Christmas

[Mommy]

Dear Michael,

I am having a hard time this year with both Christmas and your birthday. Yesterday as you and I went for a walk in the fresh, clear, cool air brought about after a rain in the desert, you showed yourself to me as a small bright white arrow peeking out momentarily from behind two darker fluffy clouds. You are always present. I was happy yesterday, your birthday. I talked to a dozen friends and family and love surrounded me. Our friend Arlene called to tell me she had a tree planted in your name in a fire ravaged area of California where "he can grow tall and strong." I am very touched. I want to see that tree named Michael and watch it grow tall and strong.

Today Christmas feels so empty. Last year Covid 19 and now a new one and we have friends who have it. I am trying to help them with grocery shopping, chicken soup, prescriptions and such. Wow!! Was that you who just put that thought into my head? Right! So there is no tree, no presents, no big Christmas dinner, no little ones to share it with, so what?!! Instead, I have been blessed with an opportunity to help others.Thank you, Michael. 

I love you, Son. I miss you so much and though this time of year is so hard, I still relish reliving so many moments of our lives together and look forward to all that is to come.

Mommy