How the First Lady Tulka went down
Koos Nolst Trenite
6 September 1999
posted 25 October 2002
The First Lady, Tulka, has been shot
by Hubbard and by Hubbard controlling
Reiss, throwing at her most forcefully
that 'THEY are everywhere' and that
'THEY can't be handled' - while they are
throwing, and while they are having their
zombies, such as Freya and Tulka's daughter
and other zombies of Hubbard, throw enormous
amounts of Black Disconnection Life Energy
at her (which prevents perception of people
and life and of herself as they actually are).
We have set up various defense mechanisms
for that, such as being with me, staying
in my Life Energy, 'wheathering it out'
(not doing any illogical and compulsive
actions till the Black Disconnection
Energy has been dissipated and spiritual
vision has returned enough).
We also called that 'staying in my hip-pocket'.
And of course, we have been Running out,
Auditing out, times that Hubbard and his
zombies killed her and Implanted her to
be completely unaware and spiritually dead.
These were the first actions we did - her
being killed spiritually by her mother,
by her daughter, and then earlier lifetimes,
which led to the Egyptian Implants by Hubbard
and Reiss and by the person who is now her mother,
who did the final mummification 'eternal death'
Implant on Tulka.
However, Tulka had a very strong, destructive purpose,
that we missed, and which greatly impaired her improvement
and her ability to handle life - which, handling life,
we had to do mostly for her, most of the time,
as regards handling the physical universe and so on.
That purpose was not easily seen AS A DESTRUCTIVE PURPOSE.
More so, as I knew Tulka; and as I had always known
to be her basic, OWN intention: 'To CARE for people'.
Which is her basic nature.
So I explained away a lot of her NOT, in daily life,
caring for me, her NOT caring for Noel, her NOT actually
caring for the evil of her daughter or of her former friends
and mother and her former relations; yes, "caring" by 'being
friendly' and by her complying with their intentions not
to be looked at, but NOT CARING by facing them, except now in
sessions about them, in which Tulka very well could face their
very strong and debilitating evil intentions on her, and she could,
in sessions very well face how and why these people had ruined her
life and killed her aliveness and care, over and over.
Tulka wanted rather, by them, to be made to feel good
and to 'share their emotions' and be ADMIRED for her
abilities of being able to see some of the Spiritual
Universe.
Well, there have been most vicious Energetic
attacks on her, by her daughter, by her mother,
by Freya, by Reiss, by other zombies of Hubbard,
and we - Noel and I that is - withstood those; and
each time we got Tulka out of it, after a few hours
or at most after two days, of Tulka acting more or less
like a wild animal not wanting to know and not
being able to see who she really is and what her
true nature and good intentions are.
At such moments, her intention to care, for others
and for herself, were completely gone, and replaced
by some intention 'to feel good', or 'to not feel anything',
and without any regard or feeling for others or for herself,
actually being completely unaware of what she did to others
and what the consequences of her acts (both the good ones
and the bad ones) were, for herself and for others.
These Energetic attacks were stepped up tremendously,
the closer we came to the truth about Hubbard,
and closer to finding out how Hubbard operates to
prevent people from even knowing about God and Creation,
and from knowing about their true nature and
- most important of all - about HIS true nature.
That is how Hubbard operates: Making someone
UNAWARE, UNABLE TO CONTACT his own, native,
good intentions.
Or, in the Egyptian death-Implants, to make
a person unaware of his intention to live,
by various secret, mechanical means and gadgets
which he still has not revealed and certainly
is not going to reveal to his followers in
Scientology.
My seeing and remembering and knowing Tulka's
good intentions, and that she freed me
from 20 million years of captivity by
Hubbard, freeing me in a tremendous act of
love from her towards me, made me discount or
find less important or 'will vanish in the
course of processing' HER PRESENT, THIS LIFETIME
DESTRUCTIVE INTENTIONS AND COMPULSIONS.
These intentions of hers are mainly directed
and intended by Hubbard to destroy herself
when she gets too able and when she executes
her intention to defeat Hubbard's evil and his
Darkness that he imposed upon all of us, in the last
74 million years, enforcing it on us and
cementing it by PRETENDING to save us from it,
now, with his Scientology.
You have listened to the sessions about that,
which have been published.
Up to now, we had stood up to and nullified
all tricks of Hubbard to restimulate Tulka
into past Implants and into using her destructive
intentions.
Using their good intentions in order to get
a person to destroy himself or not see attacks
on him, that is what Hubbard and his zombies
do as their best trick, to everyone.
