That's exactly what I am doing. A more passive form of suicide and not subject to additional punishment via the 72 hour hold.
I am very sorry to hear about your health woes.
I really get what you are saying.
But understand that -
I was making less than $20,000 a year into my 40's and thus health care was just not accessible to me. I mean it was eventually with Obamacare, which was basically an extortion payment because according to what I read I still couldn't afford to be sick. Not to mention missing work when every cent I make was going toward below market rent and living expenses.
Now a pricing arbitrage scheme that started in 2014 when I saw something that was like "Hey I can make some money off this and maybe do something fun this summer" turned into a million dollar plus enterprise by 2019 with six figures plus profit (2020 aside) but started to unravel late last year and now that most of the profit points have been closed by primary sellers I am wrapping things up.
But we are talking years straight of intensely working every waking moment with little real time idea of what I was making (til I added it up at the end of the year, 2017 I spent a month doing and redoing my math because I couldn't how much I made) and always cash poor but inventory rich with financial catastrophe always looming if anything went wrong. It was more akin to high stakes gambling then any sort of business. So there was just no time to research insurance and my mind was always racing so I just couldn't absorb what I was reading. And why take the time when that time could be spent making money. Hard to do Obamacare being income based when I had no idea what I was really making. Just pay the stupid fine and keep going.
But I have a nice nest egg.
So I can *afford* it I guess but paying thousands a month for insurance, and then when I inevitably forced into market priced housing, it will go quick. No I am not getting another minimum wage McJob. Ever.
I only have a 9th grade education with very low social functioning ability. And a bad back.
Also I do not have the friends, family or social support system necessary to withstand any major health issues. If illness befalls, I am pretty happy just dropping dead and having my distant nieces and nephew surprised when they see what they get. Everybody around me still thinks I am dead dawg dick poor and I am happy with that.
I think I might have something because 2006/2007 I suddenly felt "off" or different inside, so I stopped drinking and smoking weed. But I don't think that was it.