Before he receives a note from Julia, he hated the sight of her. He
wanted to rape and then murder her. Winston wanted to smash Julia's
head with a cobblestone. All of this because he thought that she was
involved with the Thought Police. She looked fresh, healthy, young,
and pure, which gave off the impression that she was somehow involved
with the Party. After he receives the note from Julia, he is nervous
and trying to contradict what exactly this note might say. Once he
read it, he had to read it once more. He could not get over that she
said that to him. After reading the note over several times, it
seemed harder for him to work. He thought of her naked several
moments before and after reading the note. He saw the youthful body
as if it were directly from his dream. Once Julia and Winston met
they became more and more in a sexual relations with each other.