srila prabhupada said...!!!

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

6^th

The judge who came often to see Prabhupada in Rishikesh came with another gentleman to see Srila Prabhupada.  Prabhupada, who was lying on his side, looked at them but never said one word, nor sat up.

7^th

Prabhupada slept undisturbed last night.  As I massaged him after he awakened, I told him I felt quite sure that he would recover because he wanted to see the world flooded by Krsna consciousness.  Krsna fulfills the desires of His pure devotee.  Such a desire is not selfish but is for the welfare of all mankind.  Srila Prabhupada said, "Yes, I would still like to see Krsna consciousness established more.  If I make another tour all over the world, that will do it.  I don't have to speak; my disciples will do that, but just my presence."

After lunch, Srila Prabhupada asked me to bring the astrologer's report.  He wanted to know whether it mentioned a fatal day.  It did state that from September to October was not a very auspicious time, because of  the movement of Sahni (Saturn) into the eighth house.  Srila Prabhupada said, "Indirectly, this means fatal.  From the circumstances, it appears hopeless."

I asked Srila Prabhupada about his father, how for four months at the end, he did not eat.  Srila Prabhupada said that his present condition was just as it was for his father: no eating.  Srila Prabhupada said, "If I can work a little more, it will be very strong.  I want to see that what I have done is made still stronger."

Gopala Krsna and Surabhi Swami came to see Srila Prabhupada.  Prabhupada began to talk about the fact that so much money was being squandered, paying for so many unnecessary cooks.  "Krsna's grace is always there, don't spoil it.  Not that, 'My father gives me so much; therefore, let me squander it.'  Don't be discouraged, but the worst management is in India.  Other places, New York, Los Angeles, Chicago, they are going on nicely.  But here, so much money is squandered."

Rajeev Gupta suggested that we immediately begin printing Srimad-Bhagavatam in Delhi, where we had deposited some money with the printer.  Gopala Krsna protested that Delhi prices were too high.  His protest made Srila Prabhupada very angry.  "Why you are so miser?  Spend on printing.  Whatever the price, spend!  I want the manuscripts all printed.  I know we are squandering; but at least if our work is going on, never mind.  So if we are squandering, why not squander on printing!

"Gandhi failed for twenty years in South Africa to get equal rights for Indians.  But now the Europeans are buying our books, and so they are appreciating Indian culture.  And thirty years, he failed in India.  It was Subash Chand Bose who got the independence.  He thought, 'Oh, the British are letting me sit with them in loin cloth.' What kind of success is that?  Fifty years spoiled!  Nonsense!  Non-violence, distorting the Bhagavad Gita!  The Bhagavad Gita begins with violence.  He said he didn't like the Krsna who fights.  So he is creating his own Krsna.  This man gave so much service to India, and what is the result?  I am working for ten years with so much result. Phalena pariciyate.

"Surabhi comes only for money.  He will present some plans, and you'll squander.  So if there is money, Tamala will arrange for you.  Twenty-two lakhs or twenty-two crores.  Finish in time.  I know if you are squandering money here, then you are squandering there on a big scale.  I am not going to live for long; if possible, I'll see.  Now in this state, don't tax me.  The will is there for you to follow."

In the evening, I proposed to Srila Prabhupada that the restaurant would like to have the proposed bank premises and would pay for it.  He was very pleased.  "If we can use it, that is best."  Prabhupada is more interested to use opportunities for preaching than for making money.  Money will come.  We should simply be concerned with preaching.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 6^th-August 7^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

Prabhupada arose early, the sun shining brightly on him, and he moved inside.  "In America, people are trained up so you can't find friends.  When mother is killing the child, how you can expect friendship?  Mother is supposed to be the best friend.  We're bringing them-from animal life to human life.

"Book distribution and farms: these are our solid programs.  They can change the whole world.  The whole foundation of animal civilization can be destroyed.  If I have hope for still living, I wanted to organize the farms, make it perfect.  Simple living and high thinking."

Later in the morning, Srila Prabhupada was speaking of Gaurasundara's being an expert artist.  "Bharadvaja has a beautiful wife, but he is not attached.  She is a rich man's daughter.  Still, they keep as husband and wife.  This is Vaisnava.  Gaurasundara should join and make dolls.  He is more qualified than Bharadvaja.  He can train others.  These doll projects.  So many tourists will come.  We should have them at least in London, Hawaii, Detroit."

