Thursdays scene report
Tobie
I didn't get to do the hands only scene I'd planned but I always have
back up plans handy for these times.
I *worked* at play today. That's very unusual.
Philip still has the family stress thing going on that's taking up a
lot of his mind. A mind that is going too many miles a minute isn't
the easiest one to get in happyhappy play space.
I am a determined individual however and wanted to get him to where he
could release some of the stress nd I did *not* want to bind him
because the frees up his anger response and I didn't want the play to
bring on anger. I wanted him to do his good three stage release,
First comes the 3 second relax, second comes the laughter, third comes
the tears.
Taking him to tears has become a steady diet for play as he goes
through this family based hard time. I'm ok with that.
I'm pretty much ok with what ever it takes to get him to have that
relaxed look 15 minutes after play is over.
I had him on the floor on a blanket and gave him a good rub down with
a lot of fingernails. He was barely responding, he was taking
cleansing breaths and trying hard ( which was not the goal, a bottom
who has to *try* to get in to mental playspace is going to have to
fight several personal battles during a scene in my experience ).
I gave up on the hands only at the point and reached for fast pain
that I could play over and over while I worked on different places,
clothespins. Just one to the ear to begin with and when that didn't
phase him, a line up the back of his arm while I used the big wooden
spoon on his butt.
It was a very delicate balance.
Hurt him untill he just started fighting and then ramp it back down,
them hurt him untill he started fighting again.
Clothespins on the back of his scrotum, and butt cheeks while I caned
him, clothespins close to his anus while I scratched him, pinches to
the back of his arms while I caned him calm again.
A steady stream of distracting activities so that he'd have to
concentrate on one or the other and then take him back down a notch
when his anger surfaced.
I steadily worked him up but never let the anger build high enough for
him to act on it, I played a pain tide on him and made the waves ebb
and surge and steadily built up, but wouldn't allow it to crest and
crash over.
I stood over him and took a light flogger to him and hit his left
shoulder on the down swing, right butt cheek on the up swing, right
shoulder on the down swing, left butt cheek on the up swing.
( I have a shattered left rotator cuff and I'm left handed, flogging
is hard for me to do for very long and if I do it for too long, the
shoulder will slide out of socket and then it's a pain to get back in
) I did that for a while and them switched to one of his WIAN heavy
floggers and worked him with that one. What a lovely sound! Then I
went with one that is rather like very heavy boot lacing leather
strips.
By then I was aching so I went back to pinches and traded the canes
for the large leather paddle. A few different random hits with other
toys now and then just to give him a hard time.
I asked how he was doing three times which is pushing a personal limit
for me, once, maybe twice should be enough. Three is starting to just
get distracting to the bottom.
I finally had him to the point where I thought I could push him over
and we did the deep breathing endorphin push.
Deep breath.
one
two
threeWHAM
It took 4 and he started laughing.
YAY!!!! ( I was very proud )
6 and he was fully compliant and just acccepting the blows with hard
expulsions of air.
On the 7th he curled up and softly shook and his wall had been
breached.
I covered him up and skritched his scalp with my nails and stroked his
face...he started cursing and venting about the family issue and I
made sounds here and there but tried not to talk and interupt his
venting.
And then he cried.
When someone is crying I supposed it isn't the ideal time to jump up
and down yelling 'who da man!' over getting them there so I refrained.
I thought about it briefly though!
Tobie
The Dip in the Dip Corps
SSBB Diplomatic Corps
Portland Oregon
Brian Downstairs
understand how moods work much better than most. Sometimes one just cannot
shake the locked in real life affairs enough to get peace inside.
Brian
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Tobie
of:
"Not bad, but it ain't no big thing, I do that for my ( insert
whatevertitle here ) when ever it's needed."
It's just that there aren't that many scene reports posted that are
top side in depth views.
Tobie
Ruth Lawrence
>I suspect that quite a few tops here thought something along the lines
> of:
>
> "Not bad, but it ain't no big thing, I do that for my ( insert
> whatevertitle here ) when ever it's needed."
>
> It's just that there aren't that many scene reports posted that are
> top side in depth views.
...which is why I value yours so much.
Ruth, heavily into learning the psychological aspects of play ATM
Brian G (Upstairs)
as well.
Brian
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