OMG Rolanda, I hear you SO loud and clear! Turn up that volume! That
is a great metaphor for me! This is so old for me to keep "doing the
right thing" just for approval! I've just realized that I keep
breaking out of that mold only to fall back in as soon as I'm
uncomfortable for any reason. The habit is so ingrained for me, that
it will carry on for awhile (after I fall back in) until something
happens that makes me realize that I have actually fallen back in. I
will keep your note in mind as I catch myself slipping and I'll "turn
up my own volume" so as not to be drowned out by the reruns of old
insignificant stuff. The metaphor of a sandbox is perfect for me (and
I suspect for a lot of others) as I was probably still playing in one
when I decided that I needed to play "right". (to keep the other kids
happy and not rejecting me)
Thanks for the insight.
Missed you the other night at Amy's office.