This morning, Guru-krpa Maharaja arrived and immediately placed a blue sapphire ring on Srila Prabhupada's right ring finger.  The mounting was made of white gold and was studded with diamonds.  Guru-krpa showed photos of the beautifully renovated temple in Hawaii.  Srila Prabhupada said, "This is guru-krpa."  The pujari of Guru-krpa Maharaja's Deities, the faithful Bhanu dasa, then offered his obeisances.  Srila Prabhupada said he was very pleased to see Bhanu.  Prabhupada advised that their Deities be kept in their room.  "There is no need of cooking for Them.  Patram puspam phalam toyam."

Srila Prabhupada said, "I want no hired cooks.  They are most wretched.  Their association is degrading."

Prabhupada's health seems to be deteriorating more and more each day.  He becomes increasingly weaker.  He speaks less and with more difficulty.  His sleep is not sound.  He walks with more difficulty.  Worst of all, I have trouble encouraging him because I am increasingly aware of how hard this period is for him.  Srila Prabhupada has me read the astrologer's report to him often.  This is a most critical time, with little to be said, since his fate is in Krsna's hands.  As soon as he hears of some astrologer, Prabhupada wants us to consult him for an indication of what is to come.  We pray only that Prabhupada can successfully pass through this period.  Knowing how difficult it will be gives us a somber feeling.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 9^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

Bhakti-Caru Maharaja serves Srila Prabhupada every morning from 3:30 to 5:30.  Srila Prabhupada said to him, "This stone will save me."  Bhakti-Caru replied, "Srila Prabhupada, if you stay three years more, so much can be done."  Srila Prabhupada answered, "I have only done fifty percent of what I want to do.  The farms have to be done.  If they are established, varnasrama will be established.  This stone's effect is there.  I had good dreams.  Everybody is advising me to go to Hawaii for recovery-Guru-krpa, Gaurasundara."  We discussed travelling there and whether we would have to stop in Japan.  "Japan is hell.  There is no free air.  Why they attacked Pearl Harbour?  They could have lived peacefully in Hawaii.  Many Japanese and Chinese do."

For more than a month, Prabhupada has had to ask daily that devotees not use the microphone for performing kirtana: "They think that their voice becomes sweet from using it.  Actually, they sound exactly like a raksasa."

In the afternoon before taking rest, Srila Prabhupada asked Upendra whether he had ever seen a slaughterhouse.  Upendra answered that in Australia, they first make the cows unconscious by hitting them with a sledgehammer.  When Srila Prabhupada arose, Srila Prabhupada said to Upendra, "What you have said to me about the hammer has made me horrified."

In the mornings after bathing, Srila Prabhupada sits on the veranda, and Pradyumna reads the Caitanya-caritamrta.  When Pradyumna wanted to sit on a rug at Prabhupada's feet, Prabhupada would not allow him.  "As far as possible, while reading Caitanya-caritamrta, you should not sit down, but sit at the same level in respect of Caitanya-caritamrta."

In the evening, Bhagatji went upstairs to be with Srila Prabhupada.  As soon as he came, Prabhupada gave his hand for Bhagatji to hold and massage.  Bhagatji said to me that when persons are very ill, they always want someone to be there, holding their hand or touching them.  I asked Prabhupada how he was feeling.  He replied, "Not at all good.  I am very, very weak."

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 10^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

Srila Prabhupada had difficulty sleeping this past night, because of the disturbance from different sounds during my shift.  I received a report from Jayapataka Swami, and knowing Srila Prabhupada was eager to hear about Mayapur, I read the letter to him.  We were asked to leave Bangladesh because of the Mayapur incident.

Prabhavisnu Prabhu, who was in charge of the Dacca preaching, brought the letter.  He came to see Srila Prabhupada, who was sitting on his porch upstairs.  Guru-krpa Maharaja had just presented a new pair of Polaroid sunglasses to Srila Prabhupada.  Prabhupada told Prabhavisnu, "I congratulate you.  There was a Bengali poet,  Zamindar Michael Madhusadhan Dutta.  He became a Christian and spent all his money.  Indian Christian means extravagant.  Indians become Christians to eat meat and drink wine.  He married a British woman and settled in England and spent all his money.  Then he had to ask money from so many Indians, but no one would give any money.  But one from Vidyanagar thought, 'Such a big man and he needs money.  I shall give him.'  So the poet congratulated the donor, 'No one dared to pay me, except you.  You have the courage of an Englishman and the heart of a Bengali mother.'

