y3071.1AG09-10 Remorse of the Needle
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y3071.1AG09-10 Remorse of the Needle
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Canto 3.71 Complaint of the Sûchikâ Needle
vasiSTha said—
अथ सा बहु-कालेन कर्कटी नाम राक्षसी ।
सर्वेषाम् नर-मांसानाम् न तु तृप्तिम्_उपाययौ ॥३।७१।१॥
atha sA bahu-kAlena karkaTI nAma rAkSasI |
sarveSAm nara-mAMsAnAm na tu tRptim_upAyayau ||3|71|1||
Even in the long course of time that ogress, crabby karkatII,
could never get enough of what she liked:
all sorts of human meat.
पूर्वेण_एव किल_अह्ना सा तृप्ता रुधिर-बिन्दुना ।
सूच्या: किम्_अपि मात्य्_अन्तस्_तृष्णा-सूची सु.दुर्भरा ॥३।७१।२॥
pUrveNa_eva kila_ahnA sA tRptA rudhira-bindunA |
sUcyA: kim_api mAty_antas_tRSNA-sUcI su.durbharA ||3|71|2||
O, in the good-old-days she was contented with a drop of blood...
but now, though she's the measure of a pin,
her thirst is hard=to-satisfy.
चिन्तयाम्.आस हा कष्टम् किम्_अलम् सूचिताम् गता ।
सूक्ष्मा_अस्मि हत-शक्तिश्_च_अपि ग्रासो न माति च ॥३।७१।३॥
cintayAm.Asa hA kaSTam kim_alam sUcitAm gatA |
sUkSmA_asmi hata-zaktiz_ca_api grAso na mAti ca ||3|71|3||
She thought,
"What a mess!
Isn't it enough that I must take this pin-shape?
I'm thin,
and all my powers are fading-away,
and I can't measure.out my fill!
क्व मे तानि विशालानि गतान्य्_अङ्गानि दुर्धिय: ।
काल-मेघ-विशालानि वने शीर्णानि पर्णवत् ॥३।७१।४॥
kva me tAni vizAlAni gatAny_aGgAni durdhiya: |
kAla-megha-vizAlAni vane zIrNAni parNavat ||3|71|4||
"The huge body that I had once—
where is it gone?—lost through stupidity!
Once I moved like a gathering rainstorm—
but now my powers are like dry leaves scattered in the forest.
मय्य्_अस्याम् मन्द-भाग्यायाम् मनाग्.अपि न माति हि ।
स्वादु-मांस-रस-ग्रासो वसावासित आसयन् ॥३।७१।५॥
mayy_asyAm manda-bhAgyAyAm manAg.api na mAti hi |
svAdu-mAMsa-rasa-grAso vasAvAsita Asayan ||3|71|5||
पङ्का_अन्तर्_विनिमज्जामि पतामि धरणी-तले ।
हता_अस्मि जनपद-ओघै: शुक्रेण मलिना_अस्मि ॥३।७१।६॥
paGkA_antar_vinimajjAmi patAmi dharaNI-tale |
hatA_asmi janapada-oghai: zukreNa malinA_asmi ||3|71|6||
"There's little pleasure here for me—even less than a little!
Where's the sweet aroma of my meat,
my juicy marrow-bone and fat?
I plunge into the mud.
I fall to earth, where I am trampled by the fall of feet.
हा हता_अहम्_अ.नाथा_अहम्_अन्.आश्वासा निर्.आस्पदा ।
दु:खात्_दु:खे निमज्जामि संकटात्_संकटे_अपि च ॥३।७१।७॥
hA hatA_aham_a.nAthA_aham_an.AzvAsA nir.AspadA |
du:khAt_du:khe nimajjAmi saMkaTAt_saMkaTe_api ca ||3|71|7||
"O I am down!
I have no Lord,
no hope,
no home.
I pass from one trouble to another trouble—
from one I sink.into the next.
न सखी न च मे दासी न मे माता न मे पिता ।
न मे बन्धुर्_न मे भृत्या न मे भ्राता न मे सुत: ॥३।७१।८॥
na sakhI na ca me dAsI na me mAtA na me pitA |
na me bandhur_na me bhRtyA na me bhrAtA na me suta: ||3|71|8||
"For me there's no companions,
I don't even have a chambermaid!
I have no mother, no father,
no relatives, no servants,
no brother for me,
for me no son.
न मे देहो न मे स्थानम् न मे कश्चित्_समाश्रय: ।
न_एक.स्थाने समावासो भ्राम्यामि वन-पर्णवत् ॥३।७१।९॥
na me deho na me sthAnam na me kazcit_samAzraya: |
na_eka.sthAne samAvAso bhrAmyAmi vana-parNavat ||3|71|9||
"For me there is no body;
for me there's no place, no refuge at all, nowhere a place to stay—
I'm drifting like a forest leaf!
आपदाम् धुरि तिष्ठामि निविष्टा_अस्मि सु.दारुणे ।
अभावम्_अपि वाञ्छामि सो_अपि संपद्यते न मे ॥३।७१।१०॥
ApadAm dhuri tiSThAmi niviSTA_asmi su.dAruNe |
abhAvam_api vAJchAmi so_api saMpadyate na me ||3|71|10||
"Disaster is ahead of me:
I'm headed-for calamity.
However I long not-to.be,
it does not come.about for me.
स्वको देहः परित्यक्तो मूढचेतनया मया ।
काचबुद्ध्या विमूढेन हस्ताच्चिन्तामणिर्यथा ॥३।७१।११॥
स्वको देह: परित्यक्तो मूढ-चेतनया मया ।
काच-बुद्ध्या विमूढेन हस्ताच्_चिन्तामणिर्_यथा ॥३।७१।११॥
svako deha: parityakto mUDha-cetanayA mayA |
kAca-buddhyA vimUDhena hastAc_cintAmaNir_yathA ||3|71|11||
"I've given up my own body,
thanks to my bright intelligence
—its flashing insight!—
like some drunk who throws away a Wishing-Stone!"
आपतत्_द्-हि मनस् मोहम् पूर्वम्_आपत्_प्रयच्छति ।
पश्चात्_अन्.अर्थ-विस्तार.रूपेण परिजृम्भते ॥३।७१।१२॥
Apatat_d-hi manas moham pUrvam_Apat_prayacchati |
pazcAt_an.artha-vistAra.rUpeNa parijRmbhate ||3|71|12||
When manas.Mind falls into delusion,
first it affects distress;
and next misfortune spreads.about a fulness of futility.
धूमेषु परितिष्ठामि मार्गे विलुलिता_अस्मि च ।
तृणेषु प्रेषिता_अस्म्य्_अन्तर्_हा मे दु:ख-परम्परा ॥३।७१।१३॥
dhUmeSu paritiSThAmi mArge vilulitA_asmi ca |
tRNeSu preSitA_asmy_antar_hA me du:kha-paramparA ||3|71|13||
"I hang in smoky air,
and on the road I toss and turn
—or fall aground—
because within,
for me,
one trouble chases another!
पर-प्रैष.करी नित्यम् पर-संचार-चारिणी ।
परम् कार्पण्यम्_आयाता जाता परवशा_अस्म्य् अलम् ॥३।७१।१४॥
para-praiSa.karI nityam para-saMcAra-cAriNI |
param kArpaNyam_AyAtA jAtA paravazA_asmy alam ||3|71|14||
"Always taking others's orders, doing others's business,
I've come to total misery:—born to service, that's what I am!
भ्रान्तिम् करोमि तुच्छे च सा_अपि वेधन-रूपिणी ।
अहो मम_अल्प-भाग्याया दौर्भाग्यम्_अपि दुर्भगम् ॥३।७१।१५॥
bhrAntim karomi tucche ca sA_api vedhana-rUpiNI |
aho mama_alpa-bhAgyAyA daurbhAgyam_api durbhagam ||3|71|15||
"I wander this futility formed to prick;
and, O poor me, it is small pleasure:
for a sorry choice surely, too, makes a sorry get!
उत्थित: स्फार-वेताल: कुर्वत्या: शान्तितम् अद्य मे ।
सर्व-नाशो_अवदानेन प्रवृत्ताया मम_उदिता ॥३।७१।१६॥
utthita: sphAra-vetAla: kurvatyA: zAntitam adya me |
sarva-nAzo_avadAnena pravRttAyA mama_uditA ||3|71|16||
"There has arisen an immense vetaala Zombie
that is the karma of my own austerities,
It will not let me rest in peace,
until I destroy everything.
किम् मन्दया मया तादृक्-संत्यक्तम् तन्_महावपु: ।
यथा नाशेन वा भाव्यम् तथा_उदेत्य्_अ.शुभा मति: ॥३।७१।१७॥
kim mandayA mayA tAdRk-saMtyaktam tan_mahAvapu: |
yathA nAzena vA bhAvyam tathA_udety_a.zubhA mati: ||3|71|17||
"What a great fool I've been, forsaking that great body!
I deserve destruction,
it's fitting reward for the work of an impure mind.
माम्_अवान्तर-निर्मग्नाम् सूक्ष्माम् कीट-तनोर्_अपि ।
उद्धरिष्यति को नाम पांसु.राशिभिर्_आवृताम् ॥३।७१।१८॥
mAm_avAntara-nirmagnAm sUkSmAm kITa-tanor_api |
uddhariSyati ko nAma pAMsu.rAzibhir_AvRtAm ||3|71|18||
"I'm wrapped in this tiny thing
like the body of a worm.
And who will rescue me
who lie here hidden in the dust?"
विविक्त-मनसाम् बुद्धौ क्व स्फुरन्ति हत-आशय: ।
ग्रम-मार्ग-तृणानि इव गिरेर्_उपरि वासिनाम् ॥३।७१।१९॥
vivikta-manasAm buddhau kva sphuranti hata-Azaya: |
grama-mArga-tRNAni iva girer_upari vAsinAm ||3|71|19||
The intellect of discerning
minds takes no notice of such things:
it's like grass on a village road
for dwellers on a mountainside.
स्थिताया_अज्ञता-अम्भोधौ क्व मम_अभ्युदयो भवेत् ।
अन्धस्य_उदेति प्राकाश्यम् नख-द्योत-अनुसेविन: ॥३।७१।२०॥
sthitAyA_ajJatA-ambhodhau kva mama_abhyudayo bhavet |
andhasya_udeti prAkAzyam nakha-dyota-anusevina: ||3|71|20||
"Set in a sea of ignorance,
what will my rise become?
A flash of fireflies opening blind eyes—
the glitter of my grasping nails.
AS. _khadyota is a lightning bug. Things don't become visible to a blind man by following a lightening bug.
अत: कियन्तम् नो जाने का_अलम्_आवलित-आपदम् ।
मया_आपच्-छ्वभ्र-गर्तेषु लुठितव्यम् हत-ईहया ॥३।७१।२१॥
ata: kiyantam no jAne kA_alam_Avalita-Apadam |
mayA_Apac-chvabhra-garteSu luThitavyam hata-IhayA ||3|71|21||
"I don't know what-to-do:
I've had my fill of this whirling cesspool of misery,
running.about through wholly hopeless holes!
कदा स्याम्_अञ्जन-महा-शैल-पुत्रक-रूपिणी ।
द्याव्-आ-पृथिव्योर्_वैधुर्ये स्तम्भताम्_अनुतिष्ठति ॥३।७१।२२॥
kadA syAm_aJjana-mahA-zaila-putraka-rUpiNI |
dyAv-A-pRthivyor_vaidhurye stambhatAm_anutiSThati ||3|71|22||
"When can I again become
the Dark Mountain Girl
standing here between heaven and earth,
a huge pillar?
