LtJG Aine Sherlock - Let It Go
Aine Sherlock
Sherlock: After our night out, when I came back to the ship, I wasn't in my right mind and ::beat:: I sent a message to my ex-boyfriend.
As Aine confessed
her sin, it appeared that Meidra was slightly amused, understandably. It
was, after all, a common drunken mistake of youth.
Sirin: Really.
Sherlock: ::nodding her head in shame:: Yes. I don't know. When I came back that night, I guess I was feeling a little lonely.
Sirin: You know that Orion woman would have been more than happy to help out if you were lonely. Iljor brushed her off pretty politely at the end.
Aine tilted her head and pursed her lips, giving Meidra a glare in exchange for the joke.
Sherlock: ::sarcastically:: Unfortunately she's gone now.
Sirin: And this ex - he was not someone you have positive feelings for?
Sherlock: No. Sort of. When we were together, it was great. The end wasn't easy.
Aine held her palms to her face in embarrassment. It felt as if talking about it was making the dumb mistake worse.
Sirin: Did he respond?
Sherlock: ::slightly muffled by her hands:: No. ::lowering her hands:: I'm sure he's moved onto whoever else and is just ignoring it.
Sirin: What exactly did you say to cause such an emotional response?
Sherlock: It's so embarrassing. Do I really have to repeat it?
Sirin: Yes.
Sherlock: Ok. First I said that despite what happened, I hope he was doing well. Which I do. Then I went on this long speech about how things could have worked and how happy we could have been.
Aine put her face to her knees and wrapped her arms around the back of her legs as if curling up into a ball, trying to hide.
Sirin: Do you want him back?
Sherlock: No, I don't really want to get back together with him. ::sitting back upright:: I just want to go back out into space where someone can shoot at us. That's so much simpler to deal with.
Sirin: Well, as someone who recently had someone shoot at them, I can see the rationale.
Meidra opened up about what had recently transpired on their trip to Vulcan. It was quite shocking and she'd had no clue Meidra had such a infamous family history. The event that transpired on the station with her grandfather began to make a little more sense.
Sherlock: My problem, suddenly, doesn't seem so big.
Sirin: Recent events have shown me that if you hold on to something negative in your past, you can’t hope to move forward. In my case, I let my grandfather’s censure cloud my sense of self worth. I couldn’t move forward in a relationship until I started to let go of my feelings of unworthiness. In your case, maybe you are feeling a bit lost, away from your family and everything familiar. It is not unusual to be confused.
Aine let the words sink in. She hadn't thought about it much but perhaps it was something deeper. That it was maybe a combination of things that she'd been ignoring. She let out a deep sigh.
Sherlock: I think I see what you mean. Maybe I need to slow down a little bit. It has been a lot since I graduated and it wasn't even that long ago. Dangerous mission and when there's no holes being blown in the ship, I tend to bury myself in work. Like I'm trying to ignore what's happening inside. I don't think I've had time to process even.
Sirin: response
Sherlock: Thank you, Meidra. It helps just to get it out sometimes.
Aine gave Meidra a nod and a smile and began to make her way out of the office.
Sherlock: ::turning and looking back at Meidra:: By the way, I spoke with station security and was able to procure your grandfather's knife ::beat:: as evidence. Told them we'd be conducting our own investigation since it concerned a member of our crew. I'll make sure to get it to you.
Now knowing a little bit more about Meidra's life, she realized the true severity of what had occurred and thought it best to help her friend out in any way she could.
tag/End Scene for Sherlock