Apologies

[mett...@gmail.com]

Look everyone, I'm sorry. I just need to say that.

Mostly, I'm sorry to Bobby, because I didn't need to bring him up at
all and that was wrong.

But I'm really sorry to everyone else, too, including Gil who, for all
I know is actually just trying to help.

The problem with being the person who accepts responsibility and
accountability for something is that, when there are complaints- it is
no-one but YOU who people are complaining about.

My personal problem is that I sometimes take things too personally
when they weren't personal. I'm really not one to go off half cocked,
and I've spent my life trying to be considerate and responsible in my
communication with people.

That just fell away, and I'm sorry.

I'm working on a blog post too, but just quickly wanted to let
everyone know that I've never intended to prevent anyone else from
being someONE. I actually intended just to build the infrastructure so
someone else could take over (who the hell am I? No one even heard of
me until Sept 4th at midnight). When they didn't, or seemed not to, I
sort of just kept rolling and eventually felt that, well, if it fell
apart, it's really my fault now.

I'm not necessarily convinced that anyONE can be that person- nor was
I ever convince that I was supposed to be. It just happened.

Therefore, if someone else has been waiting to take over, I have to
stand with Gil and say, take the wheel- assuming there ever was a
wheel.

Of course, until that happens, I'll just continue to work as hard as I
can because I feel that I want ORBlogs back and better just as much as
anyone.

Again, my apologies for spouting off. Every once in a while New York
slips out- despite having left so long ago.

(that was a joke.)

(it's not every once in a while)

(that was another joke)

(nevermind)
-J