Jill Stockinger
In the Twilight of My Years,
I pass the bars on the school playground,
the jungle gym and monkey bar,
throwing dark geometric shadows.
I see the golden leaves in a crisp skirt
around the aspen starting to turn brown.
I remember when girls only played
with girls, and boys stayed with boys.
When a whistle would stop our play
and we’d troop back to our classrooms.
I remember the day a row of children
passed your ring to me and I wore it
proudly on a chain around my neck.
Fourth grade; what did we know
of relationships? We never
even kissed. But I still remember
the other girls’ envious looks.
And to answer your question before it is even asked,
I went steady with a boy named Bobby DeLosh in the fourth grade.
I hardly knew him, but I was excited about the "idea" of "going steady,"
so I said, "Yes." And he didn't ask me verbally. He sent me the ring, with
a note, asking me to go steady. A row of kids passed me the ring and note!
And I happened to be wearing a necklace (which I did not wear every day)
and I put the ring on the necklace.
And when I got home, my sister (two years older) told on me, and I got into trouble for wearing his ring.
I think that happened around April so our "going steady" only "lasted" until the end of school in June. I think I gave
him back the ring the last week of school. I don't think we were even in the same classroom the coming year. Jill