Sagawas Writing How I ate her
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blonde, with pure white skin, she astonishes me with her grace. I
invited her to my home for a Japanese dinner. She accepts. After the
meal I asked her to read my favorite German Expressionist poem. As she
reads i can't keep my eyes off her. After she leaves I can still smell
her body on the bed sheet where she sat reading the poem. I lick the
chopsticks and dishes she used. I can taste her lips. My passion is so
great. I want to eat her. If I do she will be mine forever. There is
no escape from this desire.
I arrange for her to read the poem for me once more. I lie to her. I
tell her I want to record the poem on tape for my Japanese teacher.
She believes. I prepare everything. The cassette recorder for the
poem, the rifle for the sacrifice. She arrives on time. After drinking
tea and whisky, she speaks. She smiles at me. But I know inside that
I'm the strangest one of all. Her yellow sleeveless top shows off her
beautiful white arms. I can smell her body.
I turn on the recorder. She starts to read . She speaks in perfect
German. I reach for the rifle hidden beside the chest of drawers. I
stand slowly and aim the riffle at the back of her head. I cannot stop
myself.
There is a loud sound and her body falls from the chair onto the
floor. It is like she is watching me. I see her cheeks, her eyes, her
nose and mouth, the blood pouring from her head. I try to talk to her,
but she no longer answers. There is blood all over the floor. I try to
wipe it up, but I realize I cannot stop the flow of blood from her
head. It is very quiet here. There is only the silence of death.
I start to take off her clothes. It is hard to take the clothes off a
dead body. Finally it is done. Her beautiful white body is before me.
I've waited so long this day and now it is here. I touch her ass. It
is so very smooth. I wonder where I should bite first. I decide to
bite the top of her butt. My nose is covered with her cold white skin.
I try to beat down hard, but I can't. I suddenly have a horrible
headache. I get a knife from the kitchen and stab it deeply into her
skin.
Suddenly a lot of sallow fat oozes from the wound. It reminds me of
Indian corn. It continues to ooze. It is strange. Finally I find the
red meat under the sallow fat. I scoop it out and put it in my mouth.
I chew. It has no smell and no taste. It melts in my mouth like a
perfect piece of tuna. I look in her eyes and say: "You are
delicious."
I cut her body and lift the meat to my mouth again and again. Then I
take a photograph of her white corpse with its deep wounds. I have sex
with her body. When I hug her she lets out a breath. I'm frightened,
she seems alive. I kiss her and tell her I love her. Then I drag her
body to the bathroom. By now I am exhausted, but I cut into her hip
and put the meat in a roasing pan. After it is cooked I sit at the
table using her underwear as a napkin. They still smell of her body.
Then I turn on the tape of her reading the German poem and eat. There
is not enough taste. I use some salt and some mustard and it is
delicious, very high quality meat. Then I go back to the bathroom and
cut off her breast and bake it. It swells while it cooks. I serve the
breast on the table and eat it with a fork and knife. It isn't very
good. Too greasy. I try to cut into another part of her body. Her
thighs were wonderful. Finally she is in my stomach. Finally she is in
my stomach. Finally she is mine. It is the best dinner I've ever had.
Afterwards I sleep with her.
Next morning she is still here. She doesn't smell bad. Today I must
finish cutting up her body.I have to put it into suitcases and sink it
in the lake. It will be her grave.
I touch the cold body again and I wonder where I should start. I start
to cut off all the meat before amputating the limbs. While I cut her
calf I suddenly want to taste it. I see the beautiful red meat beneath
the fat. I grasp her knee and her ankle, and tear it with my teeth. It
is tender. I slowly chew and savor it.
After eating most of the calf I look at myself in the mirror. There is
grease all over my face. And then I start to eat at random. I bite her
little toe. It still smell of her feet. I stab the knife into her arch
and see the red meat deep inside. I thrust my fingers inside and dig
out the meat and put it in my mouth. It tastes okay. Then I stab the
knife into her armpit. Ever since I saw it under her yellow sleeveless
top I wondered how it would taste this good. The wonderful taste
cheers me up and I devour her underarm up to the elbow.
Finally I cut off her private parts. When I touch the pubic hair it
has a very bad smell. I bite her clit, but it won't come off, it just
stretches. So I throw it in the frying pan and pop it in my mouth. I
chew very carefully and swallow it. It is so sweet.