"You are a Britisher.  The British Empire expanded by such courage.  America is also an English creation.  They were famous for courage, enthusiasm and expansion.  So you have to show that Englishman's courage.  You have two nice fields-Bangladesh and Nepal.  Nepal has the sentiment of Hinduism.  We can establish a stronghold there.  They want foreign exchange, so I will give you six hundred dollars monthly.  I have foreign accounts.  Formerly, the British expanded an empire.  Now you establish an empire of consciousness.  Krsna has given you the ability; do it with the courage of an Englishman and the heart of a Bengali mother.  In Bangladesh, take foreign exchange and print books there; never mind the quality.

"We should ventilate to the papers that this Indian investment is my money.  I have laboured hard day and night, and the American boys have cooperated.  It's not American money.  It's my money.  They should be proud.  'Our boy has done such good business.' I've done business, earned money, and brought it home to spend.  They should not think that the American government and World Bank is supplying.  [This was the propaganda of many in the government.]  Nobody is supplying.  I am earning money through my hard labour.  The money belongs to A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami.  Ventilate this.  And all the Bengali literature already published, get it republished."

Yesterday Sura dasa arrived, and I introduced him to Srila Prabhupada.

Prabhupada wears his sunglasses more and more, not only outside, but indoors as well, whenever a light is on.  Today during darsana of the Deities, he called for the sunglasses.  He now wears them even while being carried in his chair to the temple.

In the afternoon, Srila Prabhupada called me in and asked, "What is to be done?  Continue this kaviraja or should we change?  Perhaps the astrologer has information.  Now the kaviraja's medicine is doing nothing."

At this time Abhirama returned from Delhi, where he had gone to obtain further information from the astrologer.  The astrologer calculated that according to the stars at his birth, Srila Prabhupada would live for eighty-one years, five months and twenty-nine days.  In other words, February 28^th 1978, was supposed to be the fatal date.  He stressed, however, that this was true only for an ordinary man, that pious and spiritual activities often prolonged life.  The next six months would be difficult, especially the first week of September, when Saturn passed over Ketu and agitated it, causing weakness and possibly trouble from juniors.  If he survived throughout 1978, then he should not have trouble for four or five years, after which period his health would suffer again.  February 28^th 1978, was the date of completion of one Ketu-mahadasa.  The blue sapphire, along with Ayurvedic treatment, could give relief during this period.

Prabhupada heard Abhirama's report silently but intently, chanting inaudibly on beads.  His expression of soberness never changed.  After some moments, Srila Prabhupada said, "By calculation, the age is finished.  Rather, if I die, it will be glorious."

In the early evening, Prabhupada called me to his bedside; and while still lying down, he spoke, "Throughout the Society, we should be prepared.  Take it for granted, the day is given.  Now do everything carefully.  Everyone knows when there is no appetite, it is warning: life is over."

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 11^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

Prabhupada desired to taste South Indian-style cooking.  Abhirama's wife had made iddli previously, but they had been hard, like stone.  So Prabhupada asked that Palika come for a few days.  After lunch, however, Srila Prabhupada said, "There is no need to call her.  I have no taste, so what is the use?"

In the afternoon, Prabhupada called me and Srila Prabhupada said, "I was very happy when you dropped Palika.  Now you have introduced woman cooking again.  Why?  Fire must melt butter.  Artificially, you can check; but eventually it will act.  Tactfully arrange for her not to cook."  I explained that, because I had wanted Abhirama's help with the secretarial work, I was encouraging his wife; but Srila Prabhupada said, "Sometimes husband and wife can work separately."

For the past few days, Prabhupada had been very quiet, almost transcendentally morose.  He would hear the correspondence without making any comment.  I thought I should speak if the opportunity presented itself.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 12^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

This morning when Prabhupada awoke, I sat behind him on the bed, lightly massaging his back.  Then I asked, "Srila Prabhupada, what have you been thinking of the past few days?"

