Iam a 21 year old university student. I was born and raised a muslim. I have visited Saudi Arabia and performed Umrah many times and Hajj twice. I have always been proud to be a muslim. My Imaan has always been strong. Whenever I had doubts about Islam, it was easy for me to believe that they are just whispers of shaytaan. It was easy for me to ignore them. But that was until a few months ago.
A few months ago, I read something online about Muhammad (s.a.w.) which had disastrous effects on my Imaan. I'm not gonna say what I read because it might affect the Imaan of other muslims reading this. But after I read it, I started asking myself "What if I'm following the wrong religion? What if Islam is not the truth?" I prayed to Allah everyday to make these thoughts go away. But Allah wasn't answering. I couldn't ignore these thoughts as waswas from shaytaan.
For the first time in my life, I started suffering from depression. I wanted to end my life but I was too scared to do that because of what Islam teaches about suicide. I decided to talk to my parents about this issue. They told me:"Do not look for proof or reasoning for any religion. If there existed a reason/proof for any religion, everyone in the world would be following that religion. Instead, you should follow Islam blindly and assume that all doubts are whispers of shaytaan. You just have to take a leap of faith and "believe without reasoning"". I also talked to my younger brother about this issue and he gave me the exact same answer.
At first, I found a good reason to follow Islam. So I went with it. And I started to feel a lot better. But after a few weeks, I could no longer believe in that reason. In other words, I found a reason NOT to believe in that reason. So the doubts started to come back. The depression came back. I started crying to my parents again and they gave me the same reply as before: "Believe without reason. All doubts are whispers of shaytaan"
A few days later, I found another reason to believe in Islam. And it was going quite well for a couple of days. But once again, I started to have doubts about those reasons as well. Once again, I started crying to my parents and once again, they gave me the same advice: "Believe without reason"
So what did I do after that? I gave up. I finally took my parents' advice. Why? Because they were right. If I ever find a reason to follow a particular religion, then eventually, I will come across something that will give me doubts about that reason. Since I was born and raised muslim, I still had a little bit of Imaan left inside of me. So with that little bit of Imaan, I proclaimed the Shahadah again.
But suddenly, I remembered something. I remembered that if someone says Shahadah, he/she must do it with certainty. And only Allah knows what's in your heart. So I thought to myself: "Since some of the doubts were still there, I didn't recite Shahadah with a pure heart. But with the little bit of Imaan I had left inside of me, I did the best I could. So did Allah accept my Shahadah?"
So brothers and sisters, I'm not asking you to help me believe in Islam because any reason you find can and will be refuted by someone. I want to follow Islam blindly. But my question to you is: Did Allah accept my Shahadah? Despite all my doubts, if I tell myself "I will follow Islam no matter what. All doubts are "whispers of Shaytaan" it just means that my heart is impure. My heart doesn't entirely believe in Islam but there is still a little bit of Imaan left inside of me. I don't care about other religions. This is the religion I want to believe. But would my Shahadah be accepted?
I still pray 5 times a day but I'm afraid Allah is not accepting my Salah because I said Shahadah with an impure heart. I keep thinking "What if the doubts in my mind are not waswaas of shaytaan? What if it's all me?"
Surah Anbiyaa verse 52-54: Recall to mind the occasion when Ibrahim said to his father and his people, What are these images to which you are so devoted? They replied, We found our forefathers worshipping them. Ibrahim said, You have gone astray and so had your forefathers manifestly deviated from the Right Way.
Surah Al Baqarah 2:170 But when they are told, "Follow what God has bestowed from on high," some answer, "Nay, we shall follow [only] that which we found our forefathers believing in and doing." Why, even if their forefathers did not use their reason at all, and were devoid of all guidance?
This is an unjust and ridiculous concept, this means that all relegions are right because most other religions and missionaries also use the same reasoning "You are just meant to believe". GOD/Allah has provided us with evidence to proof to us his existence otherwise how do we know that our messengers where not preachers of man made religions?
And if We had destroyed them with a punishment before him, they would have said, "Our Lord, why did You not send to us a messenger so we could have followed Your verses before we were humiliated and disgraced?"
