My funk just
got worse.... I'm shfunking big time now. (New folks
shock + funk =shfunk) I need to get on the next boat to Egypt FAST.
Yes I have been in Egypt ...regarding
CBCs regularly.....
Just found
out today that we have to bring S&J for a CBC w/diff sometime next week.
The ped asked how often we are supposed to do routine CBCs.... I've
never really asked about that as we have been just doing them when sick.
Of course with doing home SCIG we don't get the monthly CBCs we were
getting. I may end up in the mental institution before long.
Any hopes I had were dashed by the ped . We can't take Joseph off the
Ditropan, she agrees that the potential damage to his kidneys is worse than any
risk of side effects. Meanwhile she said that the signs J had of nausea
and such after being outside were signs of heat stroke & even though we are
keeping him hydrated, it doesn't help because the medication stops him
from sweating--and even though he's on a lower dose now, it is still
pretty high for a kid ( we've reduced it!!!!!) and he has to come in and
cool down b/c drinking doesn't help. I hate that we are in a
position where we have to give him this AWFUL medication.
She brings up
CBCs because the boys have dysplasia now and we have to worry that it could
show up in the blood & move transplant up. (although, I am not worried
about mild dysplasia)(the ped can read and read all the Cinci stuff...why
does she read!? Can't she stay in
Egypt with me?) I just
need to camp out in freaking Egypt
for the rest of my life. Yes, there have been kids with clones in their
marrow who develop leukemia rapidly (we talked about this--she's one
smart cookie)..... and yes, I know they had dysplasia in their last
marrows.......BUT IT IS MILD! I don't want to do
routine CBCs because I'm selfish and don't want the constant
reminder that something is WRONG with my children. I'm going to do
it, of course. I'm not that selfish. Just doing CBCs all the
time reminds my brain they have an issue. Sigh. She wonders
if the bone pain and body aches are related to the marrow issues... who
knows? DID I tell you that Sean has been having bad ankle pain for
months? And we have to ice it--he still plays baseball, but we ice
it afterward.
J's
worries about so much and she wants us to go to counseling. Even though I
work with him and all here at home, she thinks an outside source might give him
more coping skills, I agree...but where do we find the time???? More
appointments? I'm working on getting that scheduled.
We talked
outside of the room so that J didn't hear us. Switching
allergy meds to see if we can help. More later--gotta go get our
bananas for our Honduras
project.
Peace be with
you,
Pattie
The Will of God
will never take you where the Grace of God won't be with you.