live and let be

[AngelaB]

It is 5:30AM and I have been up for a few hours. I woke up and could
not get back to sleep. I just had some breakfast and I was on my way
to back to bed and found myself here writing.

The last week or so I created all sorts of drama in my life. I spent
a lot of time dancing back and forth over the dotted line; testing all
I have come to know to be true. It has been an interesting experience
and I have come to discover there is very little I can know for sure
in my intellect and yet there is allot I can come to know in my body.
This is where “trust” comes in and for me I have to feel safe (in my
body) to trust. My intellect is part of my body and it demands a
“proof of concept” before it will let go and trust the body to lead.
The words Safety, Proof and Trust resonate very strongly with me this
morning. I looked up the formal definition and this is what I found:

Safety: The condition of being safe; freedom from danger, risk, or
injury.
Proof: The evidence or argument that compels the mind to accept an
assertion as true.
Trust: Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a
person or thing.

As I read the definitions a few times the words freedom, accept, true,
integrity and person jumped out at me. Freedom => acceptance =>
truth => integrity => person. Freedom to choose from a place of
acceptance of the truth of my experience leads to integrity of the
individual person (me). In this moment I know (I feel it right at the
top of my head) I have come to the point where I just want to live and
move away from focusing my attention on how I’m living or the process
of living I’m engaged in… I just want to live and let be.

I know I’m a spiritual being living a human experiences as a quantum
biological being. I know my body is magnificent and I can trust my
body to lead. I have also discovered the joy and peace of trusting
myself and allowing my life to unfold as I relax into the “gap”
between “who I am” and “who I am becoming”. I know the gift of breathe
and the transformative power that lies in my willingness to breath,
relax into myself and allow the wave to move.
What more do I need to know? Nothing!
Joy,joy :)