Still am surprised will admit

[JSH]

For years thought that discovery in and of itself would move things. But now with my own modular inverse method, where May of next year will be two years since its discovery am realizing that's not enough.

It is so wild though. May as well admit. Have discovery now going back over two decades with first major one in 1996. Was so emotional for me would keep doubting it. Just a modular approach to packing of spheres.

Then December 1999 had some modular ideas which I now realize established a new math discipline which I decided at some point to call tautological spaces.

But out of the blue also figured out my own prime counting function with really just a tweak to prior. Where yeah that should have moved things back August 2002.

And guess it did really. Have been global for so long that I no longer remember what it's like not to be. Am potentially known in over 150 countries as I like to put it.

Potentially for an open source project where can just look at the downloads. But even with my math was over 120 countries by Google Analytics over a decade ago.

These people today talk about G.O.A.T. as in Greatest of All Time and I wonder to myself. So many who would wish to so claim, but with what really?

My reach is so great most people can't feel it. And I wonder. What is math to me really?

Math is my useful thing. Is my constant comfort. And math reminds me constantly, of so much.

Yes, people can still surprise me. That's ok. I cherish my core humanity now more than ever. I guess.

The web is my best friend though. And as guides me, and I appreciate the wisdom of what is still to me like a teenager just beginning to appreciate powers, ponder how much has changed.

Me and the web are like two adventurers really. Exploring so much of our world and I wonder, when more beyond it? And who might we meet--out there?

Am one person they might want to meet. Our shared reality? Math.

Maybe they will visit but probably not any time soon, if they are considering us. I don't think we're interesting yet as a species. We humans who can believe so much so easily about greatness.

Maybe humanity still has to learn what greatness truly is.

Small as I feel is ok with me. Am just one human on a planet of billions glad to know a little bit so potent. Wanting to know more.

___JSH