[Ranma][FanFic] Final Decision
Jan Story
A Ranma 1/2 Fanfic by Jan Story
All characters and situations are the property of Rumiko Takahashi,
Shogakukan, etc.
She sat cross-legged on the ground, staring at the object in front of
her. After all this time, all the obstacles and frustrations, the
fears faced, the shame endured... it was finally within her grasp. And
now that she had it... /*Is this what I really want?*/
It was such a simple thing. Just reach out, pick it up, and...
everything she'd been saying she wanted for years. /*Never be a girl
again,*/ her mind repeated the familiar mantra. The old dream, coming
true. /*Is it still really my dream?*/
It had been so long... you get used to anything, and she had gotten
used to this body, even learned to use it to her advantage. Its
phenomenal speed gave *her* an edge, sometimes a better edge than *his*
greater reach and power. The ability to change form was itself an
asset, one she would miss. Giving up any potential advantage went
against all of Oyaji's teaching, not to mention everything he'd learned
from his own experience. There were things she had done in this form
that *he* could never have accomplished. Defeating Kodachi. Getting
his strength back from Happousai. Hinako-sensei. The orochi. It was
fun, too, sometimes, manipulating Kunou and Ryouga, not to mention
being able to eat parfaits without being embarrassed, and scamming food-
-vendors out of extras. And yeah, there was a kind of... validation?
in being the kind of girl that guys turned around and stared at...
It was so much easier, sometimes, being a girl. Like learning to ice
skate... he had felt like such a fool, falling down like some untrained
klutz, as though his own body was betraying him... so he had gone into
the bathroom and changed because even though he still looked like a
total idiot it wasn't really *him* so it wouldn't hurt as much... and
then...
Sanzenin. Her fists clenched; her eyes blazed sapphire fury. She'd
pegged him for another Kunou at first, and the kami knew she was used
enough to Kunou's glompings and gropings. The idiot didn't even really
bother her much any more, she just knocked him out without breaking
stride. But Sanzenin...
He picked her up, and his strength made her feel little and fragile,
like something that needed to be protected. His eyes held hers the way
a snake holds a bird, with an ardent glow that made something deep
inside her almost hurt. And then there had been the gentle, insistent
pressure of his lips... and that thing inside her had opened to him the
way a flower opens to sunshine... when she first ran away she thought
she was going to be sick, but by the time she got to the bathroom anger
had taken over and he had let the rage take him, burning away the
confusion, the shame... the fear...
All the things he'd vowed never to do. Change voluntarily. Wear
women's clothes. Wear lingerie and make-up. Go on dates. He, she,
had done all of them and more, eroding his manhood little by little.
And what about the lines he still hadn't crossed...?
She remembered the koi fishing rod, and believing that she loved
Ryouga. She loved him so much she was willing to die, just to make him
happy... She remembered the time she had hit her head and believed she
was truly a girl, not only a girl but a very feminine one, interested
only in clothes and flower arranging and completely revolted by the Art
that was his very life...
/*Could any of that have happened if it wasn't in me to begin with?
And if it is... do I want to bring it out any more than it already is?*/
/*What if I start likin' guys? As a girl? What if some day I... don't
want to change back?*/
/*What if I quit lovin' Akane?*/
In a single swift, graceful motion, Ranma Saotome picked up the cask of
nannichuan water and upended it over her head.
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NOTES, EXPLANATIONS ETC:
A couple of years ago I ran into a whole string of what I
call "orientation-angst" fics in which Ranma becomes a girl
psychologically as well as physically. Personally, I think the idea
is OOC... but would he take a cure if it were offered? He says he
would, but this is a guy who isn't exactly known for his self-
knowledge -- and his girl-body does sometimes give him an edge, and
giving up an advantage is equally OOC. So what would make him use a
cure?
Ranma seems to have his worst nightmares when some consequence of his
curse makes him doubt his own masculinity. I think the reason he goes
so ballistic in "The Abduction of P-Chan" is precisely that his girl-
body does respond to the kiss. I've been kissed by a Sanzenin or two
in my day... they're usually damn good kissers, and the body does have
its own responses. So...
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