मेघ-मालासमभुजा चिरम् विद्युत्-पद-ईक्षणा ।
नीहार-जाल-वसना प्रोच्छ-केशमित-अम्बरा ॥३।७१।२३॥
megha-mAlAsamabhujA ciram vidyut-pada-IkSaNA |
nIhAra-jAla-vasanA proccha-kezamita-ambarA ||3|71|23||
लम्ब_उदर_अभ्र-संदर्श-प्रनर्तित-शिखण्डिनी ।
लम्ब-लोल-स्तनी श्यामा देह-वात-द्रवत्-स्तनी ॥३।७१।२४॥
lamba_udara_abhra-saMdarza-pranartita-zikhaNDinI |
lamba-lola-stanI zyAmA deha-vAta-dravat-stanI ||3|71|24||
"When will my arms again reach for the clouds,
with my eyes like a lightning.flash,
my dress like snow,
my hair touching the sky?
my belly bulging, bouncing round,
a thirsty peahen dancing underneath a cloud,—
my dark dangling shaking breasts blowing in the wind."
हास-भस्म-च्-छटा-च्-छन्न-सूर्य-मण्डल-रोधिनी ।
कृतान्त-ग्रसन-उद्युक्त-कृत्य-एक-आकृति-धारिणी ॥३।७१।२५॥
hAsa-bhasma-c-chaTA-c-channa-sUrya-maNDala-rodhinI |
kRtAnta-grasana-udyukta-kRtya-eka-AkRti-dhAriNI ||3|71|25||
She'd hide the sun, she thinks as she cackles in her heap of ash—
her one duty to find meals for Death.
कृशानूलूखलदृशा सूर्यस्रग्दामहारिणी |
पर्वतात्पर्वते शृङ्गे न्यस्य पादौ विहारिणी ||3|71|२६||
kRzAnu-ulUkhala-dRzA sUrya-sragdAmahAriNI |
parvatAt parvate zRGge nyasya pAdau vihAriNI ||3|71|26||
"Like a fire in a wooden bowl,
my headdress was the sun.
I roved from mountaintop to mountaintop,
fixing my feet on every peak.
कदा मे स्याद्_गुरु-श्वभ्र-भासुरम् तन्_महोदरम् ।
कदा मे स्यात्_चरन्-मेघ-मेदुरा नखरा_अवली ॥३।७१।२७॥
kadA me syAd_guru-zvabhra-bhAsuram tan_mahodaram |
kadA me syAt_caran-megha-medurA nakharA_avalI ||3|71|27||
"When will there be for me again
that mighty hollow wonder,
that huge belly,
and my fingernails like red clouds in the sky?
कदा मे स्यान्_महारक्षो-विद्रावण-करम् स्मितम् ।
स्व-स्फिग्-वाद्यैर्_अरण्यान्यम् कदा नृत्येयम् उन्मदा ॥३।७१।२८॥
kadA me syAn_mahArakSo-vidrAvaNa-karam smitam |
sva-sphig-vAdyair_araNyAnyam kadA nRtyeyam unmadA ||3|71|28||
"When will there be for me again
the frenzied flowering of my farts
—frightening the Superdemons!—
as I dance madly in the Great Forest?
vlm. ... the music of the tabor ... VA. ... shaking my hips ... AS. ... making music with instruments hanging from her hips, or using the hips themselves as an instrument!
वसासव-महाकुम्भैर्_मृत-मांस-अस्थि-संचयै: ।
कदा करिष्ये_अविरतम् मेदुर-उदर-पूरणम् ॥३।७१।२९॥
vasAsava-mahAkumbhair_mRta-mAMsa-asthi-saMcayai: |
kadA kariSye_aviratam medura-udara-pUraNam ||3|71|29||
"With pots of marrowfat and grease,
with lots of dead meat and bone—
when
will I again make my poor belly fat and full?
कदा पीतमह-आलोक-रुधिरा क्षीबताम् गता ।
भवेयम् मुदिता दृप्ता मुद्रिता निद्रया तत: ॥३।७१।३०॥
kadA pItamaha-Aloka-rudhirA kSIbatAm gatA |
bhaveyam muditA dRptA mudritA nidrayA tata: ||3|71|30||
"When can I get dead-drunk on blood,
here in Grandfather-World?
—blind-drunk—
and sunk into stupor and sleep?!
मया_एव कु.तपो वह्नौ तद्_अग्र्यम् भासुरम् वपु: ।
भस्मत्वम् कनकेन_एव सूचित्वम् उररी-कृतम् ॥३।७१।३१॥
mayA_eva ku.tapo vahnau tad_agryam bhAsuram vapu: |
bhasmatvam kanakena_eva sUcitvam urarI-kRtam ||3|71|31||
"It's my own misascetic fault!
The fire of my bad tapas burned that glorious body to ash,
when I consented to Pinhood.
VA. ... as if exchanging gold for iron.
क्व किल_अञ्जन-शैल_आभम् वपुर्_भरित-दिक्-तटम् ।
क्व प्राचिका-खुर-समम् सुचित्वम् नृपा-पेलवम् ॥३।७१।३२॥
kva kila_aJjana-zaila_Abham vapur_bharita-dik-taTam |
kva prAcikA-khura-samam sucitvam nRpA-pelavam ||3|71|32||
"Where is it now—
that high black mountain,
a body filling.up the sky?
and where's this one,
like a mosquito's foot?
त्यजत्य्_आशु मृद्-इत्य्.अज्ञ: प्राप्य_अपि कनक_अङ्गदम् ।
मया सूचित्व-लोभेन संत्यक्तम् भासुरम् वपु: ॥३।७१।३३॥
tyajaty_Azu mRd-ity.ajJa: prApya_api kanaka_aGgadam |
mayA sUcitva-lobhena saMtyaktam bhAsuram vapu: ||3|71|33||
"The fool who finds a gem and thinks it mud
throws it away from him.
By my desire for needlehood,
I've lost my terrifying form.
हा महोदर विन्ध्या_अद्रि-सनीहार-गुह_उपम ।
अद्य न_अन्तम् करोषि त्वम् कथम् सिंहेन हस्तिनाम् ॥३।७१।३४॥
hA mahodara vindhyA_adri-sanIhAra-guha_upama |
adya na_antam karoSi tvam katham siMhena hastinAm ||3|71|34||
"O my huge belly
—who are like a fogbound vindhya.mountain-cave,—
now you no longer take-things.in,
as lions take.in elephants!
हा भुजौ भर-निर्भग्न-शिखरौ शशभृन्-नखै: ।
पुरोडाश-धिया चन्द्रम् कथम्_अद्य न बाधत: ॥३।७१।३५॥
hA bhujau bhara-nirbhagna-zikharau zazabhRn-nakhai: |
puroDAza-dhiyA candram katham_adya na bAdhata: ||3|71|35||
"O my arms, breakers of mountain.peaks,
with your moonlike nails
why don't you snatch.away the moon
and make of it an offering?
हा वक्ष: काच-वैधुर्य-गिरि-इन्द्र-taट-सुन्दर ।
न_अद्य सिंह-आदि यौकम् तद्-धृतम् रोम-वनम् तथा ॥३।७१।३६॥
hA vakSa: kAca-vaidhurya-giri.indra-taTa-sundara |
na_adya siMha-Adi yaukam tad-dhRtam roma-vanam tathA ||3|71|36||
O my breast,
you were bright and lovely as a mountain.peak
no longer full of lions like lice in the forest of my hair.
AS. kAcavaidhuryagirIndralaTasundara has a typo, laTa -> taTa. This one is complicated and I disagree with both older translations. Oh my breast, (hA vakSaH), beautiful like the side of mountain without any ash (kAcavaidhUryagiritaTa -kAca has the meaning of alkaline ash also), you don't carry the animals - lions etc. (siMhAdi) which are fleas on you and also your forest of hair.
हा नेत्रे कृष्ण-रजनीरजः-शुष्क_इन्धन_एजने ।
कस्मान्_न मे भूषयतो दृग्-ज्वालामलया दिश: ॥३।७१।३७॥
hA netre kRSNa-rajanIrajaH-zuSka_indhana_ejane |
kasmAn_na me bhUSayato dRg-jvAlAmalayA diza: ||3|71|37||
O my eyes
that used to kindle the darkness of the night with your enflaming gaze,
why does your fire not brighten the ten directions?
हा स्कन्ध बन्धो नष्टो_असि निषिद्धो_असि महीतले ।
कालेन विनिपिष्टो_असि निघृष्टो_असि शिलातले ॥३।७१।३८॥
hA skandha bandho naSTo_asi niSiddho_asi mahItale |
kAlena vinipiSTo_asi nighRSTo_asi zilAtale ||3|71|38||
O my aching back!
you're bound and doomed,
you're sunk to earth,
you're crushed by time—
a mountain ground-down to the ground!
हा मुख-इन्दो तपसि किम् न_अद्य त्वम् मम रश्मिभि: ।
कल्पान्त-दाव-संशान्त-चन्द्र-बिम्ब-मनोहर ॥३।७१।३९॥
hA mukha-indo tapasi kim na_adya tvam mama razmibhi: |
kalpAnta-dAva-saMzAnta-candra-bimba-manohara ||3|71|39||
Oh moony-face, why do you not glint with my rays of radiance?
You should outbright the Doomsday Fire,
more mind-boggling than the full moon!
हा हा हस्तौ महाकारौ ताव् अद्य क्व गतौ मम ।
संपन्ना_अस्मि महा-सूचिर् मक्षिका-खुर-दोलिता ॥३।७१।४०॥
hA hA hastau mahAkArau tAv adya kva gatau mama |
saMpannA_asmi mahA-sUcir makSikA-khura-dolitA ||3|71|40||
O, O, my two hands,
you were such great instruments!
now where have you gone from me?
I'm no Great Pin,
small as a fly buzzing cow.pies.
हा भग-उग्र-करञ्ज-आढ्यसत्कन्द-श्वभ्र-शोभन ।
विन्ध्याद्_वरेण्य-विपुल-नितम्ब-अमल-बिम्बक ॥३।७१।४१॥
hA bhaga-ugra-karaJja-ADhyasatkanda-zvabhra-zobhana |
vindhyAd_vareNya-vipula-nitamba-amala-bimbaka ||3|71|41||
O my navel, deep as a well, with hair like rows of plants about it;
and O my cast buttocks, which were
like a pair of the vindya hills!
क्व आकारो_अम्बर-पूरक: क्व च नवम् तुच्छ-आत्म-सूची-वपू-
रोदोरन्ध्र-समम् क्व वा_अस्य कुहरम् क्व इदम् च सूची-मुखम् ।
क्व ग्रासो बहु-मांस-भार-बहुल: क्व आब्-बिन्दुना भोजनम्
सूक्ष्मा_अस्म्य् एतद्_अहो मया_एव रचितम् स्वात्म-क्षये नाटकम् ॥३।७१।४२॥
kva AkAro_ambara-pUraka: kva ca navam tuccha-Atma-sUcI-vapU-
rodorandhra-samam kva vA_asya kuharam kva idam ca sUcI-mukham |
kva grAso bahu-mAMsa-bhAra-bahula: kva Ab-bindunA bhojanam
sUkSmA_asmy etad_aho mayA_eva racitam svAtma-kSaye nATakam ||3|71|42||
Where's my old form that would outfill the sky?
Just look at this new thing!
This stupid needle-body's like the space from earth to heaven,
void as my needle-eye.
Where's the fat of yesteryear that greased all of my meat?
All I get now is dribbles!
I weep to be so skinny!
But that's the deal,
so I agreed to this self-destructive dance!
