I agree with Andre that Martha brings hope to Jimmy Cross and
motivates him to continue fighting. Jimmy chooses to convince himself
that Martha has the feelings he truley desires by shoving the proof
that she sees their relationship differently to the back of his mind
to be forgotten. He knows that if he confronts the truth about their
relationship, she will no longer be an icon for him to fight for.
Martha is a dream that Cross can escape to in order to forget the
tragedy around him; Martha is like a sweet drug to Cross. She pulls
him away from the real world into an imaginary bliss, and even though
he knows that escaping everything with his dreams of her is overall
unhealthy for him and destructive for his job as a soldier, he can not
pull himself away. Like a drug addict, Cross finds that the quick
bliss his dreams of Martha drug him with are addictive and something
he can not willingly avoid.
When Cross falls into his daydream of Martha while Lee Strunk is
in the tunnell, he finds himself falling into his dreams without
trying. Those dreams have become part of who he is, and something that
he has convinced himself he survives with. "And then suddenly, without
willing it, he was thinking about Martha. The stresses and fractures,
the quick collapse, the two of them buried alive under all that
weight. Dense, crushing love" (O'Brian 11). Cross can not help his
subconscious desire to have a "hit" of Martha. Cross survives so that
he can have some of his drug and so that he can get that quick, fake
bliss.
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