February 2010 Update
Alan Yu
Sorry for writing this update not until 4 days into March. I have
been extremely busy trying to finish working on Hikathon,
GenerationNext, AFC's Budget, Adventio, as well as other projects at
church, before I fly off to Los Angeles for my first on-campus course
at Fuller. Then when I got to LA, my luggage was lost (I didn't get
it back until after 4 days) and I had to run around town to furnish
myself. So after all the exhaustion is recovered, I can finally write
this prayer letter to you after class.
When I was struggling to finish my reading assignment before I came
(which I never did get to finish...), my feeling of inferiority struck
again. I remember when I began my study at the Institute for Worship
Studies, my professor Lester Ruth told us that somewhere along our
doctoral study, a voice will tell you to give up, because they will
soon find out that you're a fake, you're not smart enough for doctoral
work, and you're not as good as others... That voice hit me then, and
when I am at the beginning of my D.MIn. program now, it hit me again.
It takes a lot of faith to reject that voice and believe what it says
is not true.
What I am taking now is a course called "The Call to Soul Caring and
Soul Mending." As the professor is unfolding the many psychological
models and theories about all kinds of dysfunctions and brokenness in
the human souls, I cannot but feel the the many dysfunctions and
brokenness in my own life. It feels scary when I face the possibility
that the equilibrium which I maintained will need to be broken for me
to be restored. But I am reminded again as God called me into the
ministry of restoration, the assurance that He gave me, that as He
called me to restore His sheep, He will restore me first. I need to
hold into His assurance with faith.
Please continue to also pray for Constance. While I am here in LA,
she was ordered bed resting at home by her doctor for the many
complications in her pregnancy. She needs to endure 4 injections of
medicine per day plus very strict control of her diet. We hope that
her situation will remain stable until at least I return home by the
end of next week.
Sometimes we can just rely on grace. It's irrational, but that's how
faith works.
In Christ,
Alan Yu
Some of Alan's Engagement in March:
March 1-12: at school at Fuller Theological Seminary
March 14, 21, 28: teaching sunday school on "Renewing your devotional
life" at Westside Baptist Church
March 14: preaching at Westside Baptist Church on "Sloth"
March 14: preaching at AFC Restoration Worship on "Strength in
Weaknesses"
March 19: speaking on Chastity again at Port Moody Pacific Grace MB
Church
March 20: speaking at Blessings Baptist Church in Coquitlam on
"Helping Your Teenagers Learn"