actually i never thought that was about getting stoned, someone else in college said it, which i thought sorta dumbed it down significantly. i guess i forgot...(bad influences....like "like..." which my mother always hated, called it a crutch, picked up at the public school...along with dude and dudette, etc...learned of things like frank zappa named his son and daughter dweezil and moon unit respectively, which was enough to get a flavor just through word of mouth, and hear about california valley girl talk like gag me with a spoon, etc...)
how did you mean it? stone you at the breakfast table? emotional murder? kill the id? self-restraint? saying no causes more light? what do you mean?
oh, wait. inspired to diet cuz you would get stoned, and got the munchies, put on the pounds, then realized, this isn't working, i have to go on a diet? sort of, it was the cause, and the actualization of the pounds made you self-aware that you had to lose weight?
i was watching jewish tv yesterday for pesach and a young woman said "actualize the torah" sadly i forget the context. i thought that was interesting.
i tried egg (and onion) matzah for the first time this year. it's deliiiiiishus!!!! and this yehuda gluten free matzah is thin, and it's also the tastiest regular matzah i've ever had, it's hard to believe it's legit, it's so tasty, i couldn't help it, i broke them both out, and ate half a box of each one, the yehuda one with thin slices of jarlsberg. didn't even need butter or anything. they're chewy.