Look At My Face In The Mirror Song Free Download
Fredericka Mote
The idea of challenging myself to not look in a mirror for a week came to me as I sat staring at myself in the mirror after a long day. My face had broken out (Thanks, PMS!) and I spent at least 10 minutes in front of the mirror picking out every single flaw, and probably imagining several others. I hated my eyebrows, the shape of my nose, and the way my ears stuck out. I was mad at my mirror, I was mad at my body, I was mad at my face. But mostly, I was mad at myself for wasting precious time looking at my reflection and hating it. At 24, I thought I was getting to the point in my life where I finally stopped disliking myself. But clearly this wasn't the case.
Like I mentioned, this whole idea was started by the simple fact that I was unable to look at my reflection without tearing myself apart. That wasn't allowed to happen this week. Only positive thoughts about my appearance!
I felt insecure, shy, and I wanted nothing more than to just avoid people and avoid wondering what was crossing their minds as they looked at my face. As I mentioned, when I did speak with others, it was a lot of me playing with my hair and staring at my feet. So I began to just avoid seeing people altogether. It made things easier, and I felt more secure.
Know this: You cannot judge me more than I have already judged myself. I mean, really, I couldn't make it a week without looking at my reflection? But I couldn't! I cheated on date night, and cheated again the next day on my way home from work. I was driving along, minding my own business, when I was forced to stop at a yellow light. Traffic rules, am I right? As I was waiting for it to turn green again, I looked at the car next to me. Lo and behold, there was a woman there putting on lipstick using her mirror. I WANTED TO DO THE SAME. I had just recently gotten new lip stain at Target, after all. I peeked in my rearview mirror.
I was so concerned about my appearance from not being able to reassure myself by looking at my reflection that I was positive I looked disheveled at all times. If people came up to me to chat, I assumed we would be chatting about why I looked like such a hot mess. I was practically bracing myself for the inevitable "You look tired" statement. But it never came. When I finally DID look at my reflection at the end of the challenge, I realized that I looked fine and that I'm a paranoid mess. I mean, I looked pretty much the same way that I always do. I wasn't a hot mess. I was just me.
Look through a mirror. How is that even possible?
The first time I saw myself weeping I was appalled. My face had changed so much--not in any good way. There were blackish purple brackets under each eye. My nose, dripping, was bright red and shiny. My mouth drooped and I decided right then and there that the best way for me to cry was alone. If the situation was impossible to avoid and I found myself shattered in tears while in the company of others, I would need to use my hand to just cover my mouth.
But that course of events was discerned and planned from merely looking into a mirror, not through it.
I found that the really scary grief can hide within a mirror and sometimes completely beyond its reflection.
When your loved one first passes and you realize just how alone you truly are, there definitely is a sense of fear closely allied to questions of this nature:
And on and on. A mirror reflects input. Believe me, what I input into that mirror-of-existence was nothing positive. I saw a woman who used to be strong but now was a quivering mess. You know how when hair isn't washed frequently enough it looks lank? My entire visage looked lank. A lank face that was swiftly becoming a stranger to me.
Previously, the mirror was simply a reflection of someone who used to pass her days oblivious to the sad side of life's coin. I noticed a female who smiled and succeeded. Often I saw both of us in that mirror--my husband and myself. He would be grinning and putting his face over my shoulder so our heads were side by side.
"Side by side". It's almost a theme song for our happy, peaceful, daily existence. And now, for good reasons, I avoided looking at the mirror. I avoided looking into the mirror. I definitely avoided lookingthrough the mirror to its other side where mind-numbing darkness could develop.
So the days passed mostly in tears and I began a deliberate journey of self-reflection to avoid seeing my actual mirrored reflection. I'm not here to give anyone advice on how YOU should proceed in your sad journey. Everyone grieves to their own song. To their own beat. At their own pace. But this is what I decided to face and to conquer: looking through the mirror into a new life where there was no more side by side.