Prabhupada understood my question perfectly and replied, "I have been thinking that if I have to live for six months, until February, 1978, why not die now?  Pariksit Maharaja had only seven days."

"But the astrologer said you could live beyond the six months," I encouraged.

"That depends on Krsna's desire," Prabhupada countered.

"Do you have any indication whether Krsna wants you to live?"  My head was very close to Srila Prabhupada's back, and I waited with bated breath for his answer.

"The indication is that He wants me to live."

I could not check my crying when I heard this, and I murmured, "That is wonderful, Srila Prabhupada."

"This movement is revolutionary.  All over the world I have enemies; and there are friends too.  They wanted to say God is dead."

"I was thinking, if by assistance of Pradyumna, you could translate.  Now you are inactive; and throughout your life, you have always been active."

"Therefore, I have been thinking, what is the use of living?"

"With Pradyumna's help.  Now your eyes are failing you, but his eyes are good.  He could read aloud the acaryas' commentaries, and you could consolidate them."

"Yes, I am hoping like that" Srila Prabhupada said.

I wanted to know how much to mention about Prabhupada's condition.  "Should the devotees in the West be informed of your condition and the astrologer's report?"

"No," Prabhupada replied.

A report received from Hamsaduta Maharaja included a very strong debate between himself and one scientist, Dr. Kovoor, in which Hamsaduta emerged triumphant.  This news very much pleased His Divine Grace.  I read it in the morning which, along with the afternoon mealtime, seemed the best time for reading correspondence to Srila Prabhupada.  The late afternoon did not seem as good a time.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 13^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

Guru-krpa Maharaja was thinking of purchasing some land here in Vrndavana for building a sannyasi asrama.  I asked His Divine Grace about this plan.  He replied, "Sannyasi asrama is not a good idea.  This is sahajiya's idea-eating and sitting.  There are different types of sahajiyas, but they are all rejected.  Our men should actively preach, just like Hamsaduta Maharaja is doing.  We don't want to encourage idle sitting, solitary bhajana.  The sahajiyas, they manufacture so many stories about how the best pious activity is to feed the saintly persons in Vrndavana.  And they are the only saintly persons.  They eat and sit and gossip.  -- - is also sahajiya; therefore, he mentions Ramakrishna. -- - [another Vrindaban resident] is sahajiya number one.  Simply mix with him to take some service from him.  At the same time, be very careful that he may not exploit.  In Vrndavana, ninety percent are sahajiya.  And sahajiyas are rejected by Bhaktivinoda."

When I asked Srila Prabhupada whether I could go for a bath in the Yamuna at noontime, Srila Prabhupada said it was not a good idea.  Bathing in the Yamuna should be done in either the morning or evening.  I understood from his reply that he preferred me to remain very near.  I also feel that as long as Srila Prabhupada is so ill, I have no right to think of such things as sporting in the Yamuna.  Gandhari demonstrated her faithfulness to her blind husband, Dhrtarastra, by voluntarily blindfolding herself.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 14^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

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"When I was a small boy, one of my father's friends said to him that he should send me to England to become a barrister, as I was very intelligent.  But my father said that he would never send me to become a mleccha.  When I became a young man, I liked that idea and was thinking why my father won't let me go?  Why not go to England and get a white wife and white children?  I thought somehow or other I should go and get an English wife.  When I was walking on morning walks in London near the law colleges, I was thinking, 'Now I have got thousands of white children without the help of a white wife.'  If I had become a barrister, I would have been a first-class barrister, putting so many convincing arguments in so many ways.  Just like the Japanese know how to strike you in the right way.  I put my arguments like karate."

During Abhirama's shift at night, he plays a tape recording of kirtanas and bhajanas from 9:30 to 11:30, and Srila Prabhupada has been enjoying it.  He nods his head and keeps time with his hand.

Today was the day of doctors.  Last evening, Abhirama Prabhu arranged a vaidya, the head physician of an Ayurvedic hospital in Delhi, to come to Vrndavana.  However, upon examining his card, we noted that he had many titles, not only in the Ayurvedic sciences, such as yoga and naturopathy.  Immediately I concluded he was bogus.  Prabhupada also said that a genuine doctor concentrated on one practice, not many.  When the vaidya came before Prabhupada, he put his head to Prabhupada's feet.  No doctor would ever do that, knowing that one's sinful reactions are transferred to another by touching the other's feet.  His action could thus make Prabhupada's illness worse.  Far from being an Ayurvedic kaviraja, he had an assistant and a stethoscope; and his clothes were dirty.  One who knows the Vedas doesn't use a stethoscope, and he is always clean.

