Hi Darling,
Dad and I are on our computers, listening to music and sipping Scotch (yes, Michael, I now drink blended scotch with soda!) and Dad is sipping his favorite, Highland Park 18, a Christmas gift from Peter, Katie, Sophia, Finn and Charlotte.
I have composed an entire conversation with you in my head and now I will try to reconstruct my thoughts on paper...and that is the start...no more paper, only iPads, Lap Tops, Emails and texts. You are so missed, my darling son, and there are so many changes here on Earth that you missed.
You had a Blackberry, aka Crackberry last you were here. Smart phones were not in existence but you were ahead of yourself and bought shares of Apple because, "Mom, they are coming out with a phone." Wow! Michael! Was that ever foresight! We still have your stock, up over 4,000 percent and it will help to put Sophia, Finn and Charlotte to college. Well maybe one year each as things are going now. Everything costs so much more. I know this is what you want. You did such a good job investing for me the small amount I gave you to work with. Everyone is amazed at what you did and they exclaim, " at only 25 years of age, how could he know how to do that?" And that makes me wonder how you would be and what you would be doing in our world today.
When you left us Bush was President. You left for your Princeton Junior year abroad in Spain just days before 9-11. You wanted so badly for us to come to visit but because of fear of flying at that time, we couldn't, didn't. So sorry now. We have been trying desperately to get to Barcelona to see what you saw. You called on my phone that I must come to see the Gaudy church. Your voice. your enthusiasm. Tears...
Bush got us into two horrible wars. Now we have new wars: Putin of Russia cruelly trying to take over Ukraine., and the 2,747 year old war from Amos in the Old Testament repeated today in Israel.
You missed Covid 19, lock down, fear of flying and endless vaccines. Still going. Dad and I survived. Our dear friend, Doug Delfeld did not. You remember our party at our house after your graduation from Harvard-Westlake, catered by Doug? So many lives lost.Oh where are we? I wish you were sitting in front of me and we could talk..But then we never did. You talked to your Aunt Judy. She would tell me. We had trouble. I don't know why. Me? Oh God where am I going with this?
You also missed Donald Trump. Lucky you. The United States of America will never be the same. Bullying is now the normal for kids in school. Lying, cheating, and putting himself above all else is the model he puts for them. And accepted and exaulted by so many. What do you think, Michael? What would you say/do if you were with us here on earth? We need help!!
We had aThanksgiving dinner here like old times. I know you know because I know you were with us. Remember our dinners of past? I now you do! We had your cousins Jessy and Chelsea, Greg, Benjamin and Danny, Aunt Judy and her friend, Mark, Nora, Tony and Joelle and friends you do not know, Ranate and Roger, your sister, Katie, Peter, Sophia, Finn and Charlotte I tried to create the past in the present. I think I succeeded . Grandchildren didn't want to go home!
Christmas Eve is a night alone with your dad. We had a lovely early dinner/lunch and we went to an early Christmas Eve service at our Friendship Church here at Sun City. That was a first in probably our married life and guess what!!!! there was an emergency alert and we had to vacate the building.What kind of a warning was that? I don't care.
I love you, Michael. I miss you and I think of you every day. I pray to you . And I know you hear me.
Mommy