Of all the actions you could take in combat, the one most likely to destroy
you is to commit an atrocity or a criminal act. Your unconscious mind,
you "puppy" knows that you are not at peace with the "pack" and that can
eat you alive. ... Earlier, I talked about how pain shared is pain
divided. This is a powerful tool, but when a warrior commits a criminal
act, he cannot share that pain. I also talked about how you are only as
sick as your secrets. If as a warrior you commit a crime or an act of
vengeance, you cannot share that secret with anyone, and it will only eat
away at you. When we are young and hard, we think we can get away with
anything. A World War II veteran once sat across from me, wracked with
sobs. He was, to my mind, a magnificent noble American, but he had made one
tragic, horrific mistake in his life and it was eating him alive. He looked
at me, tears streaming down his cheeks, and said, "Colonel, I'm an old man
now, and I'm going to have to answer to my maker soon. I'm going to have to
answer for that day it was inconvenient to take those German soldiers back.
The day we shot them while they were quote, 'trying to escape.' I murdered
those men that day; we murdered them. We didn't have to kill them. We
murdered them, and soon I will have to answer to my maker for what I
did." What do you tell a man like that? No one is beyond redemption, but
I know what that old soldier would advise us: "Don't do it." Lt. Col.
Dave Grossman, On Combat
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