Self portrait in Paul's basement, contemplating an exoskeleton with video effects in the background.
Valuing
prolonged adolescence sounds counterintuitive, I know. Indeed, our
culture abounds with examples of the worst sort of prolonged
adolescence, such as narcissistic baby boomers desperately and
pathetically trying to hold onto the things of youth. I have often
quoted the Mary Renault character who said, "Man must make his peace
with his seasons or the gods will laugh at him." It can be dangerous to
cling to the Puer Aeternus,
the archetype of the eternal youth. And yet there is also the creative,
inspiring and metamorphic side of the prolongation of adolescence, a
more hidden side of the paradox of prolonged youth that also needs to
be honored.
From an evolutionary and developmental point of
view, it is often an advantage to be a late bloomer. A general trend we
see in nature is that the more complex the organism, and the more
potential it has for individuality, the longer it needs to develop.
Baby spiders and scorpions seem to come into the world already fully
locked and loaded with everything they need to know to be spiders and
scorpions. They seem to have pre-installed operating systems of
instincts allowing them to function as miniature adults at soon as they
hatch. Spiders and scorpions are not late bloomers, they don't spend
years wondering what they will be when they grow up. Spiders and
scorpions seem to hit the ground running, without the slightest doubt
or insecurity about who they are supposed to be, and what they are
supposed to do. They are also hard-wired and mechanical compared to
more individualized creatures like us. They are prodigies of
self-sufficiency, competence without training, action without
hesitation. Adolescence for spiders and scorpions doesn't stretch for
decades into middle age. To a person of painful self-consciousness,
like J. Alfred Prufrock , to be an action-oriented exoskeleton seems an enviable thing,
"I should have been a pair of ragged claws Scuttling across the floors of silent seas."
But the lifestyle of ragged claws scuttling across the floors of silent
seas may not be as enviable as J. Alfred imagines. For the late
bloomer, the path of the fully formed man of action may seem enviable —
the glamour of an instinct-driven life ensconced in an attractive
exoskeleton, the imagined lives of square-jawed muscular types stepping
out of glossy magazine pages and action films — and yet there is much
to be said for being a mutating introvert, not yet identified with a
glossy exterior on a path of unhesitating action.
The more
evolved animals seem to take longer before they are ready to hit the
ground running. Human development can slow and stagnate, stretch out
too long, but it can also end too soon, and we have the prematurely
adult types, those whose identity has been locked and loaded since
middle school or high school. They are not experiencing prolonged
adolescence; they are formed adolescent types prolonging themselves
into stagnant adulthood.
But some highly individualized
mutants retain the metamorphic aspect of adolescence, and have not
fully formed. Some inner will for transformation will not allow them to
rigidify into a finished adult form even though it might be decades
since biological adolescence should have ended. This type of late
blooming has its painful drawbacks, but also its developmental
advantages. The longer and more labyrinthine the path of developmental,
the more individualized and novel may be the results.
The
world is overpopulated with finished exoskeletal types. The exoskeletal
folks have already been locked and loaded with fundamentalisms and
absolutisms that tell them everything they think they need to know.
Exoskeletal folk are busy scuttling forth, acting out. But the world
also needs more interiorized folk, the personifications of evolution's
attempts to experiment with the human form, those who live in prolonged
states of metamorphosis.
Consider this a propitious time to
allow the painful metamorphosis of prolonged adolescence, and honor the
path of the late bloomer.