Wow, okay. I have been so fucking fried from the last deadline, that I
finely (or finally) figured out that there was more "stuff" to read besides
the email postings. I had lost track of the fact that there was a web
site... I found the "Brief Note on Eros."
Of course, I heartily concur & I love how you expressed it!
I particularly marvel at your summing up of Story of O, by far the most
influential book I read as a girl -- it is what inspired me to undertake my
entire career. However, I never really saw it the way you describe it, but
your description is so apt! What a neat way of looking at it. (I had only
seen it in terms of how expertly the writer-by-way-of-English-translator had
captured the Eros of the sex act with written words & created a whole
distinct sexual world for the mind.)
Re: the spiritual/religious/Eros stuff -- I was lucky to have been the one
in my family to undertake the "mentally unstable/ill" dynamic and while I
don't really recommend it, it certainly gave my mind a lot of leeway.
Meaning I got to think however I wanted to about sex/god /spirit and even
though I was institutionalized for thinking the way I did, at least they
kind of "left me alone" and chalked up my entire existence to being "just
nuts." Which is a nice way to fly under the radar for a girl in our culture.
Not so nice for a grown woman, though, which was why I had to commit making
a career out of it.