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vasiSTha_uvAca |
अथ सा बहुकालेन कर्कटी नाम राक्षसी ।
सर्वेषां नरमांसानां न तु तृप्तिमुपाययौ ॥३।७१।१॥
अथ सा बहु-कालेन कर्कटी नाम राक्षसी ।
सर्वेषाम् नर-मांसानाम् न तु तृप्तिम्_उपाययौ ॥३।७१।१॥
atha sA bahu-kAlena karkaTI nAma rAkSasI |
sarveSAm nara-mAMsAnAm na tu tRptim_upAyayau ||3|71|1||
atha bahu-kAlena – And so after a long time —
sA karkaTI nAma rAkSasI – that ogress called Crabby Karkatî —
sarveSAm nara-mAMsAnAm – of every sort of human meat —
na tu tRptim upAyayau – she could get no satisfaction.
vlm.1 VASISHTHA CONTINUED:--After the carnivorous fiend-Karkati, had feasted for a long period on the flesh and blood of human kind; she found her insatiable voracity to know no bounds, and never to be satisfied with anything.
sv.3.1 After living in this manner for a long long time, ...
Even in the long course of time
that ogress, Crabby Karkatî,
could never get enough of what
she liked: all sorts of human meat. 1
y3071.002
पूर्वेणैव किलाह्ना सा तृप्ता रुधिरबिन्दुना ।
सूच्या: किमपि मात्यन्तस्तृष्णासूची सुदुर्भरा ॥३।७१।२॥
पूर्वेण_एव किल_अह्ना सा तृप्ता रुधिर-बिन्दुना ।
सूच्या: किम्_अपि मात्य्_अन्तस्_तृष्णा-सूची सु.दुर्भरा ॥३।७१।२॥
pUrveNa_eva kila_ahnA sA tRptA rudhira-bindunA |
sUcyA: kim_api mAty_antas_tRSNA-sUcI su.durbharA ||3|71|2||
pUrveNa eva kila_ahnA – O, in former days —
sA tRptA rudhira-bindunA – she was content with a drop of blood —
sUcyA: kim_api mAty – whatever the measure of Sûcî the Pin —
antas tRSNA-sUcI su.durbharA – within, the prick of thirst was so hard to bear —
vlm.2. She used to be satisfied erewhile, with a drop of blood in her form of the needle; and she now became sorry, at the loss of the insatiable thirst and appetite of her former state.
sv.3.2 the demoness Karkati was thoroughly disillusioned and repented her foolish desire to devour people, which entailed severe penance for a thousand years and the degraded existence as a needle (and cholera virus).
O, in the good-old-days she was
contented with a drop of blood...
though she's the measure of a pin,
the prick of thirst is hard=to-bear. 2
y3071.003
चिन्तयामास हा कष्टं किमलं सूचितां गता ।
सूक्ष्मास्मि हतशक्तिश्च_अपि ग्रासो न माति च ॥३।७१।३॥
चिन्तयाम्.आस हा कष्टम् किम्_अलम् सूचिताम् गता ।
सूक्ष्मा_अस्मि हत-शक्तिश्_च_अपि ग्रासो न माति च ॥३।७१।३॥
cintayAm.Asa hA kaSTam kim_alam sUcitAm gatA |
sUkSmA_asmi hata-zaktiz_ca_api grAso na mAti ca ||3|71|3||
cintayAm.Asa – She thought, —
hA kaSTam – "What a mess! —
kim alam sUcitAm gatA – Is it not enough that I have a needle-shape?
sUkSmA_asmi hata-zaktiz ca – I am subtle/thin and disempowered -
api grAso na mAti ca – for I cannot measure a mouthful to eat.
vlm.3. She thought in herself, O pity it is! that I came to be a vile needle; with so weak and slender a body, that I can take nothing for my food.
sv.3.3 3-5 She thus bewailed her own self-inflicted misfortune: "Alas, where is my mountainous body and where is the form of a needle?
She thought,
"What a mess!
Isn't it enough that I must take this pin-shape?
I'm thin,
and all my powers are fading-away,
and I can't measure a mouthful out to eat! 3
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क्व मे तानि विशालानि गतान्यङ्गानि दुर्धियः ।
कालमेघविशालानि वने शीर्णानि पर्णवत् ॥३।७१।४॥
क्व मे तानि विशालानि गतान्य्_अङ्गानि दुर्धिय: ।
काल-मेघ-विशालानि वने शीर्णानि पर्णवत् ॥३।७१।४॥
kva me tAni vizAlAni gatAny_aGgAni durdhiya: |
kAla-megha-vizAlAni vane zIrNAni parNavat ||3|71|4||
kva me tAni – Where for me are those —
vizAlAni gatAny aGgAni durdhiya: – huge limbs gone—through my folly -
kAla-megha-vizAlAni – dark-cloud-multitude — that were like gathering rainclouds? -
vane zIrNAni parNavat – In the forest scattered like leaves. They are dry leaves scattered in the forest.
eyv.4 "Where have those large limbs of the evil-minded gone, for me?"
sv.3.4 3-5 She thus bewailed her own self-inflicted misfortune: "Alas, where is my mountainous body and where is the form of a needle?
vlm.4. How foolish I have been to forego my former gigantic form, and change my dark cloudy figure for something as the dry leaf of a forest tree.
"What a mess!
Isn't it enough that I must take this pin-shape?
I'm thin,
and all my powers are fading-away,
and I can't measure a mouthful out to eat!
Where are my huge limbs gone?—through my
stupidity! Once they moved like
gathering rainclouds—now they are
dry leaves scattered in the forest. -3-4-
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मय्यस्यां मन्दभाग्यायां मनागपि न माति हि ।
स्वादुमांसरसग्रासो वसावासित आसयन् ॥३।७१।५॥
मय्य्_अस्याम् मन्द-भाग्यायाम् मनाग्.अपि न माति हि ।
स्वादु-मांस-रस-ग्रासो वसावासित आसयन् ॥३।७१।५॥
mayy_asyAm manda-bhAgyAyAm manAg.api na mAti hi |
svAdu-mAMsa-rasa-grAso vasAvAsita Asayan ||3|71|5||
mayy_asyAm manda-bhAgyAyAm manAg.api na mAti hi |
svAdu-mAMsa-rasa-grAso vasAvAsita Asayan ||3|71|5||
mayi asyAm manda-bhAgyAyAm – In this scant-pleasing me —
manAg.api na mAti hi – even a little does not measure —
svAdu-mAMsa-rasa-grAsa-: – sweet-meat-flavor-fat —
vasA-vAsita: Asayan – steeped in the smell of bone-marrow.
vlm.5. O wretch that I am, to have foregone my dainty food of flesh flavoured with fat. (The Ráskshasa cannibals are raw flesheaters and feeders on the fat of animals).
sv.3.5 3-5 She thus bewailed her own self-inflicted misfortune: "Alas, where is my mountainous body and where is the form of a needle?
"There's little pleasure here for me—
less than a little, even:—where's
the sweet aroma of my meat,
my juicy marrow-bone and fat?
I plunge into the mud. I fall
to earth, where I am trampled by
oceans of feet. Touched with impurity … -5-6-
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पङ्कान्तर्विनिमज्जामि पतामि धरणीतले ।
हतास्मि जनपदौघै: शुक्रेण मलिनास्मि ॥३।७१।६॥
पङ्का_अन्तर्_विनिमज्जामि पतामि धरणी-तले ।
हता_अस्मि जनपद-ओघै: शुक्रेण मलिना_अस्मि ॥३।७१।६॥
paGkA_antar_vinimajjAmi patAmi dharaNI-tale |
hatA_asmi janapada-oghai: zukreNa malinA_asmi ||3|71|6||
paGkA_antar vinimajjAmi patAmi dharaNI-tale |
hatA_asmi janapada-oghai: zukreNa malinA_asmi ||3|71|6||
paGkA_antar vinimajjAmi – I plunge into mud -
patAmi dharaNI-tale – I fall on-the-ground -
hatA_asmi janapada-oghai: - I am trampled by oceans of feet -
zukreNa malinA_asmi – w/ Shukra/Venus I am impure - ??? playing on zukra_as semen.
jd#paGka-H, paGkam पङ्क - mud, mire, clay; ointment, unguent (in comp.; cf. kuGkuma paGka, candana paGka); moral impurity, sin — y1023.034; y2017.028 —¶ paGkaja - n.(end-comp. f. -A) "mudborn", a species of lotus, Nelumbium Speciosum http://www.finerareprints.com/print_detail.html?stock_no=13005 (whose flower closes in the evening); p janman m. "lotus-born" n.of Brahmâ; p. nayanA - a lotus-eyed woman; p. pattra-netra m. having eyes like lotus-leaves paGkaja-lAvam - -ind.- (>lU) cutting off like a lotus-flower. —¶mw - y1024.003 —¶jd -
jd#vinimajj – vi-nimajj, ni>majj – to plunge, dive, sink into: paGkA_antar vinimajjAmi, "I dive into mud" y3071.006 —¶jd -
vlm.6. I am doomed to dive in dirt, and drop down on the ground; to be trodden and trampled over under the feet of people, and soiled and sullied in the filth.
sv.3.6 6-7 Sometimes I fall into mud and filth, I am trampled upon by people.
AB. ... prAk-sarge varNitam | zukreNa carama-dhAtunA ||3|71|
"There's little pleasure here for me—
less than a little, even:—where's
the sweet aroma of my meat,
my juicy marrow-bone and fat?
I plunge into the mud. I fall
to earth, where I am trampled by
oceans of feet. Touched with impurity … -5-6-
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हा हताहमनाथाहमनाश्वासा निरास्पदा ।
दुःखाद्दुखे निमज्जामि संकटात्संकटेऽपि च ॥७॥
हा हता_अहम्_अ.नाथा_अहम्_अन्.आश्वासा निर्.आस्पदा ।
दु:खात्_दु:खे निमज्जामि संकटात्_संकटे_अपि च ॥३।७१।७॥
hA hatA_aham_a.nAthA_aham_an.AzvAsA nir.AspadA |
du:khAt_du:khe nimajjAmi saMkaTAt_saMkaTe_api ca ||3|71|7||
हा हता_अहम् O I am stricken = अ.नाथा_अहम् Lordless am I =
अन्.आश्वासा hopeless = निर्.आस्पदा homeless =
दुःखात्_दुःखे निमज्जामि from sorrow to sorrow I plunge, =
संकटात्_संकटे_अपि च and thus from strait to strait. -7-
vlm.7. O me miserable, helpless and hopeless thing, and without any support or status of mine; from one woe I fall to another, and one danger is succeeded by another unto me!
sv.3.7 6-7 Sometimes I fall into mud and filth, I am trampled upon by people.
O I am down!
I have no Lord,
no hope,
no home.
I pass from one trouble to another trouble—
from one I sink.into the next.
-7-
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न सखी न च मे दासी न मे माता न मे पिता ।
न मे बन्धुर्न मे भृत्या न मे भ्राता न मे सुत: ॥३।७१।८॥
न सखी न च मे दासी न मे माता न मे पिता ।
न मे बन्धुर्_न मे भृत्या न मे भ्राता न मे सुत: ॥३।७१।८॥
na sakhI na ca me dAsI na me mAtA na me pitA |
na me bandhur_na me bhRtyA na me bhrAtA na me suta: ||3|71|8||
na sakhI – no friend —
na ca me dAsI – and no maid for me —
na me mAtA – no mother for me —
na me pitA – no father for me —
na me bandhu: – no relatives for me —
na me bhRtyA: – no servants for me —
na me bhrAtA – no brother for me —
na me suta: – no son for me —
vlm.8. I have no mistress nor maidservant, nor my father nor mother; I have got no son nor brother, nor any one to serve or befriend me.
sv.3.8 Alas, I am lost. I have no friends, no one takes pity upon me.
For me there's no companions, I
don't even have a chambermaid!
