Zhenya's Trip

[benevolentWarrior]

Zhenya, you wrote me:

Thank you for your emails, Larry. I am excited to hear from you as I left this world and trying to work my way back in. I went to Dominican in search of sunlight (that exact purpose) and I spent all week hiding from the sun as it made me sick. I went alone and recognising the effect heat had on my system, I chose to stay in my room watching TV to "survive" Dominican. Many times I doubted that I would survive it. Many times I doubted if I am worthy of surviving life in the first place. And now I am back, but something is lost. Something to do with life. And that is all he wrote.

(and I responded)

From: Larry

To: eug.r...@gmail.com

Sent: Thursday, April 08, 2010 9:37 AM

Subject: Re: From the news desk

Well, I for me, choose to be glad you are back :)

Why do I choose this? (gratitude....what is that all about?)

 

Well, BNK nailed it with his initial book, on his and Suzi's awakening aka Bruce DiMarsico, "To Love, is to be Happy."

 

Ok, what is being happy about? why all the hoopla? what's so useful about being happy?

LOL, if you don't know that, ha, might as well talk to myself. Huh? maybe thats what its all about?

 

Arn't we all, always 'talking to ourselves?'.......and, in assessing, analysing, making sense of everything, ourselves......judging?    and resultingly simply having a 'fitting' emotional experience of whatever we are imaging, and interpreting?  (and, ultimately, isn't that what our body responds to......no different from any form of hypnotism?)

 

you share your interpretation of 'surviving' where you took yourself, and doubting/fearing you could....yet you did....  Even played with and embraced 'not being worthy' to survive......oh what a 'trip' we gave/give ourselves.

 

And now that you did, (survive) you play, embrace, focus 'your present' with imaging, making real for yourself, your autonomous systems, that 'something is/was lost'?

 

hello?

 

Love? a choice, an attitude, to value, to self-direct habitually to celebrating values and valuing, vs complaining, focusing on loss, what one does not have.  I believe one can choose to somehow 'lose' their infatuation with not loving, (themselves,) and choose a different direction. It's not complicated, but it does take committment, focus, and self-awareness of what one is doing to themselves, and whether it is 'fitting' with what one really wants (thought-izing, self-talk-izing) How are you choosing to zing yourself today?  hugs    Larry

 

----- Original Message -----

From: Zhenya Roitman

To: Larry

Sent: Thursday, April 08, 2010 9:32 AM

Subject: RE: From the news desk

Thank you for your emails, Larry. I am excited to hear from you as I left this world and trying to work my way back in. I went to Dominican in search of sunlight (that exact purpose) and I spent all week hiding from the sun as it made me sick. I went alone and recognising the effect heat had on my system, I chose to stay in my room watching TV to "survive" Dominican. Many times I doubted that I would survive it. Many times I doubted if I am worthy of surviving life in the first place. And now I am back, but something is lost. Something to do with life. And that is all he wrote.

-----Original Message-----
From: Larry [mailto:larry...@rogers.com]
Sent: Thursday, April 08, 2010 6:52 AM  
To: zhenya
Subject: From the news desk

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[Zhenya (a.k.a. Free)]

Thank you yet again, Larry. All of it is true. Much zing, I know. I am
choosing to look into its face and see how amazing it is :o)
Commitment, focus, and self-awareness...

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