 20 years earlier and my success this time around.
I can promise that you are about to embark on a marvelous adventure,
probably the most important thing you've ever done in your whole life. It's
difficult, terrifying (but only just before you start), but exciting beyond
any description. Over the next couple years, you'll learn more about
yourself and what it means to be male or female than almost anyone else
(other than another T) you'll ever meet. I like to describe transition as
the most thrilling rollercoaster you'll ride and, like all good
rollercoasters, you don't get on just to get to the end.
And from the vantage (shared by quite a number of other postops here) I can
promise that it does work. Those demons we have faced all our lives, that
sense that we can't ever let anyone get too close for fear they'll find out
who we are, all that gets fixed in transition. I find (and I think my
experience is typical) that I'm happier today than I ever have been in my
entire life.
So go to it! Your whole life awaits!
> ... I'm currently looking for a therapist ... almost all G.I.
> specialists are up in Atlanta. And that's like a 4 hour
> drive, and I don't own a car:(.
Becky Allison has assembled a list of therapists around the country on her
website at http://www.drbecky.com/therapists.html. You're right, the ones
in GA are all around Atlanta. But I notice she has one listed in
Charleston, SC that I think would be much closer.
Good luck and again, welcome to the group.
Nicki
loren-andrea
Hello. Congratulations on taking that first big step. Nice to meet you.
Blessings,
Andrea
Christa <xgen_...@my-deja.com> wrote in message
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> I'm not sure how all the formalities of this NG work having only been
> lurking on and off for the past 2 weeks, but I figured I'd go with what
> I know, and a formal de-lurk would be in order. here goes:
>
> Hi! My name's christa, and I'm a 21 y/o pre-anything M2F transexual.
> I've been spending that past few weeks seriously and honestly coming to
> terms with myself, something I've known since I was about 10, but have
> been too scared(eek!) of the implications/consequences to deal with in
> any serious way.
>
> able to find one in my town. From what I've seen so far, almost all G.I.
> specialists are up in Atlanta. And that's like a 4 hour drive, and I
> don't own a car:(.
>
TLM
Gwendolyn Ann Smith
<xgen_...@my-deja.com> wrote:
> if anyone has any recent info on therapists in GA, let me know. the list
> I have was compiled in 97, so I'm sure there may be some updates.
Welcome Christa.
You'll find a couple listed at
http://www.gender.org/resources/state/georgia.html . In fact, two of
'em are friends of mine, and are pretty ok folks.
Cheers,
Gwen Smith
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Christa
> Welcome Christa.
>
> You'll find a couple listed at
> http://www.gender.org/resources/state/georgia.html . In fact, two of
> 'em are friends of mine, and are pretty ok folks.
wow! thatnks alot gwen. this really helps.
-Chrusta
Christa
sorry about the slow reply! i typed up a reply but the blasted lab
computers all crashed at the same time last night. stupid cheapo
college... ;<
I didn't know that there WAS an SRS newsgroup. wow! thanks for the info!
I've spent the better part of the day today emailing therapists and
specialasts in atlanta, which seems to be the closest concentration of
them, about what my options here in Savannah are. I've got my fingers
crossed. ~:o
I'm really, really looking forward to transitioning. I don't mean to
sound overzealous or anything, because I know it's not all rainbows and
puppy dog tails all the time, but with 21 years of this imprisonmnet
already, anything would be a welcome change. I'm surprised I made it
past last year. that was probably the worst. but Now I'm glad I found
all the info I've gathered so far. I even found some before and after
photos, which give me soooo much hope for myself.
> I can promise that you are about to embark on a marvelous adventure,
> probably the most important thing you've ever done in your whole life.
It's
> difficult, terrifying (but only just before you start),
hehe! i'll say. I'm scared to death, but It's a good scared, if that
makes sense.
> Those demons we have faced all our lives, that
> sense that we can't ever let anyone get too close for fear they'll
> find out who we are, all that gets fixed in transition. I find (and I
> think my experience is typical) that I'm happier today than I ever
> have been in my
> entire life.
Oh I'm so hoping for it. Just the act of actually coming out to someone
about it(close close friend. She's behind me 100%) makes me feel 80%
better than I did before.
> So go to it! Your whole life awaits!
sure thing!
*HUGZ*
-Christa
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"Of course there's no future when you make sure there's none;
Impatience "time is wasting", there's no future to be won"
If you truly don't care, then why talk 'No Future'; Excuses hang
like a noose "I've given up I just don't care" - Anti
Gwendolyn Ann Smith
<xgen_...@my-deja.com> wrote:
> > You'll find a couple listed at
> > http://www.gender.org/resources/state/georgia.html . In fact, two of
> > 'em are friends of mine, and are pretty ok folks.
