I was browsing the internet for some bdsm sites and came upon alt.com.It
wasn't the first time I had seen this address but something drew me to it yet again. Maybe it was my circumstances, now I had no reason not to look, my relationship of 26 years had ended. The person I had spent more than half my life with, had grown up with from 18 was now over. In my mind was the turmoil of the raw emotions, feelings I could not control. Fears of the unknown were encircling me. I looked at the site. I knew I had a deeply hidden desire to explore the side of me had never been set free. I myself was now free to do such. After all the years of yearning..wondering..desiring, I could now try for real. I found the profile page and began to write. What was I looking for? How do I describe myself? I could finally seek for what had so long been denied me. My head was telling me..be cautious..people like you just don't advertise yourself on an internet site! There are all sorts of weirdo's. What the heck are you doing! Regardless, I filled in my profile space. One thing was going to be different this time. No lies..no deceit..I was going to be front up from the very begining. I wrote my real age..my real body shape..I wrote about the 'real' me..the one had been hidden for so many years. I was so certain I wouldn't receive any interest. Heck...must be heaps of sexy slim females out there true Dominants would rather have. What chance would a cuddly, mature(sometimes that is debatable)professional woman have? I always thought I dressed well....actually had been told I was attractive a few times..I have seen women alot larger than myself...mmmm...I began thinking. What have I to lose? If I don't like anyone that replies I don't have to do anything about it. Is not like they have my phone number or address. So I completed the form, paid my membership and waited. All the doubts and anxieties went through my head then I checked my e-mail. Good god!..there were five replies! I quickly skimmed down the list and chose the first one to read. Escatonic was His name.
I met Master John online, I was currently moving back to my home state, where Master John is residing. We agreed to meet and spend the day together and then go to a bdsm party, This would be my first time at a party like this.
To say the least I was extremely nervous about meeting Him. I had, after all, only been with one another Top before, for one time only.
Master agreed to pick me up at my friend's apartment, I would be living with while I got my life arranged again. I opened the door, and I must say - Master took my breathe away. I have never known another that was soo beautiful and sexy all at the same time!!!
I barely held myself in check, it took all of my control to not launch myself at him right then and there - whew!
we went back over to Master's home. Master showed me around His home, explaining where everything was and everything else that one does when showing there home off. It was as if nothing He was showing or saying actually registered in my head, all I could see and think of was Master.
We had walked out onto the deck of the outside of His home and we were standing there admiring the view and the day, when I turned around to Him and finally lost what little control I had left (which was nil to none!).
I reached out with shaking hands and grasped both sides of His head and gently pulled Him towards me for that first offical act of giving myself over to Him. OOOOOOOOO what a kiss that was, I can still feel and taste it upon my lips and tongue!
After that, I was Master's!!!
I took His collar the next day and have never regretted it, I love Master with all of my heart, body and soul - Forever
I love You, my wonderfully sinfully delicious Master!!!
I was browsing the internet for Alternative Lifestyles / BDSM and I found ALT.com. After only a few minutes I completed my entries.
ALT is my new world. In my mind was a need for a real and powerful master. ALT would be my freedom, my new oasis. While I could not control my fear of the unknown, I knew I had a deeply hidden desire to explore the side of me that had never been set free. I’m so glad I did. After all the years of desiring He found me.