After I swallow it, I feel her in my body and get hot. I turn the body
over and open her buttocks, revealing her anus. I scoop it out with my
knife and try to put it in my mouth. It smells too much. I put it in
the frying pan and throw it in my mouth. It still smells. I spit it
out. I go into the next room. It smell of fat, like I've been frying a
chicken.
It's been twenty-four hours now. Some huge flies hover and buzz in the
bathroom. I try to chase them away, but they came back. They swarm on
her face. They seem to tell me that I've lost her forever. It is no
longer her. Where is she? She's gone far away. I've broken her. Like a
child who breaks his toy. I try to use an electric knife to cut her
body. It doesn't work. It just makes a loud sound. I use a hatchet. I
strike several times. It's hard work. I strike her thigh. Her body
jumps up. If she could feel, it would have hurt.
Finally the thigh separates from her body. I bite it again, like I
would bite a chicken leg. Then I cut off her arms. It is even harder
than the thigh. I use the electric knife again. It makes a shrill
sound, like the sound of her shrill voice. It works this time. Her
hand still wears a ring and a bracelet. When I see her long fingers I
am driven by another impulse. I use her hand to masturbate. Her long
fingers excite me.
When I'm finished I try to bite her finger. I can't. I'm disappointed.
I put her hands into the plastic bag along with her legs. And then I
see her face. It is still quiet. She has a small nose and a sweet
lower lip. When she was alive I wanted to bite them. Now I can satisfy
that desire. It's so easy to bite off her nose. As I chew the
cartilage I can hear the noise. I use a knife to cut off more of the
cartilage and put it in my mouth. It really doesn't taste very good. I
scoop out her lower lip with my knife and put it in my mouth. It has
hard skin. I decide to eat it later when I can fry it. So I put it in
the refrigerator.
I want her tongue. I can't open her lower jaw, but I can reach in
between her teeth. Finally it comes out. I cut it off and put it in my
mouth. It's hard to chew. I see my face in the mirror. Her tongue
entwined with my tongue. I try to close my mouth, but her tongue slips
out. Finally I cut the skin off the tongue and taste the meat.
I try to eat her eyes. It's hard for me to stab into them, though it
is the easiest part of her face. I can tears coming from them. It
frightens me. Her eyes are all that is left of her face. It is nearly
a skull.
I decide to take out her stomach. When I stab under her navel a little
fat appears and then I can see the red meat under the fat. I slice a
piece of the red meat and put it on a plate. Then I stab into the
stomach. The internal organs appear. There is a great length of rolled
tubes and I find a gray bag at the end of the tubes. It must be the
bladder. There is a strong smell as soon as I pick it up. I thrust my
hand into her body cavity. There is another bag. It must be her womb.
If she had lived she would have had a baby in this womb. The thought
depresses me for a moment.
I pull out the intestines. My hands sting from the digestive juices.
At last I have to cut off her head. It is the most difficult thing I
have to do. I cut off the meat on her neck until I can see bone, then
I cut again. She still wears her necklace. I try to use the electric
knife, but it doesn't work very well. It just makes its shrill sound.
So I use the hatchet. I imagine myself on the guillotine. It is
surprisingly easy to cut through. With the head gone her body is now
only flesh. When I grab the hair and hang up the head, I realize I am
a cannibal. I put the head in a plastic bag. I separate the body and
put it into two plastic bags. They are heavy. It is hard to put them
into the suitcases. I am finished. It is midnight. I call a taxi.
I am back home. I turn the TV and open the refrigerator. I put the
dishes on the glass table. I recognize each pieces of meat. This is
part of her hip and this is part of her thigh. I fry them on the
stove. I set the table. There is mustard, salt, pepper and sauce. I
put her underwear beside the dish. I sniff it and look at a nude woman
in a magazine. I try to remember which part of her is in my mouth, but
it is difficult to connect the meat with a body. It just seems like a
piece of meat. I continue to eat her body until I am caught. Each day
the meat becomes more tender, each day the taste is more sweet and
delicious. "
I have pictures, better quality than the ones posted here, if
interested
DarkLust
always welcome.
murph
I hope you get inspired!
murph
DarkLust
story you can read in the pages secgion of this group.
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murph
murph
Jerry brudos
the story of the jap eating that girl
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DarkLust
his fantasy come to life.
murph
Do you have any of the girl while she was still alive?
murph
DarkLust
In the article covering Sagawa's deed there is a pic of Renee
alive..and smilin.