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In EP 21, He and Sid are shown telling Ren that the letting the twins fight Dan and Jake was unwise. Ren responds by telling them it's important for them to gather strong Brawlers for Barodius. After the twins lose Jesse says that there won't be a curtain call today.
Even with my limited knowledge of reality shows, I knew that real people became unreal characters. I'd long understood that the caveat to my lifelong atheism was that though there is no one creator god, all gods are real, because people create them through belief. Once made, gods take on their own power. It's not just mental illness that causes a person to think a god voice has spoken to them. It's also that the god has been brought into existence as a character with a measure of his or her own free will. Same with reality show contestant fame. Did I want my husband to see me on television as a kitchen goddess creature brought into existence for a moment? Yes, I did. I wanted to be more special than a person. That impulse alone is both questionable and problematic for a person weighing the odds of a dangerous decision. And I imagine it's a feeling shared by most people wanting to be reality stars.
The casting process that no one is allowed to talk about occurs in multiple stages. Most contestants send a video, then go and prepare a "signature dish" in person at various tryouts around the country (I drove to Seattle to do mine), at which point the "signature dish" is graded by subcontracted cooking school judges in secret. If they pass you on, the next step is filling out reams of paperwork that end up coaxing a TV-ready backstory and a streamlined brand where, before, there was simply a person.
For other contestants there is a different path. Quite a few of the "kooky" contestants, the ones with puppets and spells and flying falcons, are recruited, but for comic relief rather than a quick advance to the finals. They are Hollywood eccentric staples. Christine Ha, however, the winner of season 3, was recruited based on her Blind Chef cooking blog. Luca, winner of season 4, was recruited after an unsuccessful tryout with me in season 3. For me, this raised the question: Do they choose the winner before the first tryouts?
The day before all the contestants arrived, the casting department called to say I had made the cut. I was a contestant. They were flying me out to LA the next day. Clearly, I was a replacement for someone else who dropped out at the last minute and I figured, fuck it. I never signed anything waiving any of my rights and as the daughter of a journalist, I'm genetically hardwired to be curious. It was the most perfect setup for a pathologically inquisitive, masochistic exhibitionist that ever was. I couldn't wait to get there.
Everyone there besides me seemed like they were OK with believing whatever they were told. The contestants applauded and shrieked like initiates in a revival tent. Each one was a winner. They all just knew it. I was almost jealous. I missed out on the orgy of emotion and faith that the reality show congregants trampled over each other to prove.
Like the scene from "The Wizard of Oz," I walked slowly past the crowd pushing a cart with my signature dish on in through the black curtain darkness with all of the videographers and wranglers dressed in black, motionless, watching me and suddenly: there I was in a cavernous room. Gordon Ramsay, Graham Elliot and Joe Bastianich were elevated on a stage in front of me, brightly lit god-men.
She wasn't the wrangler I had been led around by all week and she wasn't Perry, queen of the wranglers, but she was enough of a voice of authority that I stopped rather than diving through the open door like I wanted to. It might have been Carter. Or Angelic. It's possible this next part is a stress memory, but I'm nearly certain that the exit interview took place in an elevated boxing ring. Although there's no good reason there would be a boxing ring in the warehouse. Maybe the ring was there so I wouldn't contaminate the winners with failure. Losers were very strictly not allowed to speak with other contestants. Once you failed, you no longer belonged.
I learned later from speaking with a number of the runner-up cooks that every round longer that a contestant stayed in the competition, the symptoms of traumatic stress appeared more intense when they returned home. Many of the runners-up from each season appear quite damaged. Some are unable to hold jobs, have difficulties with explosive anger. The winners fare somewhat better but not always. I'm still friends with many of them on Facebook and there are secret Facebook groups to talk about all things reality, though interest for most contestants dies off over the years other than blatant self-promotion, fundraising and talk of appearances on other cooking shows.
An activity I thought would be partially a lark and partially an unprofessional investigation became something else: an experiment in power and submission and subversion over which I had no control. I knew there would be danger, but I thought the danger would give me energy, that it would excite me creatively where a happy marriage and a calm few years had left me feeling dull and soft without the potential for danger. But instead of feeling like a warrior surviving a crucible, I left feeling I had failed to protect the tender people. Eccentric, charismatic strangers, yes, but these fragile egotists couldn't have completely known the results of professional abuse. Being violated is something that can make people feel alive. But that doesn't make it safe.
We pulled up to an apartment building and the tall guy ran in while we waited in the car. A short muscly guy came out of the building, saying nothing but taking all the bags. All four of us drove back to the house and the bartender asked if there was any more heroin.
"I mean, my daughter, I would tell her that I had the flu. And I had the flu a lot. I was drinking so heavily," Jessie said. "She would try and find something to eat. And there wouldn't be anything to eat. So she'd have to try and get Mommy up and into the car and go to the market."
"I was so psychotic, I didn't believe the market was there. So I'd have to just believe in my daughter that, when she said, 'The market's down the road,' it's down the road," Jessie said. "We're talking about a little girl."
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