Later in the morning, a doctor, the father of Naveen Krsna, an Indian devotee from our Detroit temple, came with his family for darsana.  He was insisting to Srila Prabhupada to allow himself to be admitted to a hospital for dialysis.  When he saw Prabhupada did not want that, he suggested an Ayurvedic hospital in Delhi, not knowing that the bogus chief physician had already made his appearance earlier.

In the late morning, Bhagatji brought a vaidya who was recommended by Seth Bisan Chand.  He took Prabhupada's pulse and said he would come again in the evening and tomorrow morning.  Prabhupada liked the fact that he appeared to be very careful.

Every morning, I reassure Srila Prabhupada that he will certainly recover.  He appreciates my encouragement.  With his eyes closed, he smiles as I rub his back and explain why I am so certain he will recover.  This morning Srila Prabhupada said, "If I can drink just a little milk, I will never get sick.  Just like a baby lives on milk.  And occasionally a little purgative."

During the evening arati, Srila Prabhupada called me upstairs.  Pradyumna had been offering to read the commentaries to Prabhupada if doing so would help him to translate the Bhagavatam.  Srila Prabhupada said to me, "Regarding the Bhagavatam writing, when I get inspiration I will take it up.  Don't try to force me.  I am going through a difficult time and am now feeling restless.  It is not mechanical."

While lying on his bed listening to the evening arati, he reflected, "I am amazed how my family, both father and mother's side were living so peacefully in Krsna consciousness.  Especially my mother's side.  How fortunate I was; all around me were devotees."  Srila Prabhupada said his mother was about thirty years old when he was born.  Her name was Rajani.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 15^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

In the middle of the night, Srila Prabhupada suddenly called for Guru-krpa Maharaja and me.  Srila Prabhupada said, "I cannot sleep.  I am feeling disturbed.  If this vaidya is so famous, why Seth Bisan Chand does not use him?  Tomorrow early in the morning, find out about him.  Generally, when they recommend gold and silver for rich men, it is bogus."

After we talked to Bhagatji this morning, we reported to Srila Prabhupada.  He then asked whether we had found out where the vaidya was staying.  When I said no, Prabhupada became very disgusted with me and Srila Prabhupada said I had missed the main point.

The vaidya came for the morning check-up.  After taking the pulse, he examined a urine specimen by placing a drop of mustard oil in it.  This test determines whether the disease is curable.  If it is, the drop of oil will gradually spread out evenly.  If the oil spreads strikingly in different directions, the disease is incurable.  It spread evenly and the vaidya pronounced, "You will be cured!"  Srila Prabhupada then asked about his background.  It appeared he was quite experienced and reliable.  Among his patients was one person in Allahabad, living in the same building where Prabhupada had resided.  It was agreed that the vaidya would consult with Prabhupada's Vrndavana kaviraja before going to Aligarh to get the medicine.

At 11:00 a.m., both the kaviraja and vaidya met with Srila Prabhupada.  The vaidya began by conversing in Sanskrit, demonstrating that he was a learned scholar.  The kaviraja, a Bengali, requested him to speak in Hindi, since he couldn't follow the Sanskrit.  Each then stated his parampara, apparently testing the other's authenticity.  The kaviraja and vaidya both agreed that the medicine given until now was correct.  Earlier, the kaviraja had taken Prabhupada's pulse and found that he had improved.  He said that since Prabhupada's body was old and couldn't tolerate strong medicine, Prabhupada must be treated just like a baby.  The vaidya suggested he would get some medicine from a shop; but the kaviraja referred to the Vedas, which say one must make his own medicine, not purchase from a shop.  Finally, it was decided that the vaidya would be permitted to give some medicine after consulting with the kaviraja.  The vaidya will stay at Bhagatji's for a week.  He promised to restore Srila Prabhupada's appetite.  According to Bhagatji, the vaidya didn't want money, but the credit for curing Srila Prabhupada.

