Week2-3 my note to Yiska on 11/25

[Robin T.]

On 11/25/07, Robin Talley <robinn...@yahoo.com> wrote:
Hi Yiska, Sorry I didn't e-mail last week but I kept putting it off
and I looked up an another week has passed.

I am sending my post to your personal e-mail because there seems to be
little activity on the board and I don't want to post to an inactive
group...concerned mostly about bothering people with my e-mails. But
if you think it serves, I am happy to put it up.

I am keeping my journal and the thing I've noticed the most is that 1)
I am good in terms of following instructions, writing in my journal
etc until some point in the evening after which all hell seems to
break loose. Everything comes undone. I snack on handfulls of crackers
and forget to write them down, I eat several helpings of food and
don't really notice what I'm doing until later when I "come up for
air" and consider the damage. I wonder if not eating anything past 6pm
is the practice I need to take on for a while. It is in line with your
"not eating 3 hrs before bed" suggestion although that's more like 4
hrs but I don't think I'll waste away.

The other thing I've noticed is that I judge literally every thing
that does and does not pass my lips in the day time. I'm beginning to
wonder how much of this problem is over analysis - eating coming from
my head - rather than what my body is asking for. Truthfully, I have
no idea what my body wants, but i can tell you what's good and bad -
with accuracy that would even impress the herbal students - regarding
just about every food choice not to mention combination known to man.

My problem lies more in being ok with good enough. It's as though if
it can't be perfect (and as of yet, nothing has been) then screw it!
Hand me a muffin and make it 4 pats of butter!

This process is proving to be incredibly useful and difficult at the
same time. I have no idea how to stop the obsession to get it right,
which as I stated before is likely at the root of my problem.

Hope you had a happy holiday,
Love - Robin