Their tricks also are, in order to prevent
recovery, to throw, Energetically
- telepathically that is - the most atrocious
lies about themselves and about me and about
Hubbard.
So what was the evil intention of Tulka that I
missed before, and which Tulka so vehemently
kept in place to destroy herself and to oppose
her native intention to care for others?
She had been keeping herself going, this lifetime,
with a sense of self-worth, by identifying herself
with her ABILITIES of seeing some of the Spiritual
Universe - doing THAT, INSTEAD of caring for herself
and for others and for those who tried to destroy
her life and love, by facing her own destructive
intentions and those of others.
Well, she IS not 'her abilities': She is herself
whether those abilities are working or temporarily
shot out by Hubbard's zombies, such as by her mother
when Tulka was a baby, or by her girlfriend Cheryl
on 15 November 1970 (Cheryl committed suicide IN ORDER
to prove to Tulka that Tulka's love is not ABLE, that
Tulka does not have THE ABILITY, to make Cheryl live)
This girlfriend got reborn, to be Tulka's daughter, and
used a lot of deception to make Tulka not see what
the spiritual condition of Cheryl, now her daughter, is:
The condition of being a long time zombie of Hubbard with
the secret compulsion to destroy life, especially the native
intention of Tulka, to really care for people.
Cheryl 'got' Tulka on her weak point, on Tulka's destructive
intention, by "PROVING" to Tulka with her suicide, that
Tulka IS NOT ABLE, DOES NOT HAVE THE ABILITY to restore and
increase and help life, even when she tries hard and
puts all her love in it.
These are the type of lies that you are dealing with, from
Hubbard and from his zombies:
ONE person, Cheryl, and one person, Hubbard, Tulka could
THIS LIFETIME not handle with love.
And that then is projected as "all persons", "all the time",
"in all circumstances", as "you are a complete failure"
- which is of course a lie.
Because of her evil intention, Tulka took it then
as 'her not being able to restore life', and as 'her love
does not work' and as 'it is all no use'.
And, in order to not be aware of her destructive intention
of identifying herself with HER ABILITIES, she went into
going to people to accept a tremendous amount of lies and
going to people pretending to appreciate her, admiring her FOR
HER ABILITIES, and she went into ADMIRING HERSELF FOR HER ABILITIES, into
Yoga, into astrology, into numerology, she went to "friends" who ALSO had
the purpose NOT to face evil, and "friends" who ADMIRED themselves, and
her, for "caring" WITHOUT facing evil, WITHOUT facing the actual sources
of evil and destruction of life.
"Friends" who ADMIRED her FOR HER ABILITIES, but
IN ORDER THAT SHE DOES NOT USE THESE VERY abilities to face
their and others' destructive intentions:
'Only see the good in people, don't see their destructive
intentions - THAT will take care of bringing out the good
in them'.
And she did that also to herself - NOT looking at her own
destructive intentions but admiring herself and wanting
to be admired for her ABILITIES, and for her GOOD intentions.
And when her special ABILITIES, or her good intention
to care for others, were Energetically shot by some zombies
or by Hubbard himself, then she considered SHE was 'worth nothing',
and 'not loved', and 'rejected'.
Someone admiring her abilities, she took as 'someone
accepting her'. Her abilities being shot out, temporarily,
she took as 'her not being worth anything to anyone', and
therefore 'must reject all love given her', because
'she IS her abilities - so what can a person possibly
love of her when she does not have those abilities in place?'
Such is the evil and sorrow and grief CREATED by
Hubbard and his zombies INTO people.
Tulka's evil intention was TO IDENTIFY HERSELF WITH HER
ABILITIES - IN ORDER NOT TO FACE AND HANDLE LIFE and
those that destroy her abilities and her CARING use of it.
I got her to realize, in session, that her daughter
did always and does very heavily reject her native care,
BY ADMIRING HER ABILITIES WHILE DOING EVERYTHING
POSSIBLE TO MAKE HER NOT USE THOSE ABILITIES
TO FACE HER DAUGHTER, and to make her NOT face the
very destructive intentions and the lies about her
and other decent caring people, thrown at her by her
"friends" :
"It is the abilities that count, showing
and proving to yourself that you have abilities,
NOT to USE them to face the suppression of life and
of herself by others!".
I am writing this a bit more extensively, because
you will find this in many, maybe in all clairvoyants
and psychics. It is those lies thrown at them by
Hubbard and his zombies, to prevent them from
seeing him and his evil and taking the appropriate
actions.
