Ensign Lera Michaels - More Human or More Vulcan
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((Deck 6. Counselor's Suite. USS Khitomer))
Michaels: You may not be the right person to talk to about the other issue: the guy issue. :: She clenched her fist and stared hard at her teacup. Lea briefly chewed on her lower lip while Aymet watched her. A moment passed before she looked up again. :: No boy ever showed much interest in me in school. None of them wanted to deal with the freak of nature, who also happened to be stronger and faster than they were. I was not the ideal candidate for girlfriend when there were more stereotypical candidates readily available. And now... Maybe I should speak to one of the doctors.
A. Dewitt: First of all let me be very clear; you are not a freak of nature. The UFP has hundreds of planets on its’ membership and on those worlds are many who might biologically be of one species but raised by another. That is not open for discussion.
Michaels: I have learned that Vulcans do not discuss their every seven-year ... mating ... rituals. It is something they have no control over. Something that I will have even less control over. I am certain that my Human parents know nothing of this Vulcan ... characteristic. My parents could not have prepared me for this. If this is what is happening.
A. Dewitt: I believe it’s called pon farr. I knew some Vulcans whilst I was at the Academy and it’s my understanding that it’s something incredibly private.
Lera nodded and shrugged. The counselor was at least familiar with pon farr. Good. Still, discussing the matter with someone who was not family felt wrong somehow. Using euphemisms seemed completely appropriate.
Michaels: There is this... guy who I will not name... I am feeling strong emotions ... feelings I have no experience with. Vulcans always suppress their emotions or they do not have emotions or something like that. But I can not do it. Worse. I do not know if these feelings are "ordinary" Human emotions I should relish or if they are the early stages of Vulcan hormones overwhelming me. How do I know? And at a time like this, with this mission starting.
A. Dewitt: As I understand it is a neurochemical imbalance. Cortical and serotonin levels can change. I’m sure Dr Ohnari or Dr El’Heem would be able to run tests under the strictest of privacy.
Michaels: Yes. Of course. One of the doctors. ::beat:: I know that on Earth, psychiatrists are medical doctors. I was uncertain about your specific qualifications.
A Dewitt: May I ask what makes you think it’s pon farr and not a strong attraction to this person?
Michaels: I simply do not know. It is my understanding from what little I have been able to learn about... that condition... is that the early stages are marked by a strong attraction toward a specific individual ... or individuals of the opposite gender. I am strongly attracted to him. He is very nice. I want this to be the typical human reaction. But I have no experience with these feelings. These emotions. I do not want it to be just out of control hormones driving me to jump into ... Maybe if I were more Human or more Vulcan, I would know with greater certainty what is happening. Do not misunderstand. I am extremely comfortable in this body. I would not trade it for any other. But I want this ... thing with this guy to be Human and not Vulcan. I do not want it to be even the temporary insanity that I understand pure Vulcans go through. If it is going somewhere, I want it to be right.
A Dewitt: Lera I’m not a doctor. If you are genuinely worried it’s pon farr we could find a medical answer to that :pause: but my instinct tells me it’s something simpler.
Michaels: I hope that your assessment is correct.
A Dewitt: I think you are attracted to this person and because you are so conflicted with who you are, and with how others, particularly Vulcans, perceive you, that a part of you doesn’t think you are worthy of or should be feeling such an emotion.
Michaels: Hm. Perhaps. I will visit one of the doctors in the very near future. :: She glanced at the chronometer. She would have to hurry. :: I need to be in Engineering in a few minutes. Is it safe to assume that we can continue this discussion in the future?
Ayement: Response?
TAG/End for Michaels
Ensign Lera Michaels
Engineering Officer
USS Khitomer
K240106LM2
Michaels: You may not be the right person to talk to about the other issue: the guy issue. :: She clenched her fist and stared hard at her teacup. Lea briefly chewed on her lower lip while Aymet watched her. A moment passed before she looked up again. :: No boy ever showed much interest in me in school. None of them wanted to deal with the freak of nature, who also happened to be stronger and faster than they were. I was not the ideal candidate for girlfriend when there were more stereotypical candidates readily available. And now... Maybe I should speak to one of the doctors.
A. Dewitt: First of all let me be very clear; you are not a freak of nature. The UFP has hundreds of planets on its’ membership and on those worlds are many who might biologically be of one species but raised by another. That is not open for discussion.
Michaels: I have learned that Vulcans do not discuss their every seven-year ... mating ... rituals. It is something they have no control over. Something that I will have even less control over. I am certain that my Human parents know nothing of this Vulcan ... characteristic. My parents could not have prepared me for this. If this is what is happening.
A. Dewitt: I believe it’s called pon farr. I knew some Vulcans whilst I was at the Academy and it’s my understanding that it’s something incredibly private.
Lera nodded and shrugged. The counselor was at least familiar with pon farr. Good. Still, discussing the matter with someone who was not family felt wrong somehow. Using euphemisms seemed completely appropriate.
Michaels: There is this... guy who I will not name... I am feeling strong emotions ... feelings I have no experience with. Vulcans always suppress their emotions or they do not have emotions or something like that. But I can not do it. Worse. I do not know if these feelings are "ordinary" Human emotions I should relish or if they are the early stages of Vulcan hormones overwhelming me. How do I know? And at a time like this, with this mission starting.
A. Dewitt: As I understand it is a neurochemical imbalance. Cortical and serotonin levels can change. I’m sure Dr Ohnari or Dr El’Heem would be able to run tests under the strictest of privacy.
Michaels: Yes. Of course. One of the doctors. ::beat:: I know that on Earth, psychiatrists are medical doctors. I was uncertain about your specific qualifications.
A Dewitt: May I ask what makes you think it’s pon farr and not a strong attraction to this person?
Michaels: I simply do not know. It is my understanding from what little I have been able to learn about... that condition... is that the early stages are marked by a strong attraction toward a specific individual ... or individuals of the opposite gender. I am strongly attracted to him. He is very nice. I want this to be the typical human reaction. But I have no experience with these feelings. These emotions. I do not want it to be just out of control hormones driving me to jump into ... Maybe if I were more Human or more Vulcan, I would know with greater certainty what is happening. Do not misunderstand. I am extremely comfortable in this body. I would not trade it for any other. But I want this ... thing with this guy to be Human and not Vulcan. I do not want it to be even the temporary insanity that I understand pure Vulcans go through. If it is going somewhere, I want it to be right.
A Dewitt: Lera I’m not a doctor. If you are genuinely worried it’s pon farr we could find a medical answer to that :pause: but my instinct tells me it’s something simpler.
Michaels: I hope that your assessment is correct.
A Dewitt: I think you are attracted to this person and because you are so conflicted with who you are, and with how others, particularly Vulcans, perceive you, that a part of you doesn’t think you are worthy of or should be feeling such an emotion.
Michaels: Hm. Perhaps. I will visit one of the doctors in the very near future. :: She glanced at the chronometer. She would have to hurry. :: I need to be in Engineering in a few minutes. Is it safe to assume that we can continue this discussion in the future?
Ayement: Response?
TAG/End for Michaels
Ensign Lera Michaels
Engineering Officer
USS Khitomer
K240106LM2
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