Ensign Imril - Stress And Stressibility
Chris Taylor
((Counselor’s Office - Deck 7, USS Artemis-A))
Vhysa’lia: ::polite wince:: Ouch… ::understanding smile, as if they understand exactly what it feels like to be told off for insubordination:: I’m going to interrupt your story here, just for a few questions, if that’s okay.
The Counselor’s wince drew one from Imril. Their face softened under the ease of her smile.
Imril: Go right ahead.
Vhysa’lia: I take it that the captain’s reaction is partially what prompted you to visit me then? That, and your own realization of error, and a desire to improve for the future?
Imril: It was a wake-up call, yeah. I suppose that’s the best way to describe it. I honestly expected to be restricted to quarters as soon as I got back to the ship, at the very least.
Vhysa’lia: Good, that’s good to hear. ::beat:: From what you’ve told me, I think I’m starting to piece together a bit of what’s going on… ::folding her hands on her lap:: I’d like to revisit briefly something you said, just a moment ago. When you were talking about the interaction with this Evreste figure, and your emotions to him.
Another long pause followed her words. As the empty air between the pair lingered, Imril started feeling adrift in the same sea of uncertainty that they had tried to escape by ducking into the holodeck. Looking inward once more for the answers they couldn't find.
Then nodded, somewhat grimly, in answer to Vhysa’lia’s request for a revisit.
Vhysa’lia: You had a strong reaction to him and what he did to your away team, evidently. In your words, you felt caged, in a box. All very vivid imagery, fearful imagery. From how I understand it, feeling trapped may be the cause of your outburst. ::beat:: It sounds like an acute stress response, and your outburst was you trying to regain what you felt was lost control, lost autonomy. Does this sound accurate?
Imril: I’m not sure. The stress response part, sure. Yes! Very yes!... But… I think… ::Yet another long pause::... I regained control, took back my autonomy, when I broke the interference signal. With help. But I lost control, all over again, when I started chewing him out and couldn't stop.
Vhysa’lia: response
Imril: That was my failure, not Evestre’s.
Vhysa’lia: response
Imril: ::Slow sigh:: And it wasn’t the first time.
Vhysa’lia: response
Tags/TBC :)
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Ensign Imril
Engineering Officer
USS Artemis-A
A240110I12