To Miss Mary Hale
1921 W. 21 STREET,
LOS ANGELES,
17th June, 1900.
MY DEAR MARY,
It is true I am much better, but not yet completely recovered;
anyway, the complexion of the mind is one belonging to everyone
that suffers. It is neither gas nor anything else.
Kâli worship is not a necessary step in any religion. The
Upanishads teach us all there is of religion. Kali worship is my
special fad; you never heard me preach it, or read of my preaching
it in India. I only preach what is good for universal humanity. If
there is any curious method which applies entirely to me, I keep
it a secret and there it ends. I must not explain to you what Kali
worship is, as I never taught it to anybody.
You are entirely mistaken if you think the Boses are rejected by
the Hindu people. The English rulers want to push him into a
corner. They don't of course like that sort of development in the
Indian race. They make it hot for him, that is why he seeks to go
elsewhere.
By the "anglicised" are meant people who by their manners and
conduct show that they are ashamed of us poor, old type Hindus. I
am not ashamed of my race or my birth or nationality. That such
people are not liked by the Hindus, I cannot wonder.
Ceremonials and symbols etc. have no place in our religion which
is the doctrine of the Upanishads, pure and simple. Many people
think the ceremonial etc. help them in realising religion. I have
no objection.
Religion is that which does not depend upon books or teachers or
prophets or saviours, and that which does not make us dependent in
this or in any other lives upon others. In this sense Advaitism of
the Upanishads is the only religion. But saviours, books,
prophets, ceremonials, etc. have their places. They may help many
as Kali worship helps me in my secular work. They are welcome.
The Guru, however, is a different idea. It is the relation between
the transmitter and the receiver of force — psychic power and
knowledge. Each nation is a type, physically and mentally. Each is
constantly receiving ideas from others only to work them out into
its type, that is, along the national line. The time has not come
for the destruction of types. All education from any source is
compatible with the ideals in every country; only they must be
nationalised, i.e. fall in line with the rest of the type
manifestation.
Renunciation is always the ideal of every race; only other races
do not know what they are made to do by nature unconsciously.
Through the ages one purpose runs sure. And that will be finished
with the destruction of this earth and the sun! And worlds are
always in progress indeed! And nobody as yet developed enough in
any one of the infinite worlds to communicate with us! Bosh! They
are born, show the same phenomena, and die the same death!
Increasing purpose! Babies! Live in the land of dreams, you
babies!
Well, now about me. You must persuade Harriet to give me a few
dollars every month, and I will have some other friends do the
same. If I succeed, I fly off to India. I am dead tired of the
platform work for a living. It does not please me any more. I
retire and do some writing if I can do some scholarly work.
I am coming soon to Chicago, hope to be there in a few days. Say,
would not Mrs. Adams be able to get up a class for me to pay my
passage back?
Of course I shall try different places. So much of optimism has
come to me, Mary, that I should fly off to the Himalayas if I had
wings.
I have worked for this world, Mary, all my life, and it does not
give me a piece of bread without taking a pound of flesh.
If I can get a piece of bread a day, I retire entirely; but this
is impossible — this is the increasing purpose that is unfolding
all the devilish inwardness, as I am getting older!
Ever yours in the Lord,
VIVEKANANDA.
PS. If ever a man found the vanity of things, I have it now. This
is the world, hideous, beastly corpse. Who thinks of helping it is
a fool! But we have to work out our slavery by doing good or evil;
I have worked it out, I hope. May the Lord take me to the other
shore! Amen! I have given up all thoughts about India or any land.
I am now selfish, want to save myself!
"He who revealed unto Brahmâ (the first of the gods) the Vedas,
who is manifest in every heart, unto Him I take refuge, hoping
deliverance from bondage."
GOD