I have no mother, no father,
no relatives, no servants, no
brother for me, for me no son. -8-
y3071.009
न मे देहो न मे स्थानं न मे कश्चित्समाश्रय: ।
नैकस्थाने समावासो भ्राम्यामि वनपर्णवत् ॥३।७१।९॥
न मे देहो न मे स्थानम् न मे कश्चित्_समाश्रय: ।
न_एक.स्थाने समावासो भ्राम्यामि वन-पर्णवत् ॥३।७१।९॥
na me deho na me sthAnam na me kazcit_samAzraya: |
na_eka.sthAne samAvAso bhrAmyAmi vana-parNavat ||3|71|9||
na me deho na me sthAnam na me kazcit_samAzraya: |
na_eka.sthAne samAvAso bhrAmyAmi vana-parNavat ||3|71|9||
na me deho – No body for me —
na me sthAnam – no place for me —
na me kazcit samAzraya: – no refuge for me anyhow —
na ekasthAne samAvAso – not anywhere a place to stay —
bhrAmyAmi vana-parNavat – I'm drifting like a forest leaf.
vlm.9. I have no body nor abode, nor any refuge nor asylum anywhere; nor have I a fixed dwelling in any spot, but am driven about, like the fallen leaves of forest trees by the driving winds.
sv.3.9 I have no fixed abode, nor have I a body worth the name.
"For me there's no companions, I
don't even have a chambermaid!
I have no mother, no father,
no relatives, no servants, no
brother for me, for me no son.
For me there is no body; for me there's no place, no refuge
at all, nowhere a place to stay— I'm drifting like a forest leaf! -8-9-
y3071.010
आपदां धुरि तिष्ठामि निविष्टास्मि सुदारुणे ।
अभावमपि वाञ्छामि सोऽपि संपद्यते न मे ॥३।७१।१०॥
आपदाम् धुरि तिष्ठामि निविष्टा_अस्मि सु.दारुणे ।
अभावम्_अपि वाञ्छामि सो_अपि संपद्यते न मे ॥३।७१।१०॥
ApadAm dhuri tiSThAmi niviSTA_asmi su.dAruNe |
abhAvam_api vAJchAmi so_api saMpadyate na me ||3|71|10||
ApadAm dhuri tiSThAmi – Disaster is ahead of me -
niviSTA_asmi su.dAruNe – I'm headed-for big trouble -
abhAvam api vAJchAmi – though I long for non-existence -
so_api saMpadyate na me – it does not come.about for me.
vlm.10. I am subject to all accidents, and exposed to every kind of calamity; I wish for my extinction, but it wishes not to approach unto me. (Death flies from the destitute).
sv.3.10 10-11 I have surely lost my mind and my senses!
#dhur धुर् f.- (Nom. sing. धूः) A yoke (lit.); न गर्दभा वाजिधुरं वहन्ति Mk.4.17; अत्रस्नुभिर्युक्तधुरं तुरङ्गैः R.14.47. The pin at both ends of an axle for fastening the nave of the wheel. The shaft or pole of a carriage. A load, burden (fig. also); responsibility, duty, task; तेन धूर्जगतो गुर्वी सचिवेषु निचिक्षिते R.1.34; कार्यधुरं वहन्ति Mu.1.14; आप्तैरप्यनवाप्तपौरुषफलैः कार्यस्य धूरुज्झिता Mu.6.5; The foremost or highest place, van, front, top, head; अपांसुलानां धुरि कीर्तनीया R.2.2; धुरि स्थिता त्वं पतिदेवतानाम् 14.74; अविघ्नमस्तु ते स्थेयाः पितेव धुरि पुत्रिणाम् 1.91; धुरि प्रतिष्ठापयितव्य एव M.1.16; 5.16. (धुरि कृ 'to place at the head or in front of'; किंवाभविष्यदरुणस्तमसां विभेत्तां तं चेत्सहस्रकिरणो धुरि नाकरि- ष्यत् Ś.7.4) —¶mw - -
Disaster is ahead of me:
I'm headed-for calamity.
However I long not-to-be,
it does not come.about for me. -10-
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स्वको देहः परित्यक्तो मूढचेतनया मया ।
काचबुद्ध्या विमूढेन हस्ताच्चिन्तामणिर्यथा ॥३।७१।११॥
स्वको देह: परित्यक्तो मूढ-चेतनया मया ।
काच-बुद्ध्या विमूढेन हस्ताच्_चिन्तामणिर्_यथा ॥३।७१।११॥
svako deha: parityakto mUDha-cetanayA mayA |
kAca-buddhyA vimUDhena hastAc_cintAmaNir_yathA ||3|71|11||
svako deha: parityakto – My own body forsaken —
mUDha-cetanayA mayA – by my foolish Chetana – Here the Asceticess is using the common sense of the word, "Intelligence"; but implies the subtler sense of the word. Sentience; or, as AB nicely puts it, jIva-cit. -
kAca-buddhyA – by its flashing insight -
vimUDhena – bewildered -
hastAt cintAmaNir yathA – like a Wishing-Stone from the hand.
vlm.11. What else have I done to have given away my own big body, in the foolishness of my heart; than parted like a mad-man, with a precious jewel for a paltry piece of glass.
sv.3.11 10-11 I have surely lost my mind and my senses!
I've given up my own body,
thanks to my bright intelligence—
its flashing insight!—like some drunk
who throws away the Wishing-Stone! 11
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आपतद्धि मनो मोहं पूर्वमापत्प्रयच्छति ।
पश्चादनर्थविस्ताररूपेण परिजृम्भते ॥१२॥
आपतत्_द्-हि मनस् मोहम् पूर्वम्_आपत्_प्रयच्छति ।
पश्चात्_अन्.अर्थ-विस्तार.रूपेण परिजृम्भते ॥३।७१।१२॥
Apatat_d-hi manas moham pUrvam_Apat_prayacchati |
pazcAt_an.artha-vistAra.rUpeNa parijRmbhate ||3|71|12||
आपतत्_द्-हि मनस् मोहम् Manas Mind falling into delusion =
पूर्वम् firstly = आपत्_प्रयच्छति it produces misfortune =
पश्चात् next = अन्.अर्थ-विस्तार.रूपेण a_useless expanded form – an expansion of futility =
परिजृम्भते spreads about. -12-
jdjd>#tR 1 —>#vistR – to spread, BESTRew • —>#vistAra विस्तारः -m.- extension, expansion; प्रान्त- विस्तार-भाजाम् Māl.1.27. • Area, breadth; paJca-yojana-vistAram पञ्च-योजन-विस्तारम् Mb.14.58.39. • Vast expanse; madhye zyAma: stana iva bhuva: zeSa-vistAra-pANDU: मध्ये श्यामः स्तन इव भुवः शेषविस्तारपाण्डुः Me.18. • Details, full particulars [What Hemingway called "the Gen"—the Genuine Story. jd]. •• #vistArin – in a spread-out formation - vyoma-vistAriNa: abhavan y3047.033. •• becoming great (met. said of the heart); detailed enumeration (#vistAreNa, diffusely, at length, prob. for <#vistareNa>); #vistArin – in a spread-out formation - vyoma-vistAriNa: abhavan y3047.033.
jdjd>#jRmbh – yawn, gape —>#parijRmbh - spread round. •• आपतद्धि मनो मोहं पूर्वमापत्प्रयच्छति | पश्चादनर्थविस्ताररूपेण परिजृम्भते Apatad d-hi mano moham pUrvam Apat prayacchati | pazcAd anartha-vistAra-rUpeNa parijRmbhate y3071.012.
vlm.12. One calamity is enough to turn the brain out of order; but what will be my case when it is followed by other calamities in endless succession.
sv.3.12 The mind that is heading towards calamity first creates delusion and wickedness: and these themselves later expand into misfortune and sorrow.
Apataddhi mano mohaM pUrvamApatprayacchati |
pazcAdanarthavistArarUpeNa parijRmbhate ||3|71|12||
आपतत्_द्-हि मनस् मोहम् पूर्वम्_आपत्_प्रयच्छति । पश्चात्_अन्.अर्थ-विस्तार.रूपेण परिजृम्भते ॥१२॥
The Manas Mind that falls into
delusion, first affects distress;
and next misfortune spreads.about
a fulness of futility.
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धूमेषु परितिष्ठामि मार्गे विलुलितास्मि च ।
तृणेषु प्रेषितास्म्यन्तर्हा मे दुःखपरम्परा ॥३।७१।१३॥
धूमेषु परितिष्ठामि मार्गे विलुलिता_अस्मि च ।
तृणेषु प्रेषिता_अस्म्य्_अन्तर्_हा मे दु:ख-परम्परा ॥३।७१।१३॥
dhUmeSu paritiSThAmi mArge vilulitA_asmi ca |
tRNeSu preSitA_asmy_antar_hA me du:kha-paramparA ||3|71|13||
dhUmeSu paritiSThAmi – In smoky air I hang.around —
mArge vilulitA_asmi ca – and on the road I toss and turn -
tRNeSu preSitA_asmy – among the grasses ??? das....@gmail.com flung on the lawn am I!—
antar - within, -
hA me du:kha-paramparA – O for-me it's trouble after trouble. – I am perhaps creating a double entendre here. das....@gmail.com
#preSita – pra-iSita प्रेषित adj. set in motion , urged on , impelled RV. ; hurled , flung , thrown S3Br. ; sent , dispatched on an errand MBh. Ka1v. &c. (%{-vat} mfn. Hit) ; sent into exile , banished R. ; turned , directed (as the eyes) S3ak. i , 23 (v.l. %{pre7rita}) ; ordered , commanded Vop.
#vilulita विलुलित vi-lulita -adj. (>lul; cf.vi>luD) moved hither and thither; shaken down, falling down, shed; agitated, disordered; vilulitÂlaka - adj. having dishevelled hair. —¶mw - - y1032.003 —¶jd -
vlm.13. I am hung up (with the cloth) to be suffocated by the smoke, and dropped down in the streets to be trodden under foot; I am cast away with the dirt, and hid under the grass to my
great distress.
sv.3.13 13-15 I am never free, ever at the mercy of others. I am in the hands of others and do what they make me do.
In smoky air I hang.around,
and on the road I toss and turn—
or fall aground. — Within, for me,
one trouble chases another! 13
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परप्रैषकरी नित्यं परसंचारचारिणी ।
परं कार्पण्यमायाता जाता परवशास्म्यलम् ॥३।७१।१४॥
पर-प्रैष.करी नित्यम् पर-संचार-चारिणी ।
परम् कार्पण्यम्_आयाता जाता परवशा_अस्म्य् अलम् ॥३।७१।१४॥
para-praiSa.karI nityam para-saMcAra-cAriNI |
param kArpaNyam_AyAtA jAtA paravazA_asmy alam ||3|71|14||
para-praiSa.karI nityam para-saMcAra-cAriNI |
param kArpaNyam AyAtA jAtA paravazA_asmy alam ||3|71|14||
para-praiSa.karI nityam – Always taking others's orders —
para-saMcAra-cAriNI – doing others's business —
param kArpaNyam AyAtA – I've come to total misery —
jAtA paravazA_asmy alam – born to serve, that's what I am!
#praiSa
#saMcAra
#kArpaNya
#paravaza
vlm.14. I serve at another's will, and am guided by my guide; I am stark naked while I sew for others, and am ever a dependant on another's guidance.
sv.3.14 13-15 I am never free, ever at the mercy of others. I am in the hands of others and do what they make me do.
