Itwas just a challenging year in general, and most of us tend to accentuate the negative over the positive. I still have a long way to go in this overall exercise, but the Annual Review process has been helpful in reminding me that our lives are multi-faceted and complex.
Glad you made it through. As someone who has battled depression all my life I can tell you one thing that helps get me through is realizing that everything changes. Good times eventually are interrupted by bad, and bad times eventually turn a corner and become good again. Riding out the storms, looking for patches of sunlight til the clouds move away keeps me going.
For 2015, I hope that you will prioritize time for doing things that bring you true joy, whatever that is for you, even if that means giving a little less of yourself to all of the other people that you continue to inspire.
What went wrong in 2014: my first venture, South Pacific Bound. tanked. Chalk it up to poor planning and over-eagerness to do something grand. It was a painful, somewhat humiliating failure (also to the tune of $10,000), but I picked myself back up and am carrying on. Having a loving (and very understanding) spouse and a couple good friends made this easier to deal with.
But on the bright side of 2014, I visited Costa Rica again and went on a month-long road trip up the East Coast. I booked upcoming trips to California, New Hampshire, and to Europe. I learned how to play the ukulele & started painting again. I created my website all by myself and have been creating products to launch in the near future. So I guess there has also been a lot of action. I think that life will always be a mix of highs and lows regardless of the year.
2014 was an interesting year for me. I hit the big 6-0 this year, and did tick off one those places on my bucket list. My husband and I did a bike trip in Alaska and then spent another 10 days after doing the entire Alaska railroad, and spending time in Denali National Park. Alaska is an amazing state. Definitely a place I want to go back to. I felt like we barely scratched the surface.
I made my triathlon comeback after 9 years away from serious racing. I thought I was going to just do two races this year, but ended out doing six. My swimming and biking remained strong for me. My running has suffered from the years neglecting the sport. Next year I hope to improve upon my running.
I had a very good year internally, mentally, emotionally and soul-wise. My economics were sadly lacking. I am not driven to make money so I live as simply as I can. I do have big dreams for spreading consciousness and compassion in the world but no financial resources to make that happen so I am at a point where I have to choose. Focus on generating resources for my big dreams or live simply and dream smaller and use my words and energy in my writing and working with people. I feel drawn to both.
From my perspective if I am sad in beautiful places and lively situations then my mind is elsewhere. This moment when I am present to it is full of wonder, beauty and joy. If I am not there in the now then I focus on what I appreciate in the moment and things get lighter and brighter.
Being also goal-minded and future-minded, it is our natural weakness to tend to forgot about the present and sometime simply miss those units of momentary happiness (that are important to recharge your energy level!). It is of a natural struggle for me to let it go and live the current moment because my actions are often geared at producing an outcome in the future. I have found it is good then to be surrounded (e.g. close friend, partner) with people that are a bit your opposite so it helps you keep your balance.
I can feel negativity, sadness and frustrations when I feel less in control on how events may unfold and when things are unclear or in limbo. Especially when I know I could I done a better job or take better decision if I was aware of some things out of my control in the first place. Yes there is improvements possible but most of these things is just about learning to accept things the way they are.
Thank you for your openness and honesty Chris! I am amazed and humbled by your ability to share these very personal ups and downs of the past year. Indeed the time taken during the annual review is a great way to take an honest look in the mirror and decide what we want to do about what we see.
I just picked up your book a few weeks ago and have started my annual review yesterday! For the first time in years, I feel energized at making things happen instead of waiting for them to happen. Thank you for your part in making that a reality for me ?
We took each one as they came, but things have really started to come to a head this last year. My mother had lost her job and also got on disability due to multiple schlerosis, the same disease her brother had. Her home recently foreclosed, it was a huge mess dealing with all her stuff. My sister broke from dealing with all the pressure and disappeared for a month without a trace, we thought she was dead for awhile. I just got married the end of the year before. All our problems almost completely tore my family apart and my marriage apart. I became addicted to multiple prescription drugs just to feel peace, and also to force myself to perform at the levels I expected of myself normally. I almost completely destroyed the career I worked hard for years building for myself as a result. I was striving to try my hand at running a small entrepreneurial pursuit and it completely fell flat. I had the goal of wanting to travel to a few foreign countries and realized it will take me a few more years before I am able to visit just one. I felt like I sucked, was a complete loser and was not good at a single thing. I saw everyone around me fall apart or get destroyed and wondered what the point was.
I am not telling you all this to write a sob story. I am telling you all this in hopes that it inspires in some way. I may have been a little rude to you in my last email indirectly. If I came off that way, I assure you that it was the pain inside me that caused me to act that way, and was no reflection on you whatsoever. I was going to email you all this, but you have always been so genuine and transparent with us readers, that I felt I should return the favor and lay myself bare as well. Sorry this is such a massively long post.
You are a brave man to not only share this, but to engage in an intentional, annual practice to discover it/admit it yourself. The crap thing about anxiety/depression is that there are two places to hide: 1) hiding from the thing that (irrationally) scares you or makes you sad AND 2) hiding from the work of addressing the anxiety/depression itself.
The manic man you are, here is my suggestion to boost up your 2015 and beyond: visit the most southern/northern/eastern/western part of those 193 countries. Thats a true travel challenge and will keep you happy for the decades to come
I am based in BENIN in WEST AFRICA. I love your posts. I read them everytime possible. I believe that what you have achieved is enormous. And this is the reason why you seem depressed. Just delegate some parts of it to members of your group and you will find more time to rest and to keep at least some good friends. Take care. Your life is precious.
Thank you, Chris, for writing from within your true self. Having read several of your posts in recent years, I have grown to appreciate deeply your honest way of connecting with others.
My wife and I are delighted that we chose to visit Vancouver, BC, when we traveled to Oregon and Washington to visit with family members in August. We took the Amtrak Cascades to the city. It was the first time in her 60+ years Sheila had set foot outside the U.S.
Our experience of Vancouver was richly satisfying. We found refreshing the many beautiful green spaces between homes and high-rise buildings, the variety of ages and ethnicities represented, the great numbers of people enjoying the outdoors along the English Bay Beach and on bicycling and walking paths, and the dog lovers everywhere. When we stopped as we did on occasion to admire a dog, we found that we quickly made a connection with its human companion. As we freely exchanged stories, the rapport deepened.
Sheila was especially touched at seeing the tear-filled eyes of a middle-aged man sitting alone on a park bench, his canine friend resting in his lap, as he listened and she shared how one of our dogs had been rescued from rising flood waters in the wake of Hurricane Katrina. In that moment of mutual vulnerability, our sense of our common humanity was renewed and deepened. We look forward to our next venture beyond U.S. borders.
What went well in 2014?
1. I finally launched my blog.
2. 2 articles I wrote had more than 4K shares.
3. I worked out 3 times a week for more than 80% of the year.
4. I paid off some old debts and boosted my emergency savings to about 4 months of expenses.
5. I consistently left my day job on time.
6. I made it past the one-year mark with my girlfriend.
You are such an inspiration to me! As a fellow writer and traveller, I have learned a lot from you in the past few years and I am thankful for this blog. The Annual Review process is very interesting for many reasons, but this year, more than ever, yours truly resonates with me. I had to deal with depression and loss as well, and I travelled less than I could have, but I am grateful for everything that happened in 2014, as it lead me to be where I am now. As I get ready to move to Cape Town for a few months, I realize how lucky I am to be surrounded by so many amazing people and to read such inspiring blogs regularly. Community is indeed a very important part of life and something I want to focus on for 2015. Thank you for this post, and for the blog, which, by the way, is more and more inspiring since the whole makeover. Keep on with the good work!
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