It's been a week full of traveling for work, a graduation, and many transitions happening at home. I felt through it all as if I were water flowing over and around the rocks in a river. I felt I didn't have to DO anything. I just kept breathing, creating space for all of it to move within me, and it was effortless.
As I move through the process of CODE Model Certification, I am letting this process also flow as it should.
I invested in an iphone for mySelf, and love listening to the contributors to each radio episode, and to the vibration of each godforces' voice as I travel to and from work.
I truly am in the best of company.
Have a wonder-filled week!
Audrey |
Hi Claire
And what comes up for me is that my parents are the god-force expressing as it is intelligent for them to express and I am the god-force that I am expressing as it is meaningful for me to express. And I remind me to trust mySelf…I am not them.
…and indeed breathing is not only good, it is the very thing that creates the space for me to evolve in what I know is thrival even when it is, in my own knowing body, I am in the company of others who are evolving in what feels to me like survival. I am aware of my ability to be in the system and not of it…and it is to breathe, follow the impulse and let mySelf know the truth of my experience for me and then choose, “God-Force that I am, how do I choose to live MY LIFE today.”
And it is to be kind, gentle and considerate of mySelf, loving myself, madly, deeply, unconditionally, unquestioningly, especially in such moments.
With much RIG for you Claire, and the collective of amazing women gathering here.
Kae
And it
is to be kind, gentle and considerate of mySelf, loving myself, madly,
deeply, unconditionally, unquestioningly, especially in such moments. Kae
on a level of creation, I thank all of you for your tribal wisdom in what is evidence in my body, right now. I listened to Naomi's show yesterday because it was good company for me. I had a hard time relating, but stayed with my willingness to entertain the idea that there might just possibly be something there for me. Yesterday between my daughter and me, pow, magic on levels that I have been creating for a while now, another level was reached. How could this be about simply not making up stories and simply staying present. I could not imagine, before that with children, with adults yes, but with children, how could it be about what I want, and not trying to make up a story about how I could help. Yet, something was unfolding in my present experience that was huge and I know better not to try and understand it. What do I want to create, intimacy, particularly with this twelve year old still in my house and my partner of choosing.
As Claire writes today, I realise the connection in her powerful sharing, just stay loving myself and see what happens.
Last night, at a party, I was realising how different I am these days in my contentment, interacting knowing I am whole. This morning I woke with massive pain in my left shoulder and up in my neck, all on the left hand side. My daughter said, "I know what this is, I had it when I was three." My thought was, how can you remember that with so much detail? I also remembered and I remembered the house full of people and me being pissed because we were missing going rafting. I honestly thought she was doing this to me, and it was just something she created. I could have been," kind, gentle and considerate of mySelf, loving myself, madly, deeply, unconditionally, unquestioningly, especially in such moments" I do not share this with shame but with awareness of the opportunity to let go of this cellular memory in my body. To know that I am all grown up and that my kindness to myself is what spreads and creates my world and the world into what I see.
Thank you one and all,
Sandy
Despite my intention to BE a god force I feel angry that I so easily forget my husband is a god force as well and expressing it the only way he knows in the moment! I forget to breathe and so the fire erupts from my mouth which I immediately regret. I breathe and back away and regroup and regroup again. I so hoped it would get easier and easier to stand my ground while treating him with great RIG! Today I came here and am grateful for the words that flow and grateful that I am not so alone and the tears flow again……………………I choose my life moment to moment and never have I experienced everything that I know or knew shift and shift and shift again. I love and live with my husband’s dementia diagnosis and the only thing relevant about that is how I will continue to unfold and BE MySelf.
I know there is a quote somewhere about how hard it is to keep you head when all about you is madness………think it is from Alice in Wonderland and boy do I fell like that some days! LOL
With great RIG to all
Pat
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