How fortunate to be thus born! As a result, I cannotremember when I was not religiously inclined. My nature wasbent that way, and my earliest thought dwelt upon Godinstinctively. My recollection does not reach back to the time Ifirst prayed at my mother's knee. Her faith, in a certain sense,was my faith and her God was my God. Like her, in my earlychildhood I was a stranger to doubt. The Good Man, as mymother would present God to me, was a reality from thebeginning; and heaven was as common to my early thinking aswas the home in which I lived. I did not regard my little sistersas dead, and when my mother would lead me by the hand totheir resting-place, she told me they only went that way to thebetter land. I believed it with all my innocent heart. What adelightful condition of soul when no doubt drags its ugly formacross the pathway of faith! Later on in life I had the spell ofthis absolute trustfulness rudely broken and it gave me theshock of my life. I passed through struggle and conflict duringmany disturbed nights and weary days before I recovered mybearing; and when the recovery was realized my soul wasbruised and torn, some of the scars of which remain until thisgood day.
Darkness came on and my loneliness was intense. I knewnobody and nobody had spoken to me all day on that car,except the conductor when he called for my ticket. At nineo'clock we reached Dalton and disembarked. I had never beenin a hotel. I saw one not far from the depot and went to it. Iasked the clerk what he would charge me for a room that nightand he said fifty cents. That was exactly my pile! I called forthe accommodation, but before retiring I told him I wanted toleave very early the next morning for Spring Place and that Iwould pay him then, for no one would be up when I wouldleave. He smiled and took the silver half dollar. I went to myroom, and solitude is no name for the room I occupied thatnight. I was a stranger in a strange land. I knew nobody andnobody knew or cared about me. After awhile I fell into asound sleep and awoke bright and early the next morning. Itwas not good daylight. I arose and hastened downstairs, andthere sat the same clerk whom I hadpaid the night before It had never dawned on me that a hotelclerk sat up all night. He spoke to me and I inquired for theSpring Place road. He gave me the direction, but suggestedthat I had better have breakfast before beginning my journey;but I knew better than he that I had nothing with which to payfor it, and I was confident it could not be had without money. Ithanked him for his kindness and bade him good-bye in regularold country style.
Therefore after the intervening of a few weeks I was notcontent to remain inactive at home. It did not require very longfor my physical condition to take a rebound, and I was readyfor some active employment. The growing crop did not needme, so I started out to find some order of employment. I wentinto a remote section of the county and applied for and obtaineda country school. It was a five months' public school. It was ina community where school teaching had been the bane of theordinary teacher's existence. It was in a very good communityof farming people, where there were quite a large number ofgrown-up young people. They were not only backward inmatters of education, but they were strangers to home disciplineand control. They had been permitted to have their own way,and they were hostile toward school government and restraints.As an invariable result teachers had a hard row of stumps inthat school district. Many of the parents gave them no co-operation, but took the part of their refractory children. I wasapprised of this state of things when I accepted the school, andthe local board put me on notice that I was chosen with a viewof not only teaching that school, but of controlling it; they weretired of the failures that had been made by my predecessors. Ifaithfully promised them that if they would stand by me therewould be discipline in that school and that its rules would beenforced to the letter. They gave their pledge.
I soon found that she was not nearly so half cracked asBrother Hickman had given me to understand. The fact is, shewas naturally one of the brightest women in her class I evermet. She was uncouth and uncultivated, and absolutely ignorantof the proprieties of life; but she had dead loads of good horsesense, and the most original genius of all my acquaintance. Inever tired of hearing her talk when once I succeeded inwinding her up and getting her started. She could say some ofthe wittiest things and get them off in the most unique way ofany woman whom I have ever known. And she had thekindest heart and could fix some of the most palatable things toeat.