Download Ice Prince Feel Good
Selene Bulger
Are there currently any factions/subfactions right now where you feel legitimately good bringing a Daemon Prince of any kind? The last two editions now they've consistenly felt like they're about 30-50 points overcosted in every faction.
The points or the rules for the unit will come out and people will try them out for some amount of time, and then slowly realize that they're just not worth the opportunity cost. Now, with the loss of classic Look out Sir and Lone Operative in its place. Large expensive character models like Daemon Prince's that don't have Lone Operative feel like they have no shot at viability.
I play Thousand Sons and I very much want to play one but I'm kinda punished two-fold. Because of Cabal points, the extra cost of a Daemon prince ends up both losing me a cabal point AND being less effective than just bringing more rubrics plus a leader for the squad.
What's the points cost where you think Daemon princes, both winged and walking actually feel like they'd be worth bringing or that you could feel good about bringing one? I genuinely think I'd prefer them being so good that you see 2-3 in every Chaos list than what we've had the last two editions. They're cool models and I want to see them more.
The biggest driver for me is how the treatment of Meghan is affecting hundreds of millions of people around the world. Because they feel how she has been treated very personally. Especially women of colour, but also women in general.
So it seems churlish not to allow you to write your side of the story. And in doing so you go from being a sort of fairytale prince to a real person. I don\u2019t know you that well, but what I do know of you, I felt really came across in the book.
I used to take huge offence at the idea that I might have changed, and when people blamed Meghan. I would think \u2018no I haven\u2019t changed, I\u2019m still the same person!\u2019. But I\u2019m not. Of course I changed, I did therapy. I had a moment in my life, after 10 years military service which kind of burst the bubble, and made me realise \u2018well hang on a second, you\u2019re part of something here, this institution, and you feel very different\u2019. Again, I am my mother\u2019s son. Consistent therapy gave me a chance to clear, untangle and unwind\u2026 it was like clearing the windscreen. Clearing away all of Instagram\u2019s filters, life\u2019s filters.
The masks, yeah. I never understood that. I didn\u2019t walk around thinking \u2018shit this isn\u2019t me, I don\u2019t feel normal to me\u2019. I felt totally normal, as I guess most of us do. But if you\u2019re sitting on unresolved grief, loss or trauma, there\u2019s a high possibility that the way you interact and behave with people is probably not very authentic and not genuine to you. It\u2019s a defence mechanism. You\u2019re not living an authentic life because you\u2019re scared of meeting one of those moments [of grief] again. So you just close up. That\u2019s what I was, I was closed up. William was the same, we were both closed up. Therapy completely changed my life. As did being in a relationship with a mixed race woman. It blew my mind. I had an education..
When you take a member of the royal family, and you put them through therapy, of course there\u2019s going to be a difference. It\u2019s like we were speaking different languages. We could not understand each other after that. Before there were always complications, issues, or whatever. I often had this sense that things didn\u2019t feel right. Therapy opened my eyes, cleared away all the gunk, and the shit, and all of a sudden, I was like \u2018this has been a really painful process, and I now realise that for the rest of my life, every single day is going to be a work in progress, but I can\u2019t leave my family behind\u2019. And that\u2019s when I started trying to explain to them how some of their decisions and some of the things they were doing - or not doing - was going to reflect on them. Badly. Especially across the global stage, especially across the Commonwealth, with relation to my now wife. And I couldn\u2019t get through to them. And it wasn\u2019t one or two people that I was trying to get through to. It was a mindset. It was a culture, within a bubble within a bubble, that while I was there was unbreakable. It wasn\u2019t that I gave up, but I do feel as if I failed in that instance, trying to bring them with me. But as we all know, anyone who has done therapy, the hardest thing in life is to be able to change yourself, let alone change anybody else.
What I realised is that you don\u2019t make any friends, especially within your family, because everyone has learned to accept that trauma is part of life. How dare you, as an individual, talk about it, because that makes us all feel really uncomfortable. So right, you may not like me in the moment, but maybe you\u2019ll thank me in five or ten years time.
