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080222A -----------
The simplest answers are usually lies told in the same tone as supermarket prices and the toll paid at the gas pumps.
You blame yourself for the varieties of pain and pleasure continually falling short from being interesting or satisfying.
Leaves you wanting for something in the very middle among the uncertainty coming from everything you cannot have.
Life as a series that someone made up from short duration bits and random pieces stuck to each other in various ways only to be broken apart.
Mostly it is wasted in that abyss of difference coming between what you can look for and what you can find keeps you looking.
That is the gaze that looks out into early morning air feeling a deep sense of total devastation but nothing changed.
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080222B -------------
All that glitter that was never toxic beautiful jewels that everyone could have if they wanted.
Lucy was in the sky with her diamonds and as imperfect as it was it was so much better than perfection.
We incessantly mourn what we could have done in another time when so much less was actually forbidden.
We are sealed in to a growing certainty surrounding together the way glass surrounds preserves in jars.
Immersed in something the labels tell us is pure blend happiness immersion into which we weep.
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090222A ------------
In dark times as always seem darkened up your blank surfaces where every brush thrives as a brush with death some way or other and every one has a particular tooth with characteristic bite being used and using rending and tearing at the colour flesh of whatever was that you were not thinking but then something being used anyway.
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090222B -----------
I had wanted you to really exist the way sweetness exists in a coffee cup.
For a little while interrupting the bitter dark tastes that we consume.
There is a despair comes from everything and sweet that is kept away from our each.
I tried to imagine differing worlds where there is sweetness conquers the bitter.
Interruption came quick as a thought sent news of sweetness been taken.
The cup looked full but now emptied left bitter strains stained memories.
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090222C -----------
We gutter dregs sometimes stare emptied into symbolic gloss vacant skies.
Push up to imagining someone looks down on as we hallucinate mythic bird flights.
Reminded perpetually our gratuitous existence being expensive and barely tolerated.
Made no longer able to afford ourselves and no one investing in marginal skill sets.
If there was a trial there was no defence for cherishing the wrong convictions.
We read histories as improbable fictions that we would have loved to have lived in.
I dare a look at you across barbed wire fence coiled separations invisibly keeping apart.
A richly adorned scene of self appointed playground monitors blowing their whistles.
Great care is taken to fully assure we never dare inhabit the same spaces.
Our parades continue in opposite directions along with clowns lions, tigers and bears.
No one would give us half a fighting chance at having a good time anywhere interesting.
Do you know anyone who can get us in and I no longer know anyone goes that way.
The slashed at feel of a vast rift never heals across tens of millions of years.
Digging something up wherever it fell after a dance number the band played.
You came to me from the same lies you told others so I sent you back.
That made me nostalgic for what it feels like to cross over strands of barbed wire.
It could make us believe that we can find love instead of class structure dividing up the meat.
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120222A -----------
Those of us who still are and in the resistance movements gone end up to being and changed out nothingness.
Attendees at drinking academies joined brotherhoods the holy orders of sacred bottles then graduate to knowing no one.
Some got married as a popular means inclusive of absolution for various pleasures disguised as sins repeated treadmill days ancestral litanies.
Some became vague turning relic saints of memory seems larger than life amid uncertainties as to how they were and became martyred.
Over and over crimson and clover ghosts out from dead jukeboxes trying to rolf the world back to a bygone era.
We don't really like being here and now doing nothing really interesting and done crammed into stagnant nooks of spacetime repeatedly prodded.
We are clearly told the healthy people all like it well enough without complaints craving their paleo porn scenes in white washed bedrooms.
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140222A -----------------
Social street theatre grabs meanings from a grab bag life taking the wraps off from disappointments.
Exposing the insides as unappealing as is visceral shots striking their hard on contentions.
You still believe prizes to be won but hell is cheap as to prizes and heaven is worse.
Much worse to be expected from crowds formed to tear off and to condemn.
Trash spouts overflow the gutter mind trapped in current affair rapid effluence.
We are seeps through the cracks pressed crumble suffering along damp feelings.
Wipe the tears before you are wiped being identified by counter measures to emotional insurgency.
They gave sackcloth when I was longings for perfect silk because they knew what I really wanted.
What we play is complicated games on multiple levels taking us deep in to perfect unhappiness.
I never liked the company so I sleep alone covered by illusions that chant freedom.
The protests opposing violations against any label personal taste and candied preference.
Pleasantries exchanged unpleasant times in unpleasant ways some hopeful to get out of dilly dally.
Shattered is the newest style turned pop love life categories of delivered rush.
The crush of it and the rush of it into a tumble past the point of into free fall conditions.
We are going down and no telling how far that goes but whatever comes up is hollow and empty.
I thought I found you somewhere deep but I was far too late so I continue collecting spent shells.
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170222A ------------
Never looked into the telephone book in a dozen years for anyone personal.
The yellow covers urging cautious dialing and paranoia always listening in.
They don't deliver here anymore to old notes and deleted lines.
The sort of corpse that bought it a long time ago on verge of ivories.
Easy to be ghosted being a vacancy never filled but always looking.
Let your fingers do the walking with nowhere to go but gone too far.
No way to get back but you knew that in every try many years ago.
I remember chasing each illusion on a dial up to someone special.
I am still all alone as a worn out finger hits a key that open no doors.