Always taking others's orders, doing others's business,
I've come to total misery:—born to service, that's what I am! 14
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भ्रान्तिं करोमि तुच्छे च सापि वेधनरूपिणी ।
अहो ममाल्पभाग्याया दौर्भाग्यमपि दुर्भगम् ॥३।७१।१५॥
भ्रान्तिम् करोमि तुच्छे च सा_अपि वेधन-रूपिणी ।
अहो मम_अल्प-भाग्याया दौर्भाग्यम्_अपि दुर्भगम् ॥३।७१।१५॥
bhrAntim karomi tucche ca sA_api vedhana-rUpiNI |
aho mama_alpa-bhAgyAyA daurbhAgyam_api durbhagam ||3|71|15||
bhrAntim karomi tucche ca – and I wander.about futilely —
sA_api vedhana-rUpiNI – as a piercing form —
aho mama_alpa-bhAgyAyA – O for me with little enjoyment —
daurbhAgyam api durbhagam – my misfortune is my bad luck ??? das....@gmail.com
#bhrAnti
#vedhana
#bhAgya
#durbhaga
vlm.15. Long do I drudge and trudge for a paltry gain, and stitching alone is all the work that I have to perform for life. O unlucky that I am, that my ill luck even is so very luckless.
sv.3.15 13-15 I am never free, ever at the mercy of others. I am in the hands of others and do what they make me do.
I wander this futility
formed to a prick; and, o poor me,
small pleasure: for a sorry choice
is surely too a sorry get! 15
-15
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उत्थित: स्फारवेताल: कुर्वत्या: शान्तितमद्य मे ।
सर्वनाशोऽवदानेन प्रवृत्ताया ममोदिता ॥३।७१।१६॥
उत्थित: स्फार-वेताल: कुर्वत्या: शान्तितम् अद्य मे ।
सर्व-नाशो_अवदानेन प्रवृत्ताया मम_उदिता ॥३।७१।१६॥
utthita: sphAra-vetAla: kurvatyA: zAntitam adya me |
sarva-nAzo_avadAnena pravRttAyA mama_uditA ||3|71|16||
utthita: sphAra-vetAla: – There is uprisen an immense Vetâla Zombie -
kurvatyA: zAntitam adya me – who wants to make me rest in peace -
sarva-nAzo_avadAnena – destroying everything bit by bit - ???
pravRttAyA mama_uditA – arisen from my past acts – of tapas.
AB. ... | avadAtena tapasA ||3|71|
#pravRttatva m the having happened or occurred; pr. vAc adj. of fluent speech, eloquent. —¶mw,ap - y2011.003, y2012.001 —¶jd -
#avadAna m अवदान – ava-dAna - cutting off or a part cut off. heroic deed, exploit. —¶cp
vlm.16. I see the demon of despair rising before me, upon my penitence of this day; and threatening to make an end of this body, of which I have made an offering to him.
sv.3.16 I desired to appease the goblin of a desire to devour all; but that has led to a remedy worse than the disease, and a greater goblin has arisen.
There is uprisen an immense
Vetâla Zombie, because-of
my past karmic tapas, and it
wants to make me rest in peace, bit
by bit destroying everything. 16
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किं मन्दया मया तादृक्संत्यक्तं तन्महावपु: ।
यथा नाशेन वा भाव्यं तथोदेत्य् अशुभा मति: ॥३।७१।१७॥
किम् मन्दया मया तादृक्-संत्यक्तम् तन्_महावपु: ।
यथा नाशेन वा भाव्यम् तथा_उदेत्य्_अ.शुभा मति: ॥३।७१।१७॥
kim mandayA mayA tAdRk-saMtyaktam tan_mahAvapu: |
yathA nAzena vA bhAvyam tathA_udety_a.zubhA mati: ||3|71|17||
kim mandayA mayA tAdRk – What great stupidity of mine -
saMtyaktam tan mahAvapu: – having forsaken that BigBody -
yathA nAzena vA bhAvyam – or what is worthy of destruction -
tathA udety azubhA mati: – thus arises – such is the work of an unclear mind.
VA. why poor me rejected that huge body, as by its destruction I become (small), J my stupid mind?
AS. mandayA should be translated as stupid, rather than poor. The second line should be: Indeed bad thoughts arise in such a way (azubhA mati: yathA udeti ) so that destruction happens (tathA nAzena bhAvyam)
sv.3.17 Surely, I am a brainless fool; hence, I threw away such a great and gigantic body and deliberately chose this despicable body of a virus (or a needle).
vlm.17. What better fate can await on me, after my loss of so big and bulky a body by my foolishness; than to be annihilated into nothing, rather than be a thing which is good for nothing.
What a great fool I've been, giving-
up that great body! I deserve
destruction, as fitting reward
for the work of an impure mind. 17
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मामवान्तरनिर्मग्नां सूक्ष्मां कीटतनोरपि ।
उद्धरिष्यति को नाम पांसुराशिभिरावृताम् ॥३।७१।१८॥
माम्_अवान्तर-निर्मग्नाम् सूक्ष्माम् कीट-तनोर्_अपि ।
उद्धरिष्यति को नाम पांसु.राशिभिर्_आवृताम् ॥३।७१।१८॥
mAm_avAntara-nirmagnAm sUkSmAm kITa-tanor_api |
uddhariSyati ko nAma pAMsu.rAzibhir_AvRtAm ||3|71|18||
mAm avAntara-nirmagnAm sUkSmAm kITa-tanor api |
uddhariSyati ko nAma pAMsu.rAzibhir AvRtAm ||3|71|18||
mAm avAntara-nirmagnAm –
me beween-sunk
sUkSmAm – tiny
kITa-tanor api – like the body of a silkworm
uddhariSyati ko nAma – say who will raise me
pAMsu.rAzibhir AvRtAm – who am hidden in the dust.
vlm.18. What man will pick me up, who am as lean as a mollusk (or thread worm); from the heap of ashes, under which I lie buried by the wayside.
sv.3.18 Who is now going to liberate me from this miserable existence as a being smaller than a worm?
I'm wrapped in this tiny thing
like the body of a worm.
And who will rescue me
who lie here hidden in the dust?
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विविक्तमनसां बुद्धौ क्व स्फुरन्ति हताशय: ।
ग्रममार्गतृणानीव गिरेरुपरिवासिनाम् ॥३।७१।१९॥
विविक्त-मनसाम् बुद्धौ क्व स्फुरन्ति हत-आशय: ।
ग्रम-मार्ग-तृणानि इव गिरेर्_उपरि वासिनाम् ॥३।७१।१९॥
vivikta-manasAm buddhau kva sphuranti hata-Azaya: |
grama-mArga-tRNAni iva girer_upari vAsinAm ||3|71|19||
vivikta-manasAm buddhau kva sphuranti hata-Azaya: |
grama-mArga-tRNAni iva girer upari vAsinAm ||3|71|19||
vivikta-manasAm buddhau –In the Intellect of discerning minds —
kva sphuranti hata_Azaya: – what place is there for destructive thought? -
grama-mArga-tRNAni iva – it's like the grass on a village road —
girer upari vAsinAm – for dwellers on a mountain – where thr roads are carved from the bare cliffs, and have no grass growing.
vlm.19. No keensighted man will take into his consideration a wretched and a forlorn being; as nobody living on a high hill, ever stoops to take notice of the grass growing on the ground
below.
sv.3.19 The very thought of such a vicious creature as 1 am may not even arise in the heart of sages.
VA. who in their right (disserning) minds would bother with miserables like me? Like ones who live in high mountains (do not bother) with village roads and grass.
AS. The meaning is: How can miserable thought arise in the minds of discerning people, indeed how can the grass growing on village roads crop up among people living on mountaintops?
The intellect of discerning
minds takes no notice of such things:
it's like grass on a village road
for dwellers on a mountainside. 19
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स्थिताया_अज्ञताम्भोधौ क्व ममाभ्युदयो भवेत् ।
अन्धस्योदेति प्राकाश्यं नखद्योतानुसेविन: ॥३।७१।२०॥
स्थिताया_अज्ञता-अम्भोधौ क्व मम_अभ्युदयो भवेत् ।
अन्धस्य_उदेति प्राकाश्यम् नख-द्योत-अनुसेविन: ॥३।७१।२०॥
sthitAyA_ajJatA-ambhodhau kva mama_abhyudayo bhavet |
andhasya_udeti prAkAzyam nakha-dyota-anusevina: ||3|71|20||
sthitAyA_ajJatA-ambhodhau – Being situate in a sea of ignorance —
kva mama_abhyudaya : bhavet – what is my rise becoming?
andhasya_udeti prAkAzyam – fame - a light arising for the blind -
nakha-dyota-anusevina: – the glitter of my grasping nails.. or na kha-dyota...
jd>#sev #anusev #anusevin - practising , observing , habitually addicted to.
#kha #khadyota. -द्योतः - a firefly; khadyota-alI-vilasita-nibhAm vidyud unmeSa-dRSTim ||3|71| खद्योतालीविलसितनिभां विद्युदुन्मेषदृष्टिम् Me.83. . -द्योतनः the sun. -धूपः a rocket; मुमुचुः खधूपान् Bk.3.5. -परागःdarkness.
jd#kha #khapuSpa m -पुष्पम् 'sky-flower', used figuratively to denote anything impossible, an impossibility; cf. the four impossibilities stated in this verse :-- mRga-tRSNa-ambhasi snAta: zaza-zRGga-dhanur dhara: | मृगतृष्णाम्भसि स्नातः शशशृङ्गधनुर्धरः । eSa vandhyAsuto yAti khapuSpa-kRti-zekhara: ||3|71| एष वन्ध्यासुतो याति खपुष्पकृतशेखरः ||3|71| Subhāṣ.
VA. Oh, how I can rise from the ocean of ignorance and become happy? For blind man neither sky nor light can be seen.
AS. I don't see "happiness" in particular. It is just abhyudaya - arising. The meaning of khadyota is a lightening bug.
jd: This reading
depends on a space <na khadyota> which is not found in my editions. But
<na-> is sometimes found in compounds. So I do not argue with the
reading. My more ghoulish reading sees a play on words, having at-once the
sense of fireflies, and also of Karkatî's blinding nails.
AS. The meaning is: Things don't become visible to a blind man by following a
lightening bug.
vlm.20. I cannot expect to raise myself higher, while I am lying in the sea of ignorance; what blind man can perceive the glorious sun-light, who is guided by the flash of fireflies?
sv.3.20 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
Set in a sea of ignorance,
what will my rise become? A flash
of fireflies opening blind eyes—
the glitter of my grasping nails. 20
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अत: कियन्तं नो जाने कालमावलितापदम् ।
मयापच्छ्वभ्रगर्तेषु लुठितव्यं हतेहया ॥३।७१।२१॥
अत: कियन्तम् नो जाने का_अलम्_आवलित-आपदम् ।
मया_आपच्-छ्वभ्र-गर्तेषु लुठितव्यम् हत-ईहया ॥३।७१।२१॥
ata: kiyantam no jAne kA_alam_Avalita-Apadam |
mayA_Apac-chvabhra-garteSu luThitavyam hata-IhayA ||3|71|21||
ata: kiyantam no jAne – Hence I don't know how/what-to-do -
kA_alam Avalita-Apadam – I've had enough of this whirlpool of misfortune -
* Apat-zvabhra-garteSu – in miserable holes -
* mayA luThitavyam hata-IhayA – tossing.about by-me without any hope.
AB. AvalitA_ApadA yasmin karmaNi tad yathA syAt tathA luThitavyam ||3|71|
vlm.21. I know not therefore how long I shall have to labour under my difficulties, when I find myself already drowned in a sea of misery.
sv.3.23 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. how long will last this non-natural??? (no jAne) endless suffering? by my deeds I am fallen into the holes of misfortune.v
AS. I don't know (no jAne) how long I have to roll in (kiyantam kAlam mayA luThitavyam) without hope (hata-IhayA) and full of miseries (Avalita-Apadam), in these calamity (hell) holes (Apad zvabhra-garteSu).
I don't know what-to-do: I've had
my fill of this whirling cesspool
of misery, tossing.about
in miserable hopeless holes!