And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided. [2:186]
In conclusion, No don't follow Islam blindly and don't base your belief on the wrong reasons rather study Islam, study Islam and bear in mind that there are things that we might never know the answer to rather we have already established that Allah/GOD exists and we are suppoused to submit to God and follow his orders
We will show them Our signs in the horizons and within themselves until it becomes clear to them that it is the truth. But is it not sufficient concerning your Lord that He is, over all things, a Witness? [41:53]
With Him are the keys of the unseen (ghayb). No one knows them other than Him. He knows what is in land and sea. No leaf falls but He knows it; nor there is a grain in the darkness of the earth or a green or dry thing but in a manifest Book. (6.59)
Submit your life to Him and be calm. Make your motto of life La ilaha illa Allah (There is no god but Allah). By this motto, you testify to your incapacity as a creature provided with limited faculties. You testify that everything in the universe belongs to Him, and whatever He wants will come to pass in the way and the time He wants. You testify to your being created by Him in the way He wants:
But despite His absolute power to do everything in anyway He likes, what we notice is that out of His infinite mercy He made everything perfect, created you and all what you see around you in the most beautiful way that we all behold:
No want of proportion will you see in the Creation of (Allah) Most Gracious. So turn your vision again: See you any flaw? Again turn your vision a second time: (Your) vision will come back to you dull and discomfited, in a state worn out. (Al-Mulk 67:3-4)
Due to His mercy, the abnormalities are subject to the law of rarity; that is, ever since the creation of Heaven and earth and the creation of Adam, up to the present day, there is not any irregularity in the pattern of creation, and whatever few abnormalities that we see are also subject to His divine wisdom.
Despite all the constant recklessness of humankind, painful consequences never occur in a proportional measure, subhan Allah (glory be to Allah)! Compared to the high rate of speed-limit violations, how many accidents occur daily? Very few! Actually, His mercy exceeds His wrath.
But this attestation can never be genuine if it is not accompanied with love, because faith without love is dead. If you do not love Him, you will not genuinely obey Him. This is different from relationships between mortals where hypocrisy prevails, making it hard to distinguish between genuine and fake love. But with Almighty Allah, everything is transparent, so when we talk about this highest degree of love, we talk about something that is not tainted with any hypocrisy or deceit.
So the true and genuine Shahadah in Islam is the one coated with love: loving Allah, which of course is the sublime love. This love will automatically make it easier to show full obedience to His commands:
That is, it will develop into a conviction in your innermost self, reassuring you that it is through His command and wishes that everything happens. Hence this conviction is iman (faith) reposing in your heart. Henceforth your manners will be in proportional compatibility with that faith. That means you have accepted Allah into your life.
Trust that Allah can make a way out for you, quicker and easier than you imagined even when everything in reality tells you otherwise. Faith in Allah regardless of what you see. Faith in your duas regardless of what happens out there.
Timing is key. You need time to grow. You need space to flourish. Having everything you want soo quickly and instantly might seem like a pleasing idea but it can mess you up just as quickly as you got it.
Have you ever sat with someone and they were sooo desperate for your attention? Like they wanted your attention soo much yet they were so far from getting it. Desperation + neediness pushes people away.
Wanting/ needing/ longing = (often) comes from lack/ doubt/ emptiness from within. When you surrender, you let go of the how and when, because none of those things will ever be in your control. You will never ever know how and exactly when your duas will be answered.
I so needed this. I am having a lot of trouble letting go of a particular dua. I prayed Istikhara. I went to Umrah and made this dua in front of the Kabah, I have started waking up for Tahajjud, and make dua during all the times duas have the most potential to be answered. I have tried countless times to let go but my heart just boomerangs back to the same dua. I can see the reality of it of not being answered and I can see the whys. Everyone is asking me to let go and I know I should but for some reason I cannot. I am exhausted by this constant tug of war between what I know and what I feel. Your article explained things so beautifully. I just pray that I can apply it in my life. I have never had so much conviction in a dua but I also can see it not getting answered. Please make dua for me that Allah guides me to what is good. Jazakallahu Khairan for the write-up once again.
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