But as I know, full well, within my family, if it\u2019s not us [points at chest], it\u2019s going to be someone else. And though William and I have talked about it, once or twice, and he has made it very clear to me that his kids are not my responsibility, I still feel a responsibility. I know that out of those three children, at least one will end up like me, the spare. And that hurts, it worries me.
Can you talk to me about the process of actually writing the book with JR Moehringer. Choosing what to put in, and what not to, that tightrope walk of memoir. Also, one of the questions I have been asked a lot, as someone who has written a few deeply personal memoirs myself, is \u2018does it feel cathartic?\u2019
I think it\u2019s a really interesting time globally, when people in positions like myself need to stand up to this. The more criticism that I get from a certain group of people, then the more I\u2019m going to speak out. If I see bigotry, if I see racism, if I see sexism, then as a member of the British royal family, I feel obliged, and a tremendous responsibility, to call it out.
But I wasn\u2019t walking around thinking about my mother the whole time. I was doing everything humanly possible not to think about her. And therapy was the greatest thing to ever happen to me, other than my now wife. The process was revelatory, because we got to the point where I started to deal with my trauma. And started to confront the idea that mummy wanted me to cry. I convinced myself that she must have wanted me to cry. That\u2019s the only way I can prove to her that I still miss her. But then after taking ayahuascha with the proper people, I suddenly realised - wow! - it\u2019s not about crying, she wants me to be happy. So this weight off my chest was not the need to cry, it was the acceptance and realisation that she has gone, but that she wants me to be happy and she\u2019s still very much present in my life. As two brothers, if one of you goes through that experience and the other one doesn\u2019t, it naturally creates a further divide between you. Which is really sad. But as much as William was the first person to even suggest therapy, I just wish that he would be able to feel the same benefits of that as opposed to believing what he doesn\u2019t need to.
And because of therapy, the way I explain it to myself is that all of the trauma, the grief, the sadness, the frustration, the anger, that has literally been cleaned out of me. It doesn\u2019t mean I don\u2019t get angry sometimes. It doesn\u2019t mean I don\u2019t get sad. It doesn\u2019t mean I don\u2019t get worried. All that is still there, these very normal, human emotions. But in regards to the baggage, and the past, now I\u2019ve cleared that out, I feel like I have a new level of awareness and consciousness to everything about me. And I feel like, I wouldn\u2019t say I feel invincible, but I feel like I can take on the world. And I feel like this is my life\u2019s mission, my purpose, is to right the wrongs of that, the very thing that drove us out, because it took my mum, it took Caroline Flack, who was my girlfriend, and it nearly took my wife. And if that isn\u2019t a good enough reason to use the pain and turn it into purpose, I don\u2019t know what is. Some people will say \u2018can\u2019t you just leave it?\u2019. And I think no, I can\u2019t, because I know that other people are going to suffer.
I feel like my mum is my guardian angel, genuinely. When I look back at the things that have happened, instead of looking at it as a punishment, I try and ask myself what can I learn from this. How is the universe schooling me? So that when it happens next time, or when something similar happens, that I can be better prepared for it. And when you\u2019re trying to change an institution, and fundamentally the media landscape, that is not a small task. The scale of the challenge is enormous and I have to be able to protect myself mentally and emotionally throughout that process.
I don\u2019t think anything gives me the right, but I feel inherent responsibility. From what I see and what I know and what I\u2019ve experienced, it seems that they keep getting away with the same things again and again, and the thing that sticks with me is history repeating itself. Whether its from a family perspective or otherwise.
When I first wrote the original screenplay for A Christmas Prince, my goal was to write the kind of feel-good family friendly holiday movie I grew up loving and watching on Hallmark and Lifetime. Working as a reporter and covering stories in places like Bosnia and Afghanistan, I counted on these movies as the perfect holiday escape to help me relax, reboot, and embrace the Christmas spirit.
My only complaint about The Prince and the Dressmaker is that the ending felt fairly rushed. The story felt like it needed one more chapter to really round out the ending but other than that, I genuinely have no complaints about the story or the artwork or the message. The side characters are all crucial to the movement of the narrative and are supportive is varying, heartfelt ways; the use of color in the story helps evoke the feelings of each character throughout the story; and the writing is simple without being uninteresting.
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