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कदा स्यामञ्जनमहाशैलपुत्रकरूपिणी ।
द्यावापृथिस्योर्वैधुर्ये स्तम्भतामनुतिष्ठति ॥३।७१।२२॥
कदा स्याम्_अञ्जन-महा-शैल-पुत्रक-रूपिणी ।
द्याव्-आ-पृथिव्योर्_वैधुर्ये स्तम्भताम्_अनुतिष्ठति ॥३।७१।२२॥
kadA syAm_aJjana-mahA-zaila-putraka-rUpiNI |
dyAv-A-pRthivyor_vaidhurye stambhatAm_anutiSThati ||3|71|22||
kadA syAm_aJjana-mahA-zaila-putraka-rUpiNI |
dyAv-A-pRthivyor_vaidhurye stambhatAm_anutiSThati ||3|71|22||
kadA syAm – When can I again be —
aJjana-mahAzaila-putraka-rUpiNI – KohlBlack-Mountain-doll-shape - The Dark-Mountain Girl —
dyAv-A-pRthivyo: vaidhurye – between heaven and earth -
stambhatAm anutiSThati – standing like a pillar.
vlm.3.71.22. When shall I be restored again to the form of the daughter of Anjanágiri mountain; and will stand as a pillar over the ruins of the nether and upper worlds?
sv.3.26 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. then I again get the form of great black mountain which stays fixed between earth and heaven? Where vaidhurye belongs to???
AS.Typo: dyAvApRthisyor-> dyAvApRThivyor. kadA is when, not then. When will I again take the form of the daughter of the great black mountain, standing in (anutiSThati) the separation of earth and sky (dyAvApRthivyor vaidhurye), like a great pillar (stambhatvam)?
When can I be again the Dark
Mountain Girl standing here between
heaven and earth, a huge pillar?
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मेघमालासमभुजा चिरं विद्युत्पदेक्षणा ।
नीहारजालवसना प्रोच्छकेशमिताम्बरा ॥३।७१।२३॥
मेघ-मालासमभुजा चिरम् विद्युत्-पद-ईक्षणा ।
नीहार-जाल-वसना प्रोच्छ-केशमित-अम्बरा ॥३।७१।२३॥
megha-mAlAsamabhujA ciram vidyut-pada-IkSaNA |
nIhAra-jAla-vasanA proccha-kezamita-ambarA ||3|71|23||
megha-mAlAsamabhujA – x
ciram vidyut-pada-IkSaNA – x
nIhAra-jAla-vasanA – x
proccha-kezamita-ambarA – x
#megha-mAlAsamabhujA
#IkSaNa #proccha
#proccha-kezamita-ambarA >
vlm.3.71.23. When shall I have my arms reaching to the clouds, and my eyes flashing as lightning; my garb becoming as white as snow, and my hairs touching the sky.
sv.3.29 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
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लम्बोदराभ्रसंदर्शप्रनर्तितशिखण्डिनी ।
लम्बलोलस्तनी श्यामा देहवातद्रवत्स्तनी ॥३।७१।२४॥
लम्ब_उदर_अभ्र-संदर्श-प्रनर्तित-शिखण्डिनी ।
लम्ब-लोल-स्तनी श्यामा देह-वात-द्रवत्-स्तनी ॥३।७१।२४॥
lamba_udara_abhra-saMdarza-pranartita-zikhaNDinI |
lamba-lola-stanI zyAmA deha-vAta-dravat-stanI ||3|71|24||
lamba_udara_abhra-saMdarza-pranartita-zikhaNDinI – bulging-belly-cloud-like-dancing-peahen —
lamba-lola-stanI zyAmA – dangling-shaking-breasts dark —
deha-vAta-dravat-stanI – body-wind-flowing-breasts. ??? das....@gmail.com
#lamba
vlm.3.71.24. My big belly resembling a huge cloud, and my long breasts hanging below as pillows; shaking with the motion of my body, in its dancing like the pinions of a peacock.
sv.3.32 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
...belly that bulges, bouncing round
like a dancing peahen beneath
a cloud,—dark dangling shaking breasts,
breasts like bodies blown in the wind. 24
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हासभस्मच्छटाच्छन्नसूर्यमण्डलरोधिनी ।
कृतान्तग्रसनोद्युक्तकृत्यैकाकृतिधारिणी ॥३।७१।२५॥
हास-भस्म-च्-छटा-च्-छन्न-सूर्य-मण्डल-रोधिनी ।
कृतान्त-ग्रसन-उद्युक्त-कृत्य-एक-आकृति-धारिणी ॥३।७१।२५॥
hAsa-bhasma-c-chaTA-c-channa-sUrya-maNDala-rodhinI |
kRtAnta-grasana-udyukta-kRtya-eka-AkRti-dhAriNI ||3|71|25||
hAsa-bhasmac-chaTA-channa-sUrya-maNDala-rodhinI –
she laughter-ashes-lump/mess-hidden-sun-Mandala-obstructer — She hides the sun, as she cackles in her heap of ashes —
kRtAnta-grasana-udyukta-kRtya_eka_AkRti-dhAriNI –
she Terminator-fattener-intent-duty-one-formation-supporting – her one intent to feed the terminator Death. – ??? das....@gmail.com
vlm.3.71.25. The ash-white light emitted by my laughter, cast the light of the sun into the shade; and my former high stature, threatened to devour the terrible god of death.
sv.3.35 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. (When will be the time then) the ashes from forests burnt by
my laughting will cover the lustre of the sun and by one movement I’ll
be able to devour everything?
AS. The ashes are not "burnt" by the laughter, but scattered by it. She is not exactly talking about devouring everything, but saying: getting the size and shape of the one devourer at the end of world. In other words, getting as huge as before!
AB. hAsenATTahAsa-vilAsena bhasmac-chaTSbhir dagdha-araNya-dhUli-paTalaiz channasya AcchAditasya sUrya-maNDalasya rodhinI pidhAna-zIlA | kRtAnta iva sarva-prANi-grasanam eva_udyuktam Arabdham kRtyam yayA tathA-vidhA yA_ekA_AkRtir bhISINa-AkAras tad-dhAriNI ||3|71|
She hides the sun,
as she cackles,
out-of her heap of ashes,
her one duty:
to find meals for Death. -25-
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कृशानूलूखलदृशा सूर्यस्रग्दामहारिणी ।
पर्वतात्पर्वते शृङ्गे न्यस्य पादौ विहारिणी ॥३।७१।२६॥
कृशानु-उलूखल-दृशा सूर्य-स्रग्दामहारिणी ।
पर्वतात्_पर्वते शृङ्गे न्यस्य पादौ विहारिणी ॥३।७१।२६॥
kRzAnu-ulUkhala-dRzA sUrya-sragdAmahAriNI |
parvatAt_parvate zRGge nyasya pAdau vihAriNI ||3|71|26||
kRzAnu-ulUkhala-dRzA – Looking like a fire in a wooden mortar ??? das....@gmail.com
sUrya-sragdAma-hAriNI – wearing the sun for a headdress -
vihAriNI – a Rover -
parvatAt parvate – from mountain to mountain -
zRGge nyasya pAdau – fixing both feet on a mountain-peak -
#kRzAnu : कृशानुः [कृश् आनुक्; Uṇ.4.2] — Fire, Agni; k. yantra m यन्त्रम् (= अग्नियन्त्रम्) a cannon.
#ulUkhala m उलूखल a wooden mortar RV. —¶mw - -
#sraj, #srak, #srag, #sraT स्रज् f.- A garland of flowers (esp. worn on the head); #sragdAma-n - s. dAman - स्रग्दामन् n. the tie or fillet of a garland. #srag-dhara -धर -. wearing a garland; Gīt.12.
#vihArin विहारिन् -adj. roving, roaming; enjoying one's self with, tripping (comp.); #vihAriNI विहारिणी - a slut, girl too fond of gadding about. — —¶mw - -
vlm.26. My hollow sockets deep as the holes of mortars, flashed erewhile with living fire; like the rays of the sun; and my large legs moved as two monumental pillars in my rambling.
sv.3.26 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. (when again I’ll be) beautiful with garland of sun, with eyes like huge fire-mortars,
wandering around with peaks of mountain after mountain laying under feet.
AS. The eyes are fiery (kRzAnu) and deep (like ulUkhala). I don't know if she is considering beauty. It is mostly the size - wearing a belt of suns. While laying under feet has the same sense, the correct wording is stepping on them (pAdau nyasya).
"Like a fire in a wooden bowl,
my headdress is the sun.
I rove from mountaintop to mountaintop,
fixing my feet on every peak. -26-
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कदा मे स्याद्गुरुश्वभ्रभासुरं तन्महोदरम् ।
कदा मे स्याच्छरन्मेघमेदुरा नखरावली ॥३।७१।२७॥
कदा मे स्याद्_गुरु-श्वभ्र-भासुरम् तन्_महोदरम् ।
कदा मे स्यात्_चरन्-मेघ-मेदुरा नखरा_अवली ॥३।७१।२७॥
kadA me syAd_guru-zvabhra-bhAsuram tan_mahodaram |
kadA me syAt_caran-megha-medurA nakharA_avalI ||3|71|27||
kadA me syAd – When for me will be —
guru-zvabhra-bhAsuram – that great hollow wonder —
tan mahodaram – that huge belly —
kadA me syAt – when for me will be —
caran-megha-medurA – the flowing dark clouds —
nakharA_avalI – in the fingernail-sky.
#medura / megha
#nakhara
vlm.27. When shall I have my big belly, with its large cavity like a pot-belly, and when shall I have again my soft black nails, resembling the dark and humid clouds of autumn.
sv.3.41 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. when I’ll have back my great belly, wonderful great pit, when I’ll be thick like moving cloud, with rows of claws?
AS. The second line is: When will my row of nails be like like moving fat clouds.
"When will there be for me again
that mighty hollow wonder,
that huge belly?
when for me again
red clouds in my fingernail-sky?
-27-
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कदा मे स्यान्महारक्षोविद्रावणकरं स्मितम् ।
स्वस्फिग्वाद्यैररण्यान्यं कदा नृत्येयमुन्मदा ॥३।७१।२८॥
कदा मे स्यान्_महारक्षो-विद्रावण-करम् स्मितम् ।
स्व-स्फिग्-वाद्यैर्_अरण्यान्यम् कदा नृत्येयम् उन्मदा ॥३।७१।२८॥
kadA me syAn_mahArakSo-vidrAvaNa-karam smitam |
sva-sphig-vAdyair_araNyAnyam kadA nRtyeyam unmadA ||3|71|28||
kadA me syAn – When will there be for me —
mahArakSo-vidrAvaNa-karam – frightening the Superdemons —
smitam – smiling/blooming —
sva-sphig-vAdyair – w/ own-hips/butt-
araNyAnyam – of/in the forests —
kadA nRtyeyam unmadA – when will there be mad dancing?
AB. ... | sphig-vAdyai: sphijo vAdanai: | ... ||3|71|
#vidrAvaNa
#smita
#sphij
#vidrAvaNa
vlm.28. When will those tender smiles return to me, whereby I moved the great Rákshásas to my favour; and when shall I dance in my giddy circles, at the music of the tabor amidst the forests?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. when my smile (return to me) from which great rakhasas fly away,
then I’ll be dancing, shaking my hips to music in endless forests???
AS. araNyAnI is a
large forest. This is one of the rare occasion when a fem. version of noun
signifies something bigger. It is also one of a list of words which take a
special fem. suffix "Anuk". The kArikA is: indra-varuNa-bhava-zarva-rudra-mRDa-hima-araNya-yava-yavana-mAtula-AcAryANAm
Anuk All the listed words take this special fem. suffix.
Also, she is either making music with instruments hanging from her hips, or
using the hips themselves as an instrument!