That particular destructive (evil, anti-survival,
but not necessarily mean) intention is hard to face,
hard to detect even, because they DO USE their abilities
to bring about some good - they help a person get rid of
some bad condition, they provide some information
that helps others, they radiate - IN ORDER TO
EXECUTE AND AT THE MOMENT OF EXECUTING THE ABILITY -
a lot of Life Force!
And THAT is not evil at all, of course!
So it is almost impossible to see the evil intention,
because they do good, sometimes very spectacular good.
So there is the person, the personal doctor of Heinrich
Himmler, who alleviated, by laying of his hands on
Himmler's belly and transmitting Life Energy into it,
the severe belly aches of Himmler.
(Himmler: The Nazi death Commander of the SS and
extermination troops, who also got me arrested and
executed in my previous life time, as you know from
a recent, published session.)
That was not so good, you might say, but this doctor
ALSO said to Himmler: 'I want to have the lives of
so and so many Jews spared, else I won't handle
your belly ache'.
Now THAT is good, of course, you would say.
(See the book "Les Mains du Miracle - The Miracle Hands")
You see, he let Himmler exterminate millions of Jews,
(and he let Himmler murder me as well), even though
he could have ACTUALLY stopped Himmler from committing
these enormous crimes. He could have done that without
even a risk to his own life! He could have stopped
Himmler's ability to execute the intention to mass-murder
and destroy life.
And this doctor could have done that, then and there,
WITHOUT even USING his ABILITIES for that!
So, when you ask them, 'Are there any evil (non-survival)
intentions connected with this?' or 'Do you have any
evil intentions or counter-intentions to executing
your good intentions?' they say "No - I do not have
any evil intentions, I have good intentions."
These evil intentions are hard to detect, as I said,
and they are hard to admit by the person having them.
THEY ARE SO MUCH ADMIRED, AND WANTING TO BE ADMIRED
FOR THEIR ABILITIES, that they do NOT look what
they are PREVENTED from seeing or handling.
This is a STANDARD trick of YOUR OWN VALUABLE
and GOOD intentions being used against you.
It is probably the main trick of spiritual criminals,
to get you to 'help' them, to get you to give them
your care and love and fruits of your abilities,
and they ADMIRE you heavily for being so good,
IN ORDER THAT YOU DON'T SEE how much they hate you
and destroy your, and their own and other's life,
secretly, behind your back.
I nearly found out, and then DID find out, Tulka's
destructive intention - which Hubbard and his zombies used
with all their Energetic might, to try and restimulate,
many times - the intention or "solution" 'to prove her
selfworth', to herself especially, INSTEAD OF caring for others.
She went to use her abilities to PROVE to herself
'that she can do it', and the result, of someone
or some people helped, was SECONDARY, not the
real goal anymore.
'Being made to and feeling good and able and certain'
BECAME the goal, in her present life, especially after
her girlfriend spiritually killed her, in 1970.
This showed up in many ways and many instances.
When she HAD shown, to herself especially, an
ability, something she could do, she would
stop caring, and be complacent, somewhat arrogant
- AND be open fully to Energetic attacks by Hubbard
and his zombies.
It is similar to the evil purpose 'to be good', or
the Implant 'You have to be perfect', which
were in rather strong restimulation in Tulka,
despite our continuous countering of these
evil intentions.
So one time, being rather upset with herself,
she during the night, intentionally WITHOUT
MY HELP and WITHOUT INFORMING ME, went and
projected some very strong Life Energy to the
a place to try and revive some beings who are in a
state or stasis of being mummified.
In order to, as a little stubborn child, "prove"
to herself that "she IS able", and "CAN do it
alone".
You may see already, that the purpose was "TO PROVE
her abilities to herself" and NOT to care for people.
Further, she DID get a response back from a being
as proof that this being DID wake up as a result
of her Energy projected, from its eternal coma or stasis.
But THEN, she got fully slammed Energetically, and
had suddenly no feeling or care for anybody, and Noel and I
took two days to get her out of it, to get her to
be herself and in communication and happy again,
instead of her being caught into the grip of "having
to prove that she is able, and that is all there is
in life."
Another time, she DID regain the ability to see
me Energetically, without her spiritual vision of me
being disturbed by the zombies.
And she was lying there, while I was asleep, looking at
me and contemplating that "Now she has made it, now
she can not be thrown off anymore", INSTEAD of being
on her guard against Energetic attacks on herself or on me,
and USING her improvement to go and CARE more easily.
