[torontoisland] L O V E

[Ken McAuliffe ken.mcauliffe@rogers.com [torontoisland]]

 

I have done it!

I finally ripped all the weeds away from "The Word" 

The word (for some who may not know about it) refers to my own feeble gorilla gardening along the road allowance on willow avenue next to my shelter.

It had been many words over the years as the pines slowly reach to the stars and eventually made so much shade it could not support being spelled in flowers and so it is now in stone.

Words like..Wonder, Plenty, Linger, Grace and finally L O V E ....well once L O V E settled in for yet another summer.....I just could not rip it out because..It really is the answer.

L O V E is not for the fain of heart, it is lovely of course but it is challenging, grudging, humbling, exhausting, and sometimes it gets lost in the weeds.

Unfortunately I was suddenly given a life changing head injury while dealing with the flood Aug 22, 2017 and ...although I can't always remember things perfectly...I have neglected "The Word", It's message and my usual crazed transmission of the message to the universe, our miracle of a planet, our city, and those who strolled along Willow Avenue ...worst of all my species and my neighbours.

I regret that very much.  I have a worse regret than that even...

I can only offer that I have been in morning and i can see i sure have been going through the many stages that it is believed one goes through in the mourning process.

My very worse regret is that i have behaved poorly, rudely, unreasonably and well below my own standards of how to meet, greet and be sweet to my neighbours, my tribe, my fellow shipwrecked and blessed individuals who cling to our should nourishing sandbar.

There are three individuals and their families who witnessed and endured the unfotunate and unreasonable display of my misdirected ranting.  Although I could justify my behaviour as a typical symptom of Brain Trauma and PTSD it is no excuse.  I will always have to carry that with me and as a well reared and recovering Catholic, I will never forgive myself for it.  All have been graceful in their own shock and disappointment and i have a great deal of Gratitude for that.  Kindly avoid surmising - let it lie with LOVE.

I love my Community and the people in it, you have blessed me with 35 years of oh so many, many teachings and gifts and lessons.  Although one of the Webster Lad's christened me with the best compliment ever by saying ...  "Well your just %$^&#%^ Miss Congeniality aren't you Ken?"  I know i am not exactly that to everyone and we are all have different relationships with each other and I feel a need that tonight - On 12th Night that i wanted to atone for my behaviour and be stand before my tribe and own my stuff.

I am blessed with our entire community and I never forget that.  i am especially blessed with some folks who have been helping me get back on track for over a year.

The future will reveal who I am healing toward and what my behaviour results in.  I live in hope.

Thank you for reading this as MY OWN personal message and it is NOT connected to any other communications on line.  

Thank you.

For those who have been kind enough to read some of my similar messages in the past you will smile or roll your eyes in knowing its something Ken has done in the past.

So, Tonight ...on 12th Night I wanted my Tribe to know that the LOVE transmission is Loud and Proud and back on line.

I recently sent the words below to a neighbour and it inspired THIS email - 12th Night ..To many just a story...but not a bad one 

"imagine…traveling on the faith of a star …three different people …different tribes ..beliefs … the exchanges along the way … the doubt…the questions along the way from others and their caution and doubt....the wonder of a shared experience and discovery …they joy of giving …the pain of leaving ….the sharing of the story … three different people …different tribes ..beliefs

k

Ken McAuliffe
2 Lenore Avenue

Kindly feel free to print and share with those who may enjoy and are not on line or without computers.  No need to respond - i could not deal with the email traffic as the computer is a challenge and i am very grateful i was able to craft this...imperfect communication..with Love and apologies for errors

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