Ensign Tho’Bi - The Bothered Unbothered Andorian

[Tobi]

((Counsellor's Office - Counselling Suites - Deck 7 - USS Artemis-A))

Lux: And Commander Jovenan was in command?  

Tho'Bi: ::quietly:: Yes.

The Trill nodded.

The glass was placed to one side.  

The Andorian lent forward.

Tho'Bi: Is.. Is that important? I mean… I don't… I don't think it is.

The Andorian sat back. The Trill smiled.

Lux: I'm just building up a picture of what happened on the bridge, whose in command is often important to that :: she leaned forward slightly :: Please continue… you transferred power from the inertial dampeners? 

Tho'Bi: ::staring at floor:: I mean to say… I… I still made the decisions I made.

The Andorian's gaze moved away from the floor and back to the Trill Counsellor. 

Tho'Bi: ::slow deliberate:: I do not believe I can… excuse myself. 

Moves to pick up glass. Stop. Moves back. Glass remains where it was. 

Tho'Bi: ::slow deliberate:: I can not simply put it all on Lieutenant Commander Jovenan. 

The Trill Counsellor watched him for a moment. The decking beneath his feet purred the pulse of the Warp Reactor.

Lux: What is that then in terms of emotion? Are you okay to tell me what you are feeling? 

The Andorian kicked his heels off the deck. Once, then twice. Like a child, grown too big for their swing.

Tho'Bi: ::voice thins out to nothing:: …that I need to be careful. 

Lux: That's interesting. Have you ever felt that before? 

The Andorian twisted the glass of Srjula Tea one way and then the other. The action was idle, restless.

Tho'Bi: ::focused on glass:: When I was a kid… I had to be very careful when I played with the other children.   

Stops twisting the glass. Sits back. Looks at the Trill Counsellor. 

Tho'Bi: I was stronger. …a lot stronger.

Lux: It is difficult when you're forced into a very intense situation, on your first mission as well. Several intense scenarios, where your life was in danger. It's going to bring up a lot of emotions for you.

The Andorian looked away. His dark blue eyes tracked across the assorted furniture and brickabrac in the room.

Tho'Bi: ::distant:: Yeah… that makes sense.

Kicked heels. Look around. Silence. Seconds. Seconds stretched into tens of seconds. Finally, looks at Counsellor. 

Tho'Bi: ::quiet:: But Andorians are built for danger… for life or death… for war. ::shakes head:: Everything is calmer, clearer for us in these moments. 

Lux: Response 

Stands up. Starts pacing.

Tho'Bi: ::more animated:: It’s not supposed to bother me. It's not supposed to be a problem. ::looks at Lux:: I'm Andorian. 

Sits down. Shifts for no purpose. 

Lux: Response 

Tho'Bi: But it should bother me? Shouldn't it? ::finger pointing at chest:: I want it to bother me.

Sits back in a heap.

Lux: Response 

TAGS/TBC

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Ensign Tho’Bi

Engineering

USS Artemis-A

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