Life Of A Women Trapped In The Moral Values Of The Society - A Small Curtain Raiser

[SPHOORTHIOUM]

Sphoorthi Oum,

Reference:Topic HELPLESSNESS from The Views Book written by Guruji

Its a small conversation involving a social worker trying to plead a
women to leave prostitution.The women answers by telling story of her
life.

I am telling with familiarity that I am a prostitute
You are social workers – you give advices…..
For hearing – may be very valuable
They are distant to certainty – very much…..

I am a prostitute – with age
I did not become prostitute – not without self-respect
Considering life with husband only – as responsibility
Eating difficulties only – I am filling my belly
For delightful life without income
For the habitual life – lacking income
I have lived ‘pleadingly’ – with the slave husband
While he beat me and took away my daily income
I cried a lot – and drank pot water
With no endurance to work hard – while the life has been going on
wickedly
Had asked me to do prostitution – my own husband!
Had preached me a lot – caused pain more than that…..
Deluding that for female, chastity is the Aaropranam (sixth vital
force)
I told him that it is ‘wrong’ – cried that it is ‘not appropriate’
Explained and requested him
That prostitution is crime – and that it is full of diseases
He said “I am telling you as husband – inevitable for you”

Unable to bear the pressure – unable to tolerate the pain
Leaving the in-laws house – reached parental home
Everybody asked – that “what is the matter”?
Did not open the mind – did not tell them anything
He only told it seems – that I only committed a ‘mistake’ and came
here
They believed that only
My silence itself – hurt me!
In between all the ‘good’ people
I could not stay – as a wicked person
The state of helplessness – where should I go?
May be he will kill me – for his dignity!
I ran away with the fear for life thinking that can’t I stay!

The age in which men would bite – and lonely weak person
Chasing me – the ‘goodness’ of men?
Used to see hopefully – used to say that they would provide me
‘everything’
Used to say that they loved me – and ‘ready’ for marriage
When asked if “I would come for work” – used to go along for manual
labor…….
Used to be cheated – used to give some money…
Their ‘love’ used to be fulfilled – my illusion used to leave!
If not for hard work, mind is – habituated to easiness
Life would not be a burden – no scope for pains

For the manual labor of entire day – how much wage would I get?
For pleasure for some time – for the game of lust
What would be the ‘price’ given – how much would I get as income
Comparing the calculations – understood the profit and loss
I turned the call of “would you come” – as habit

By observing and understanding – the taste of ‘customers’
I gathered ‘sex-workers’ skillfully
Only body for female – whether it is for sex or labor
Taking something out for ‘own’ – in the earning
Distributing everything – to protectors – and police

One day although thought that it is wrong – to falter steps
Some other day although thought that it is inevitable – at least for
living
Wrong, as right and commendably – even more greatly
I myself am increasing – more of them today
IF ANYTHING IS DONE TOGETHER - IT WOULD NOT BE ,WRONG AND CRIME !
BUT,IF SOMETHING IS DONE ALONE,EVEN IF IT IS GOOD - IT IS INDEED A
SUSPICION FOR THE SOCIETY

You tell moral principles – true indeed! I don’t deny them
They would not be proved in the real life
"HUNGER" FOR HUMAN BEING IS THE,FIRST GURU INDEED
Only if that is fulfilled, can listen to anything else
I know that you saying that I should ‘change’ – is for our own good

Very distant – for goals and implementation
Would not respect us – the society of family lives
Would not allow us to come near – even the immoral women hiding from
husbands
Prostitutes with the consent of husbands – prostitutes hiding from
husbands
Many chaste and virtual wives who exchange husbands – for the sake of
fashion
Many husbands who exchange wives – for variety
Boyfriends babies – fashionable flesh business
All are householders only and all are civility possessing individuals
only
All these are respectable and indeed those having respectability and
dignity
For sure would be as umbrella – either job – or family life…..

We are not jealous – we don’t criticize anyone
Our professional duty – all are equal only for us
Have need with us – even for the respectable persons
Even the politics come near
Greet respectfully – we too have votes, don’t we!
(Even so) hate us – when in public
Forgive us – let us live like this only…..
Leave our generation – to live just like this

Protect the future generations – from falling away from husbands
Even seen personally – this profession it is not safe
Wounds would be caused for self-respect….
Holes would be formed for pride….
We know completely……
That the bodies would turn into trash cans……

What is there we could do – after the body is burnt!
Have become wounds having burnt – have become crimes for the society
Although they are healed and faded away – marks have remained, after
the skin being peeled off
Only after we are burnt and turned into ashes – they go away unseen

We have children – indeed purely until today
Protect them – so that they would not become prostitutes
I am a prostitute – I am the ‘boss’ of profession….
Cannot become a householder – even if I dip in the Ganges….
Mine is not rejection but – there is no solution for us

You are social workers; work hard with good will (generosity)
Ours is the life of eating plate (made of leaves) – ends with the
completion of meal
THERE ARE FOR US - GOVERNMENT SCHEMES
NAME IS OURS ONLY - BUT THE BENEFIT IS NOT FOR US INDEED?

It’s enough if help for the protection of health
That help is enough for the convenience of professional execution….

Prostitution is the livelihood – we are deceived poor people
Our lives are – plastic flowers
Perfuming the mind….
Coloring the faces….
We pomp and show and stun the customers…..

While the men use and leave…..
Our lives are that of cleaning and placing them upside down….

It’s like solacing – because you have come
I have talked with mind – thinking that there are people who would
listen
Don’t think otherwise – for not listening to your words
Forgive me – it’s already late

We are consumption goods – have to see the ‘business’ (customers)
Full of gratitude for you – for your amiability

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Whether It Is Wife Or Prostitute
From The Point Of View Of Race - Both Are Females Only
There Is Value For One - Price For Another....
Is It Social Dharma ? or 'Karma' For Food !
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With Love & Regards,
Sphoorthi Family