>
> wow! thanks alot gwen. this really helps.
Yer welcome, of course. :-)
Cheers,
Gwen Smith
Lisanne Anderson
Welcome!!!!
Nice to see some that some of the wisest amnd nicest of people have
already responded to you. There will be more,and you will be made to feel like
family in a very short time.
Shhhhhhh! Don't tell anyone else, but I am certainly not very
conservative. Rather a bit crazy, some who know me well will attest to that.
OTOH, most of the others are really ancient, and they don't always understan'
you young folks when you talk, ya know. So type real slow so they can
comprehend.
Just kidding. Most of us aren't really that old, but then again, at 21, 40
is ancient. And I am 44! Most of the others are about my age, though a few
remember when dinosaurs roamed the earth. <giggle>
You really are embarking on an important journey, and it is one where you
have to be really sure of yourself before you go too far. That is why you have
to listen to your voice more intently than any of ours. There may be times when
a perception expressed by one of us may not sound right to you. Do not accept
anything we write as absolute fact. We can really speak best only for
ourselves.
Nevertheless, this is a group of some very wise and wonderful people, some
TS, some TG, and some who are of other definitions. Most of us try to be
objective. But like most of the world, we are not infalliable. Always remember
that. There are times that we can be totally clueless, just like those lesser
than ourselves. <giggle>
Again, a most joyful welcome to you. I hope that you find us to be sources
of friendship and support as you embark on your quest for self.
Love and Big Hugs
Lisanne
Valerie Anne
Dinosaurs? Oh, I must take umbrage with that. I just can't seem to find
where I last put my umbrage. But, I know I left it around here somewhere. .
.
Hey! has anyone seen my umbrage? I have to take it to Lisanne!
Christa, just don't listen to her. We call her Granny Lisanne around here
and she has been around so long she is growing moss under her arms. Old!
Huh!
(still stinging from the dinosaur nip)
Welcome to the "young T forum", We keep Granny Lisanne around for comic
relief. Oh, my!
H@ H@ H@ Old? Oh!
Hugs
Valerie Anne
(Shhhh, Christa, 60 isn't very old is it???)
("Just kidding, Lisanne. I love you anyway", Valerie says gnawing on a dino
bone.")
Lisanne Anderson <lisa...@aol.com.picnic> wrote in message
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Deb Marsh
news:9zsO4.39792$WF.19...@bgtnsc04-news.ops.worldnet.att.net...
> Welcome to the "young T forum", We keep Granny Lisanne around for comic
> relief. Oh, my!
>
> H@ H@ H@ Old? Oh!
>
> Hugs
> Valerie Anne
>
> (Shhhh, Christa, 60 isn't very old is it???)
> ("Just kidding, Lisanne. I love you anyway", Valerie says gnawing on a
dino
> bone.")
Eh! Wot's that y' say young Valerie? (Dang blasted ear trumpet - gotta get
me one of them thar ee-lectronic 'hear-ya-better' thing'my bobs).
Youngsters? Did y' say youngsters? Lord! Ain't we got enough to do without
having to listen to them thar high fallutin' notions - horn-e-mones,
ee-lectrolysis and other such fancies? Hell in a handcart! Some folks'll be
having their wot-nots turned inside-out next, shouldn't be surprised.
With affection 8-)
Miss Deborah (Now, were did I put m' teeth, have a hankerin' to chew me some
t'baccie)
Christa
> > wow! thanks alot gwen. this really helps.
>
> Yer welcome, of course. :-)
I'm kicking myself now focourse. Virginia Aerhardt was in town for some
conference in savannah this weekend. I just picked one off the list and sent
them an email asking for advice or information. unfortunately I didn't check
my mail all saturday afternoon, so Imissed out on my opportunity to meet with
her for free. Ack! ! Bu I did get a phone consultation from A. lawrence, and
that helped me out a whole lot with some good good good advice. So my weekend
worked out pretty decently.
Oh, and I came out to my dad. he took it really well, although I know by the
tone of his voice I pretty much did the vocal version of kicking him in the
nuts really hard. But He didn't freak out or anything, and offered to help me
out(yes!) if he could. So It loks like things are looking up on my end. whee!
-Christa
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Impatience "time is wasting", there's no future to be won" If you truly don't
care, then why talk 'No Future'; Excuses hang like a noose "I've given up I
just don't care" - Anti-Flag, No future