Srila Prabhupada has definitely appeared to be better during the past few days.  I suggested to His Divine Grace that perhaps the improvement was due to the blue sapphire.  Srila Prabhupada replied, "Yes, otherwise how this vaidya has suddenly come?  No one called for him?"

After lunch, Srila Prabhupada said, "In the Western countries, somehow or other, we can stop meat eating?  And slaughterhouses?  I think it is possible by prasadam propaganda.  Then they will stop voluntarily.  Their whole life is sinful.  They are not only animals, they are ferocious animals.  I am seriously thinking how to organize a society without sinful activities.  At least in America.  Actually this world is full of so many sinful men.  We have to preach to them and mix with them and share their sinful effects."

Prabhupada commented, "Varnasrama-dharma is a systematic way of tapasya.  Tapasya means controlling sex, and everything can be done by bhakti. Therefore, our movement has become super excellent."

A letter from the Additional District Magistrate of Nadia demanded that Prabhupada state the reason that agricultural land purchased in his name was being used for other purposes without permission.  Rather than replying directly, Srila Prabhupada had me send a notarized copy of an affidavit stating that whatever land, etc., was in his name actually belonged to the Society.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 16^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami

[chitralekha devi dasi (bcs)]

Today, Satsvarupa Maharaja, Balavanta, Srutikirti, and Madhudvisa arrived.  Since they came during darsana, Srila Prabhupada called them to his room.  Srila Prabhupada addressed Madhudvisa in a voice choked with emotion, "Don't leave us.  Live as a grhastha.  It doesn't matter.  There are so many grhasthas.  There is no harm. If one cannot proceed, it doesn't matter.  Failure is the pillar of success.  Where is your wife?  Srutikirti is also grhastha.  Jointly, you can work and improve this movement.  Narottama has sung either he remains at home or as a sannyasi.  If he is a devotee of Lord Gauranga, I want his association.  Follow the principles; and whichever position is suitable, don't be carried away by the waves of maya.  Capture Caitanya Mahaprabhu's lotus feet and you'll be safe.  According to my horoscope, these days are my last days.  I am glad to see you have shaved.  Gaurasundara has also come.  You are one of my important devotees.  Go ahead.  Don't be set back by maya's tricks.  Go ahead at any cost.  So many obstacles are coming.  Maya is strong and still we are going forward."

As the gurukula boys dance at morning darsana, people come and wave rupee notes over their heads and then offer the money at Srila Prabhupada's feet.

After a morning rest, Srila Prabhupada had us all come in again.  He saw some candles manufactured by devotees in Hawaii.  "You American boys, you know how to earn money; now you have learned how to spend it for Krsna."  Hearing about Ratha-yatra in Atlanta, he declared, "A new civilization!"

Prabhupada commented, "In the mosquito, you can find the same arrangement as an airplane.  But see the wonderful thing: not only the machine, but the pilot also.  Millions of planes are born without any scientific knowledge.  You produce just one and then come and combat with God.  Simply jugglery of words. 'We have produced this element, that element.'  Produce one mosquito!  When I spoke at MIT [Massachusetts Institute of Technology], I inquired, 'Where is that department where a dead man can be made alive?'"

Balavanta told of one English scientist who had said that all old men and women should be killed because they were useless.  "Yes," he said jokingly, "it is a good proposal.  They are useless.  Either make them dhira or better to die.  And to make them dhira, these farm projects are very nice.  Civilization means to become a gentleman.  They do not know the meaning of gentleman.  Not hat and coat and inside a rogue."

The vaidya said that Prabhupada's pulse was high.  He advised Srila Prabhupada not to strain himself.  He said that four things were bad for Prabhupada's illness (dropsy): salt, sleep during the daytime, unnatural air movement (from the fan), full bathing.  He advised Srila Prabhupada to take milk three times before 1:00 p.m., then in the evening, and once at night.  I suggested to Srila Prabhupada that the vaidya's suggestion to minimize hearing from the Bhagavatam, because it supposedly strained the mind, did not seem Krsna conscious.  Srila Prabhupada said, "They do not understand. Nirvisesa sunyavadi.  Our process is sravanam kirtanam.  Hearing good news is kirtanam."

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 17^th-Tamala Krsna Goswami