And she Admired herself and accepted Admiration from Hubbard,
for 'having made it'. And so she lost her vision and her
communication with her good intention to care for others,
because she did not see WHAT ELSE Hubbard threw at her
WITH the Admiration Energy.
Which took us a day to get her out of.
Another example is her wanting to win at the lottery.
She had, one or two times, a few years back, seen
numbers Energetically light up, from the betting
form, at some races, and these were the numbers that then won.
BUT she never used those abilities to actually get some
activity going - a "friend" used it to make a few
dollars, and then she lost the ability.
Now Tulka wanted, since months, to win the lottery,
in all earnest. But, as she told me now, NOT to
have money to do things with, but "to prove that
she can do it". And the result would of course
be beneficial, as a side effect, but THAT is not
what she wanted or why she wanted to win the lottery!
NOT the purpose to care for us, or for herself or
for the activity, but "to prove that she can do
something (that others can't do)".
Another example is her wanting to, and "being certain
that SHE can" remove Hubbard completely from this
planet and stop all his evil, WITHIN TWO MONTHS.
That's a nice idea, but when it did not happen
within two months, she felt "she is a failure".
You see that that is NOT the purpose to care,
but a destructive intention 'to prove that she is able'.
So, her abilities, her good purposes and intentions,
were USED against her to make her pervert these
purposes into 'opposing those who invalidate her -
WITHOUT her looking at or facing WHO was and is
invalidating her good intentions'.
We found many of these individuals invalidating her,
as you know from the sessions that have been published.
But her intention TO ADMIRE HERSELF for her abilities
was missed, and was not accessible really, as it
was her "self-determinism" and "her way of ALONE
'getting herself back' when she was shot".
This "solution" was so 'workable' to her, and
she considered it 'so self-determined', that
'nobody must touch or destroy it'.
Even though it took her often years to recover
from a hit, alone that is, always without the help
of another and truly caring for her person,
[without another person truly caring to help her] find
out WHO hit her (and when and how and with what Energy,
and [by] restimulating which past hit on her, and
[by touching off] which destructive intention of hers.
Again, it is the "solution" [called] Admiration, the poison
and drug used by Hubbard and by his zombies, to
make people not look, but [instead] want [to], and "have to"
'feel good or certain or proud' about themselves, and ["have to"]
'feel good ([that is, feel] admired by) or "superior" about
those who DESTROY[!] them.'
And, WHEN Hubbard gets a person to want to or "have to"
Admire himself in order to feel good, then that
person 'has had it', and can be moved and
mind-controlled like a puppet, with that mechanism:
Just make him feel bad - which is the easiest
thing for Hubbard and his zombies to do, Energetically.
They throw, ENERGETICALLY, Life Energy Particles
which have emotions and thoughts in them, because
that is the NATURE of Life Energy Particles.
You THINK, because these ARE Life Energy Particles,
and because they are thrown together with some
Black Disconnection Life Energy Particles, that these
are your OWN emotions of for instance failure, sadness,
agitation, hate, etc. and that the lies contained in
them are your OWN thoughts and own evaluations - but
they are not. They are of the purest and deepest and
most evil mind-control imaginable. That is L. Ron Hubbard's
'gift' to Mankind.
Tulka's destructive solution was: Wanting to 'make herself [-]
and [wanting to] be made to - FEEL certain and "superior in
abilities"', INSTEAD of facing Hubbard and facing former "friends"
and family[: Those] who invalidated the hell out of her own, native
intention to care BY facing and recognizing and eliminating evil and
the source of evil, and who continuously shot her Energetically
while sweet talking to her - as you have heard in the sessions.
INSTEAD of FACING the sources of evil, she used [that, what she used]
in the past, the "solution" 'to make herself believe that "she is
stronger than evil, and her abilities are there to prove it, and to
'give her the certainty that she is stronger than Hubbard'."
The TRUTH is that SHE IS NOT STRONGER THAN Hubbard
and his army of zombies, no matter how many abilities
she 'proves' she can - at one moment, for one occasion,
for one person - bring to give a result.
The TRUTH is, that we, all of us TOGETHER are stronger
than Hubbard.
This is why I ask your support, and I ask it strongly,
more than ever.
with love and with continuing care for you,
Koos "Cause"
Koos Nolst Trenite "Cause Trinity"
human rights philosopher and poet
Copyright 1999, 2002 by Koos Nolst Trenite - human rights philosopher
and poet
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