I embarked on a learning discovery. I learned about angelology and the spirit world. I reviewed many of the tenets of organized religions in my country, especially traditions concerning death and the afterlife. I have dabbled in metaphysics and found it to be enjoyable and profitable. So much to learn. In learning about the Law of Attraction, it became clear to me that there was much, indeed, of a positive nature still to be revealed within the mirror. And, basically, everything on the other side of that mirror is more positive than words could ever express. Therefore, if I wanted to avoid "going down the wrong path" (for me that meant being pulled into the vortex of endless tears and sadness during my grief) I had better start practicing the vibrations/positive energy/visualizing and feeling emotions that are associated with happiness not sadness.
Do you think I'm being too hard on myself by denying myself the right to cry or be lonely? The right to rail against a cruel Fate who snatched my love in the middle of a winter's eve? I used to agree with you. But time--ever meaningless for me--just hung there, not moving. I had to step around time. There was a place for tears and I had been to that place. There was a place for fearfulness and I had gone there, too. But, fortified with the Law of Attraction to bolster me, I started to consciously disarm my negative thoughts. I deliberately exchanged dark thoughts for bright ones. In my case, I call upon Archangel Michael and my late husband who is now my angel-spirit. I have developed personal mantras that have nothing to do with yoga or Eastern religions. One of mine is, "What's the best that can happen?" When I follow through with positive thoughts after asking myself that question, I always feel better. For me, it's a great question to alleviate anxiety.
Becoming more and more positively attuned within our natural universe is an ongoing challenge. Now when I look through that same mirror I can see a beautiful and light-filled existence on the other side.
An intriguing article has just been published in the journal Perception about a never-before-described visual illusion where your own reflection in the mirror seems to become distorted and shifts identity.
To trigger the illusion you need to stare at your own reflection in a dimly lit room. The author, Italian psychologist Giovanni Caputo, describes his set up which seems to reliably trigger the illusion: you need a room lit only by a dim lamp (he suggests a 25W bulb) that is placed behind the sitter, while the participant stares into a large mirror placed about 40 cm in front.
The visual system starts to adapt after we receive the same information over time (this is why you can experience visual changes by staring at anything for a long time) but we also have a system that interprets faces very easily.
one thing as some of what you are saying on this is some what true but i am sorry to tell you that that is wrong most of the time when you see thouse faces in the mirror let me just tell you from experiance they are verry real and are not always a part of you whether any of you choose to belive me or not that is your choice but warning for avrage person if you have low caunshis awairness or week free will that thing that sometimes looks back in the mirror will take over and even change you meantialy and or physicaly sometimes positive some times negitive depending if u can controle it and not let it controle you but from my experiance with this when i stair in to my eyes and will forceavly diolate my pupiles so far its the most affective for me and once i notice the eyes change signifacantly i hold my eyes rate wher they are enless i want to go deeper in.. but there not always the same set of eyes or sometimes even eyes but usaly once the change begines to take place the puiple will expand over the iris ir the entire eye gos black and in the center where the pupile is usaly located there will be white ring or a dot but as i concintrate in this state the natrual energy flow in the room changes and alows me to have influance over objects enregy and some times even outher people for example just last night wall going in to this state my puiples where diolated in the form of cat eyes and my natural hzl eyes turend bright mixture of yellow with a red pin stripe and i am not the only one who saw this my three friends that did not belive me sat and wached as i showed them and as i turened from the mirror and would gaze in to there eyes they would still be the same with the cat eye or the solid black and have even taken pitures that show even more detail but when i look in to there eyes i get this great senciation of energy flowing through me and some times i have even been known to raidate a slight transparent glow of gold green or blue and i could slighty move peoples arms by moveing my own if i think hard enough and as i inhale whale in this state EVERY time the lights in the room or glow around me would dim and exorabe in to me and as i would ex hale energy would poor through me and the light would grow so bright and there are manny wierd experiances i have had experianced both more believeable and some rilly hard to belive and understand but there is proof behind all of it but to the people who have shared similer experances as me and would like to possabley learn a little more or people who understand and wish to convirse please feel free to email me only thing you need to get a reply is to tell the truth and be openminded
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