I have been tending to family matters the last several days, so today
I took time to read through the posts, especially as they relate to
the discussion of race, what one builds, and thought about where they
are joined and where they are separate. Please bare with me as I try
to communicate these thoughts, for, as much as I am stirred by both
the original news and the subsequent discussion, I need to express
some things here. They are important.
I was struck, hurt, by what was said in the original article “Gate
City” – humiliated, as I have always been by those on this planet that
feel their lives are more worthy than someone else’s because of their
skin color, their religious beliefs, etc. This has always been
something that has internally been hard for me to digest, since I was
a child, and to which my dad said one night, “Don’t ever lose your
sensitivity to others, it is part of what makes you the person you
are.” It makes me sick, actually, at times; when I visited Dachau as
a high school student, I nearly did get sick in the museum.
http://www.kz-gedenkstaette-dachau.de/index-e.html is a link to the
website to see some of it. To pass through the gates, to see photos
of the experiments that were done on other human beings…. To walk the
lanes of gravel where the barracks once were…to stand in a cement
chamber where people were gassed and to see where the bodies were
cremated… to feel the heaviness of thousands of souls in such a
place…. ALL because of having different religious beliefs.... ALL
because of a form of discrimination…. I did not need to know the
cultural histories of these peoples to know the injustices done to
them, to know that discrimination –in any form– must be actively
removed in today’s time for things to change.
I’ll put myself in the tempered hotspot for a moment. When it came to
race, growing up with a maternal side of family from the south, I grew
up scared of African-Americans holding judgment against me because I
was white. Every summer, for 2 or 3 weeks, my mom and I would head
down to see her side of the family nestled in Auburn, Decatur, and
Moulton, AL. I got yelled at for snipping at my grandmother for using
inappropriate words. Everywhere I walked and would catch stares for
some reason, I feared someone would do something to me because I was
white. I smiled at everyone who approached me, regardless of color,
but when I saw anger or spite in peoples' eyes, I was afraid. I
always used to say, “Any human who gets cut bleeds red.” As simple as
that statement was, it got the point across, and I stopped getting
scolded for correcting my elders, but the fact remained that until I
knew how to better embody my own level of openness to/for people, I
was afraid someone would do something to me because I was white.
Retribution is a tricky thing, especially when people use history to
justify acts in the present. As an adult, behaviors that press to
understand a particular culture are no less oppressive in my mind and
heart than someone who is pressing a religious faith, because
indirectly, they pressing discrimination in a different way, from a
different angle. It’s still in and of itself a form of
discrimination.
I have also in my lifetime experienced what injustices can happen
simply because I am a woman.
I am mentioning these things for a couple of reasons. History can
give a person awareness, yes, can even help a person evolve if the
culture they are hearing about or becoming more aware about fits with
some inherent affinity for the person at a deeper level. (For
example, Japanese culture for me interests me greatly in a spiritual
way, even though my ancestry is Scotch, Irish, and English.) But
history doesn’t guarantee respect. History’s absorption, or at the
very least exposure, guarantees nothing because its interpretation is
still ultimately determined in the eyes of the observer. No one is
saying the past doesn’t exist, or to ignore it, not at all! It’s
about saying “this is where we are NOW, these are the behaviors that
are occurring, and we can either actively exercise to support them or
actively exercise to oppose them – not because we know the history,
but BECAUSE OF THE PEOPLE WE ARE AND CHOOSE TO BE, history
irrelevant.” How a person behaves NOW is what earns respect, how non-
discriminatory one’s thoughts and actions are in-the-now is what
changes things – leading by example at its purest sense. Apply this
to the definition of becoming a freemason in Lodge Napoleon, this
group by definition is tasked and defined by exercising and working
above these things, not wanting to create barriers but strive to pull
people closer together and remove them.
However, as I said, one must be careful that, for the sake of
combating one barrier, one does not create an opposing barrier in the
process. Doing so is still discrimination, only from a different
perspective, and the former does not justify the latter.