When will there be for me again
the frenzied flowering of my farts,—
frightening the Superdemons!—
as I dance madly in the woods?
-28-
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वसासवमहाकुम्भैर्मृतमांसास्थिसंचयै: ।
कदा करिष्येऽविरतं मेदुरोदरपूरणम् ॥३।७१।२९॥
वसासव-महाकुम्भैर्_मृत-मांस-अस्थि-संचयै: ।
कदा करिष्ये_अविरतम् मेदुर-उदर-पूरणम् ॥३।७१।२९॥
vasAsava-mahAkumbhair_mRta-mAMsa-asthi-saMcayai: |
kadA kariSye_aviratam medura-udara-pUraNam ||3|71|29||
vasAsava-mahAkumbhair_mRta-mAMsa-asthi-saMcayai: |
kadA kariSye_aviratam medura-udara-pUraNam ||3|71|29||
vasA-sava-mahAkumbhair – w/ great marrowfat offering-pots ??? das....@gmail.com
mRta-mAMsa-asthi-saMcayai: – w/ dead-meat-bone-assemblies — filled with dead meat and bone —
kadA kariSye aviratam – when will I make constantly -
medura-udara-pUraNam – my fat-belly-full?
#vasAsava
#avirata
#medura
vlm.29. When will that big belly of mine, be filled with potfuls of fattened liquor; and be fed with heaps of the flesh and bones of dead bodies.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
With pots of marrowfat and grease,
with lots of dead meat and bone—
when
will I again,
ha-bit-u-al-ly,
make my poor belly fat and full?
-29-
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कदा पीतमहालोकरुधिरा क्षीबतां गता ।
भवेयं मुदिता दृप्ता मुद्रिता निद्रया तत: ॥३।७१।३०॥
कदा पीतमह-आलोक-रुधिरा क्षीबताम् गता ।
भवेयम् मुदिता दृप्ता मुद्रिता निद्रया तत: ॥३।७१।३०॥
kadA pItamaha-Aloka-rudhirA kSIbatAm gatA |
bhaveyam muditA dRptA mudritA nidrayA tata: ||3|71|30||
kadA – When —
pItamaha-Aloka-rudhirA – on blood in Grandfather-World —
kSIbatAm gatA – having got drunk —
bhaveyam muditA dRptA – may I be crazy mad, -
mudritA nidrayA tata: – and sunk in sleep thereafter?
#dRpta
#mudrita
vlm.3.71.30. When shall I get me drunk, with drinking the blood of human gores; and become merry and giddy, until I fall fast asleep.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
When may I get dead-drunk on blood,
here in Grandfather-World?—
blind-drunk,
and sink into stupor and sleep?!
-30-
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मयैव कुतपो वह्नौ तदग्र्यं भासुरं वपु: ।
भस्मत्वं कनकेनैव सूचित्वमुररीकृतम् ॥३।७१।३१॥
मया_एव कु.तपो वह्नौ तद्_अग्र्यम् भासुरम् वपु: ।
भस्मत्वम् कनकेन_एव सूचित्वम् उररी-कृतम् ॥३।७१।३१॥
mayA_eva ku.tapo vahnau tad_agryam bhAsuram vapu: |
bhasmatvam kanakena_eva sUcitvam urarI-kRtam ||3|71|31||
mayA_eva – by-me only - It's my own fault! -
ku-tapa: vahnau – Bad Tapas in the fire -
tad agryam bhAsuram vapu: – that superbly wondrous body -
bhasmatvam kanakena eva – like gold by ashes ?
sUcitvam urarI-kRtam – having given assent to Pinhood.
AB. ... tatprAktanam ... ||3|71|
vlm.3.71.31. It was I who destroyed my former brilliant body, by my bad choice of austerities, and accepted this petty needlish form, like one taking the sulphate of gold, instead of that precious metal.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. by my own ill-fated austerity I burnt my big excellent body to
ashes and agreed to this existence as a needle, as if exchanging gold
for iron.
AS. I agree.
It's my own misascetic fault!
The fire of my bad Tapas burned-
away that wonderful body,
when I assented to Pinhood. 31
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क्व किलाञ्जनशैलाभं वपुर्भरितदिक्तटम् ।
क्व प्राचिकाखुरसमं सुचित्वं नृपापेलवम् ॥३।७१।३२॥
क्व किल_अञ्जन-शैल_आभम् वपुर्_भरित-दिक्-तटम् ।
क्व प्राचिका-खुर-समम् सुचित्वम् नृपा-पेलवम् ॥३।७१।३२॥
kva kila_aJjana-zaila_Abham vapur_bharita-dik-taTam |
kva prAcikA-khura-samam sucitvam nRpA-pelavam ||3|71|32||
kva kila – where is it now —
aJjana-zailaAbham
high as Mount aJjana– x
vapur bharita-dik-taTam – x
kva prAcikA-khura-samam – x
sucitvam nRpA-pelavam – x
AB. prAcikA dIrgha-pAda-lUtA jAtia tasyA: khura: pAdAgram tat-samam ||3|71|
#zailAbha
#bharita
#prAcika
#khura
vlm.3.71.32. Ah! where is that huge body which filled all sides, and shone as the sable hill of Anjanágiri; and what is this puny and pinny form of the shape of a spider's leg, and as thin and lean as a tender blade of grass.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
"Where is it now,
that high black mountain
a body filling.up the sky
and where's this one,
like a mosquito's foot?
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त्यजत्याशु मृदित्यज्ञ: प्राप्यापि कनकाङ्गदम् ।
मया सूचित्वलोभेन संत्यक्तं भासुरं वपु: ॥३।७१।३३॥
त्यजत्य्_आशु मृद्-इत्य्.अज्ञ: प्राप्य_अपि कनक_अङ्गदम् ।
मया सूचित्व-लोभेन संत्यक्तम् भासुरम् वपु: ॥३।७१।३३॥
tyajaty_Azu mRd-ity.ajJa: prApya_api kanaka_aGgadam |
mayA sUcitva-lobhena saMtyaktam bhAsuram vapu: ||3|71|33||
tyajaty Azu – throws far away —
mRd-ity – as-it-were mud —
ajJa: prApya – a fool, gaving got —
api kanaka_aGgadam – even a golden jewelry —
mayA sUcitva-lobhena – by my desire for needlehood —
saMtyaktam bhAsuram vapu: – I've lost my terrifying form.
vlm.3.71.33. The ignorant are found to throw away a golden jewel, as useless on the ground as a piece of glass; and so have I cast aside my shining body, for a bit of this blackest needle.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
The fool who finds a gem and thinks
it mud, throws it away from him.
By my desire for needlehood,
I've lost my terrifying form.
33
y3071.034
हा महोदर विन्ध्याद्रिसनीहारगुहोपम ।
अद्य नान्तं करोषि त्वं कथं सिंहेन हस्तिनाम् ॥३।७१।३४॥
हा महोदर विन्ध्या_अद्रि-सनीहार-गुह_उपम ।
अद्य न_अन्तम् करोषि त्वम् कथम् सिंहेन हस्तिनाम् ॥३।७१।३४॥
hA mahodara vindhyA_adri-sanIhAra-guha_upama |
adya na_antam karoSi tvam katham siMhena hastinAm ||3|71|34||
hA mahodara – O my huge belly! —
vindhyA-adri-sanIhAra-guha-upama –
Vindhya-mountain.frosty-cave.like —
adya na_antam karoSi tvam – now not within do you do-them in —
katham siMhena hastinAm – as, by a lion, elephants.
vlm.34. O great Vindhyá with thy hollow and snow covered caves! why dost thou not destroy thy dull elephants by thy native lions? It is I that am as silly as an elephant—gaja múrkha.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. woe to my great belly, which is like a cold cave in vindhya mountain!
now you don’t put an end to elephants, like a lion!
AS. I agree.
O my huge belly,—who are like
a fogbound vindhya mountain-cave,—
now you no longer take-things-in,
as lions take-in elephants!
34
y3071.035
हा भुजौ भरनिर्भग्नशिखरौ शशभृन्नखै: ।
पुरोडाशधिया चन्द्रं कथमद्य न बाधत: ॥३।७१।३५॥
हा भुजौ भर-निर्भग्न-शिखरौ शशभृन्-नखै: ।
पुरोडाश-धिया चन्द्रम् कथम्_अद्य न बाधत: ॥३।७१।३५॥
hA bhujau bhara-nirbhagna-zikharau zazabhRn-nakhai: |
puroDAza-dhiyA candram katham_adya na bAdhata: ||3|71|35||
hA bhujau – O my arms —
bhara.nirbhagna.zikharau – bearing/weighty.broken/bent – breaking under their own weight . ??? das....@gmail.com
zazabhRn-nakhai: – w/my moonlike nails -
puroDAza-dhiyA candram – the moon as a thought-offering ??? —¶jd -
katham adya na bAdhata: – how do you not trouble to take?
< bharena_atizayena ...
jd#bhara भर (>bhR) - bearing, bringing; bestowing [gifts], granting; maintaining, supporting (mostly end-comp.; cf. #RtaMbhara-, #kulaMbhara , #dehaMbhara, #vAjaMbhara); bhAra : (end-comp. f. <A>) - the act of bearing or carrying (away &c.); . what is carried away, booty; . war, contest; . a burden, weight (bharam >kR, to place one's weight, support one's self); a large quantity; bhareNa bharAt --ind.- in full measure, with all one's might); raising the voice, shout or song of praise. —¶mw,ap - y3071.035
nirbhagna nir-bhagna निर्भग्न Shattered, broken in pieces. Bent, bowed. Devoid of (hIna हीन); असावत्यन्तनिर्भग्नस्तव पुत्रो भविष्यति । अनाथवत्सुखेभ्यश्च राजवंशाच्च वत्सले ॥ Rām.2.8.2 —¶mw,ap - y3071.035 —¶jd -
puroDAza : पुरो--डाश - any oblation Mn. v , 23 ; a prayer recited while offering oblations in fire Pa1n2. Sch.; -tA - state or condition of an oblation ; acc. with nI, to offer in fire , burn Pa1rvat.; p. bRgala m - a piece of the sacrificial cake S3Br. —¶mw,ap - y3071.035
bAdh - >badh cl.1. A. bAdhate, ep. P. -ti - drive away, repel, remove; to resist, oppose...
zazabhRt शश--भृत् -m.- zaza-bhRt - "hare-bearer", the moon —¶mw,ap - y3071.035 —¶jd -
zikhara शिखर a point, peak (of a mountain, tree, sword); erection of the hair [horripilation]. zikharin -adj.- pointed, peaked, tufted; m. a peaked mountain stronghold; zikhariNI f. an excellent woman; a line of hair extending across the navel zikhari-pattrin -m.- a flying mountain. —¶mw - - y3070.004 —
vlm.35. O my arms! which used to break down mountain peaks, why do ye fail to pluck the butter-like moon with thy moony nails?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. O my arms which broke mountain peaks! desiring oblations, why
do you not torment moon by your moon=like nails anymore?
AS. puroDAza-dhiyA is missed in thanslation. It means thinking of moon as an offering (like the offering of puroDAza in a sacrifice).
