I Guess I Am!

[Ashley D]

Crazy, that is!  Why?  My head is as messed up as my body!  I am Gay and Transgendered (a girl in a boy's body!)  I have tried to kill myself several times!  I want to die!  

 

I have pleaded with people, that, if you find my body dangling from a beam, leave me until my heart has stopped!  Let me do this!  Let me kill myself!

 

Please!!

[Gay Boi]

Hi Ashley!  You are not the only one!!  Like you, I too am Gay.  I am also quite feminine too!  I have been physically examined, and I am not Transgendered like you, I'm just a feminine boi.  And I have tried to kill myself. 

 

I guess my head is messed up too!  Why?  I honestly believe that, when I finally do kill myself, my death will bring closure to all y grandparents.  My mother suffered postnatal depression and hanged herself shortly after I was born.  Mom was 10-days away from her 18th birthday when she killed herself.  A few days after that, my father, who was only 19, was decapitated!  My grandparents all believe I was the reason for my parents' deaths!  So, if I kill myself, they will get their closure!  Here is where my head really gets messed up!  I have tried to hang myself at least 10-times.  Twice was in suicide pacts with my last boyfriend.  the first time, we were found in time and survived.  The second time though, he broke his neck!  And if I can't die by hanging myself, I want someone to cut my head off!  Then, show it to my grandparents!  How messed up is that!