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Sandra Heron
Dec 18, 2008, 8:39:06 AM12/18/08
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I woke up this morning with lots of movement in my body. So much moving.
What calls me to write about, right now, is the fear that I feel when writing in this public forum. Declaring my thoughts and my experience with my name attached for all to see. I have never done it. So, I sit with it, take a deep breath and I write. My story, not in repeating it, but observing the genius of it is very, very valuable as I see the genius in my decisions, at the time, as I did not know how to choose otherwise and it wasn't until I started to explore what I knew that I didn't know that new ways of thinking opened up choices to me.
What I am saying here is that standing on the right side the line is not about, "trying harder" for me. I am done with trying harder. The program that Louise has created, for me, is about holding conversations and trying on new ways of thinking to honour the truth of my experience, not Louise's or anyone else in the room. When I think back to Engaging, we all moved through it very differently. At first I was jealous,anxious and insecure, however, as I honoured this, I moved through the experience in the only way I knew how and this was not about trying harder. The best thing that works for me, right now, is not shutting out my culturally conditioned beliefs (much like Naomi wrote the other day), I just observe them, slow down, sometimes let go, some times try something new, but it is slow and natural and from my body. We move a lot slower in our house these days; there is a lot of joy. When I notice a culturally conditioned belief, I do not struggle with it, I love it now, I love the genius, it makes me smile, not be disappointed with myself or judge others. I do not act on it, most of the time, and when I do, I give myself a break. Metaphors to illustrate how this is working for me; I have millions. From what we are doing for Christmas Day to how we engage at a party, in the speed of light it changes. This all happened from me not trying harder and stopping to see the genius in how I used to do things, no judgment, just information to choose differently.
Life is good.
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"My like is my sole/soul responsibility." Unknown source
What calls me to write about, right now, is the fear that I feel when writing in this public forum. Declaring my thoughts and my experience with my name attached for all to see. I have never done it. So, I sit with it, take a deep breath and I write. My story, not in repeating it, but observing the genius of it is very, very valuable as I see the genius in my decisions, at the time, as I did not know how to choose otherwise and it wasn't until I started to explore what I knew that I didn't know that new ways of thinking opened up choices to me.
What I am saying here is that standing on the right side the line is not about, "trying harder" for me. I am done with trying harder. The program that Louise has created, for me, is about holding conversations and trying on new ways of thinking to honour the truth of my experience, not Louise's or anyone else in the room. When I think back to Engaging, we all moved through it very differently. At first I was jealous,anxious and insecure, however, as I honoured this, I moved through the experience in the only way I knew how and this was not about trying harder. The best thing that works for me, right now, is not shutting out my culturally conditioned beliefs (much like Naomi wrote the other day), I just observe them, slow down, sometimes let go, some times try something new, but it is slow and natural and from my body. We move a lot slower in our house these days; there is a lot of joy. When I notice a culturally conditioned belief, I do not struggle with it, I love it now, I love the genius, it makes me smile, not be disappointed with myself or judge others. I do not act on it, most of the time, and when I do, I give myself a break. Metaphors to illustrate how this is working for me; I have millions. From what we are doing for Christmas Day to how we engage at a party, in the speed of light it changes. This all happened from me not trying harder and stopping to see the genius in how I used to do things, no judgment, just information to choose differently.
Life is good.
--
"My like is my sole/soul responsibility." Unknown source
naomi...@eastlink.ca
Dec 18, 2008, 10:56:33 AM12/18/08
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Inspiring Sandy. Thank you. I felt serenity when I read your piece. I woke this morning with the phrase "there is always more and it's okay". I always thought my happiness hinged on being 'done' with the the crap in my life. I am now realising the crap is bringing me some of my greatest insights and awareness' and is allowing me to choose differently! I am just not judging it anymore and I am allowing the information to ride through me like a wave and now I know there is always more and I AM okay with it!
If you want to change your life, you must first change the way you perceive your life.
-Trick of light
----- Original Message ----- From: Sandra Heron <sandr...@gmail.com> Date: Thursday, December 18, 2008 9:39 am Subject: More coming up today
If you want to change your life, you must first change the way you perceive your life.
-Trick of light
----- Original Message ----- From: Sandra Heron <sandr...@gmail.com> Date: Thursday, December 18, 2008 9:39 am Subject: More coming up today
> I woke up this morning with lots of movement in my body. So much
> moving.
> What calls me to write about, right now, is the fear that I feel when
> writing in this public forum. Declaring my thoughts and my
> experience with
> my name attached for all to see. I have never done it. So, I
> sit with it,
> take a deep breath and I write. My story, not in repeating it, but
> observing the genius of it is very, very valuable as I see the
> genius in my
> decisions, at the time, as I did not know how to choose otherwise
> and it
> wasn't until I started to explore what I knew that I didn't know
> that new
> ways of thinking opened up choices to me.
>
> What I am saying here is that standing on the right side the line
> is not
> about, "trying harder" for me. I am done with trying harder. The
> moving.
> What calls me to write about, right now, is the fear that I feel when
> writing in this public forum. Declaring my thoughts and my
> experience with
> my name attached for all to see. I have never done it. So, I
> sit with it,
> take a deep breath and I write. My story, not in repeating it, but
> observing the genius of it is very, very valuable as I see the
> genius in my
> decisions, at the time, as I did not know how to choose otherwise
> and it
> wasn't until I started to explore what I knew that I didn't know
> that new
> ways of thinking opened up choices to me.
>
> What I am saying here is that standing on the right side the line
> is not
> about, "trying harder" for me. I am done with trying harder. The
> programthat Louise has created, for me, is about holding
> conversations and trying
> on new ways of thinking to honour the truth of my experience, not
> on new ways of thinking to honour the truth of my experience, not
> Louise'sor anyone else in the room. When I think back to
> Engaging, we all moved
> through it very differently. At first I was jealous,anxious and
> through it very differently. At first I was jealous,anxious and
> insecure,however, as I honoured this, I moved through the
> experience in the only way
> I knew how and this was not about trying harder. The best thing
> that works
> for me, right now, is not shutting out my culturally conditioned
> I knew how and this was not about trying harder. The best thing
> that works
> for me, right now, is not shutting out my culturally conditioned
> beliefs(much like Naomi wrote the other day), I just observe them,
> slow down,
> sometimes let go, some times try something new, but it is slow and
> sometimes let go, some times try something new, but it is slow and
> naturaland from my body. We move a lot slower in our house these
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