O my arms, breaking under your
own weight, and O your moonlike nails,
why do they not now snatch away
the moon as a thought-oblation? 35
y3071.036
हा वक्ष: काचवैधुर्यगिरीन्द्रलटसुन्दर ।
नाद्य सिंहादि यौकं तद्धृतं रोमवनं तथा ॥३।७१।३६॥
हा वक्ष: काच-वैधुर्य-गिरि-इन्द्र-लट-सुन्दर ।
न_अद्य सिंह-आदि यौकम् तद्-धृतम् रोम-वनम् तथा ॥३।७१।३६॥
hA vakSa: kAca-vaidhurya-giri-indra-laTa-sundara |
na_adya siMha-Adi yaukam tad-dhRtam roma-vanam tathA ||3|71|36||
hA vakSa: - O breast
kAca-vaidhurya-giri-indra-laTa-sundara –
x
na_adya siMha-Adi yaukam tad-dhRtam roma-vanam tathA - x
#vakSas
#yauka
vlm.36. O my breast! which was as fair as the side of the snowy mountain, even without my glassy ornaments; why dost thou not show thy hairs, which were as large as leeches that feed on lion's flesh?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
VA. oh my breast! beautiful like high mountains without crystals????
where in forests and caves roaring lions and other beasts were like louses???
AS. kAcavaidhuryagirIndralaTasundara has a typo, laTa -> taTa. This one is complicated and I disagree with both older translations. Oh my breast, (hA vakSaH), beautiful like the side of mountain without any ash (kAcavaidhUryagiritaTa -kAca has the meaning of alkaline ash also), you don't carry the animals - lions etc. (siMhAdi) which are fleas on you and also your forest of hair.
y3071.037
हा नेत्रे कृष्णरजनीरजःशुष्केन्धनैजने ।
कस्मान्न मे भूषयतो दृग्ज्वालामलया दिश: ॥३।७१।३७॥
हा नेत्रे कृष्ण-रजनीरजः-शुष्क_इन्धन_एजने ।
कस्मान्_न मे भूषयतो दृग्-ज्वालामलया दिश: ॥३।७१।३७॥
hA netre kRSNa-rajanIrajaH-zuSka_indhana_ejane |
kasmAn_na me bhUSayato dRg-jvAlAmalayA diza: ||3|71|37||
hA netre – O eyes —
kRSNa-rajanI-rajaH-zuSka_indhana-ejane – dark-night-brightness-dry-kindling-inflaming –
kasmAn na me bhUSayato – why do you not make bright for me —
dRg-jvAlAmalayA – with your fiery vision —
diza: – the directions?
AB. kRSNa-rajanyA kRSNa-pakSa-rAtryA rajyate Asajjayata iti kRSNa-rajanI-rajo_andhakAras tad-rUpa-zuSka_indhanasya ejane pradIpane ... ||3|71|
#ejana
#pradIpana
#bhUS
vlm.87. O my eyes! that used to dispel the darkness of the darkest night, and kindle the dry fuel with your glaring fire; why do ye cease to lighten the air with your effulgence?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
O my eyes,
that used to kindle the darkness of the night
with your enflaming gaze,
why does your fire
not brighten the ten directions? 37
y3071.038
हा स्कन्ध बन्धो नष्टोऽसि निषिद्धोऽसि महीतले ।
कालेन विनिपिष्टोऽसि निघृष्टोऽसि शिलातले ॥३।७१।३८॥
हा स्कन्ध बन्धो नष्टो_असि निषिद्धो_असि महीतले ।
कालेन विनिपिष्टो_असि निघृष्टो_असि शिलातले ॥३।७१।३८॥
hA skandha bandho naSTo_asi niSiddho_asi mahItale |
kAlena vinipiSTo_asi nighRSTo_asi zilAtale ||3|71|38||
hA skandha bandho naSTo_asi niSiddho_asi mahItale |
kAlena vinipiSTo_asi nighRSTo_asi zilAtale ||3|71|38||
hA skandha – Ah, my aching back! —
bandho naSTo_asi – you're bound and doomed —
niSiddho_asi mahItale - x
kAlena vinipiSTo_asi –
nighRSTo_asi zilAtale - x
#skandha
#bandha
#naSTa
#niSiddha
#mahItale
#vinipiSTa
#nighRSTa Rama Beyond Price???
#zilAtale
vlm.38. O my shoulder blades! are ye broken down and levelled with the earth? or are ye crushed and smashed or mouldered and worn out by age?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
y3071.039
हा मुखेन्दो तपसि किं नाद्य त्वं मम रश्मिभि: ।
कल्पान्तदावसंशान्तचन्द्रबिम्बमनोहर ॥३।७१।३९॥
हा मुख-इन्दो तपसि किम् न_अद्य त्वम् मम रश्मिभि: ।
कल्पान्त-दाव-संशान्त-चन्द्र-बिम्ब-मनोहर ॥३।७१।३९॥
hA mukha-indo tapasi kim na_adya tvam mama razmibhi: |
kalpAnta-dAva-saMzAnta-candra-bimba-manohara ||3|71|39||
hA mukha-indo – Ah, face-moon, —
*kalpAnta-dAva.saMzAnta+candra-bimba.manohara –
Doomsday-Fire.put-out+moon-disc.dazzling voc. –
you should outshine the Doomsday Fire, as mind-boggling as the full moon ???
tapasi kim na_adya tvam – why do you not now glow —
mama razmibhi: – with my radiance?
#saMzAnta
vlm.39. O my moonbright face! why dost thou not shine over me with thy bright beams; resembling the everlasting light of the orb of the moon, now at an end for ever?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
Ah, moony-face, why do you not
glint with my rays of radiance?
You should outbright the Doomsday Fire,
more mind-boggling than the full moon! 39
y3071.040
हा हा हस्तौ महाकारौ तावद्य क्व गतौ मम ।
संपन्नास्मि महासूचिर्मक्षिकाखुरदोलिता ॥३।७१।४०॥
हा हा हस्तौ महाकारौ ताव् अद्य क्व गतौ मम ।
संपन्ना_अस्मि महा-सूचिर् मक्षिका-खुर-दोलिता ॥३।७१।४०॥
hA hA hastau mahAkArau tAv adya kva gatau mama |
saMpannA_asmi mahA-sUcir makSikA-khura-dolitA ||3|71|40||
hA hA hastau – O O my two hands -
mahAkArau tau – you great instruments -
adya kva gatau mama – now where have you gone from me? -
saMpannA_asmi mahA-sUcir – I've become a great needle -
makSikA-khura-dolitA – fly-hoofprint-roving – like a fly buzzing a cowpie.
#makSikA, makSika: – a fly, bee. &c. —¶mw - - y3071.040 —¶jd -
#khura-: खुरः [खुर्-क] A hoof; रजःकणैः खुरोद्धूतैः R.1.85, 2.2; Ms.4.67. -आघातः, -क्षेपः a kick. -न्यासः prints of hoof; तस्याः खुरन्यासपवित्रपांसुम् R.2.2. —¶mw - - y1029.011; y3071.040 —¶jd -
vlm.40. O my hands! where is your strength fled today? See ye not, how I am transformed to an ignoble needle, that is moved about by the touch of the foot of a fly?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
O, O, my two hands, you were such
great instruments! now where have you
gone from me? I'm no Great Pin,
small as a fly buzzing cowpies. 40
y3071.041
हा भगोग्रकरञ्जाढ्यसत्कन्दश्वभ्रशोभन ।
विन्ध्याद्वरेण्यविपुलनितम्बामलबिम्बक ॥३।७१।४१॥
हा भग-उग्र-करञ्ज-आढ्यसत्कन्द-श्वभ्र-शोभन ।
विन्ध्याद्_वरेण्य-विपुल-नितम्ब-अमल-बिम्बक ॥३।७१।४१॥
hA bhaga-ugra-karaJja-ADhyasatkanda-zvabhra-zobhana |
vindhyAd_vareNya-vipula-nitamba-amala-bimbaka ||3|71|41||
hA bhaga-ugra-karaJja-ADhyasatkanda-zvabhra-zobhana |
vindhyAd vareNya-vipula-nitamba-amala-bimbaka ||3|71|41||
hA bhaga-ugra-karaJja-ADhyasatkanda-zvabhra-zobhana –
O
vindhyAt – than vindhya —
vareNya-vipula-nitamba-amala-bimbaka –
x
< sat vidyamAnam kandam sthUla-taru-mUlam yasmiMs tathAvidham zvabhram garta iva zobhana ||3|71|
#bhaga
#karaJja
#ADhyasatkanda
vlm.41. Alas! the cavity of my navel, which was as deep as a well, and beset by hairs resembling rows of beautiful plants about it; and my protuberant posteriors, which likened to the bottom of the Vindyá hills.
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
y3071.042
क्वाकारोऽम्बरपूरक: क्व च नवं तुच्छात्मसूचीवपू-
रोदोरन्ध्रसमं क्व वास्य कुहरं क्वेदं च सूचीमुखम् ।
क्व ग्रासो बहुमांसभारबहुल: क्वाब्बिन्दुना भोजनम्
सूक्ष्मास्म्येतदहो मयैव रचितं स्वात्मक्षये नाटकम् ॥३।७१।४२॥
क्व आकारो_अम्बर-पूरक: क्व च नवम् तुच्छ-आत्म-सूची-वपू-
रोदोरन्ध्र-समम् क्व वा_अस्य कुहरम् क्व इदम् च सूची-मुखम् ।
क्व ग्रासो बहु-मांस-भार-बहुल: क्व आब्-बिन्दुना भोजनम्
सूक्ष्मा_अस्म्य् एतद्_अहो मया_एव रचितम् स्वात्म-क्षये नाटकम् ॥३।७१।४२॥
kva AkAro_ambara-pUraka: kva ca navam tuccha-Atma-sUcI-vapU-
rodorandhra-samam kva vA_asya kuharam kva idam ca sUcI-mukham |
kva grAso bahu-mAMsa-bhAra-bahula: kva Ab-bindunA bhojanam
sUkSmA_asmy etad_aho mayA_eva racitam svAtma-kSaye nATakam ||3|71|42||
kva AkAra: ambara-pUraka: – Where is that sky-filling form? —
kva ca navam – and what-is-this new one? -
tuccha-Atma-sUcI-vapus-rodorandhra-samam –
trivial-self-needle-body-heaven/earth-gap-equal -
kva vA_asya kuharam – or where is its emptiness??? das....@gmail.com—
kva idam ca sUcI-mukham – and where this needle-mouth? —
kva grAsa: – where the fat -
bahu-mAMsa-bhAra-bahula: – much-meat-bearing-plenty?
kva Ab-bindunA bhojanam – what-kind-of feast is a water-drop?
sUkSmA_asmy etad aho – boohoo I am so skinny! -
mayA_eva racitam – by me it was so settled -
svAtma-kSaye nATakam – this dance of self-destruction ???
< ...|| 4 x 19 zArdUla-vikrIDita
rodorandhra m रोदोरन्ध्र the void or hollow space between heaven and earth. — rodorandhra eva dyAv-A-pRthivī-randhra MoT —
vlm.42. Where is that towering stature reaching to the sky, and what is this new earned contemptible form of the needle; where is that mouth, hollow as the vault of the sky, and what is this hole of the needle? Where is that heap of my flesh meat, and what is this drop of watery food? Ah! how lean have I grown, but who is to be blamed for an act of my own doing?
sv.3.42 20-42 Ah, when will I again be as large as a mountain and drink the blood of large beings?... Let me become an ascetic again and perform penance as I did before."
Where's my old form that would outfill the sky? Just look at this new thing! This stupid
needle-body's like the space from earth to heaven, void as my needle-eye. Where's
the fat of yesteryear that greased all of my meat? All I get now is water
-drops! Boohoo! I am so skinny! but I chose my self-destructive role to play. 42
ity ArSe vAsiSTha-mahA-rAmAyaNe vAlmIkiye mokSopAye utpatti-prakaraNe sUcikA-paridevanam nAmaika-saptatitama: sarga: ||3|71|3|71||
a.u-m
saMtoSa: paramo lAbha: sat-saGga: paramA gati: |
vicAra: paramam jJAnam zamo hi paramam sukham ||3|71|19||
Contentment is the highest gain, Good Company the highest course,
Enquiry the highest wisdom, and Peace the highest enjoyment. 2.16.19
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