Happy New Year 2021

[Somashekara Bhat [MAHE-MIT]]

                        “THE PURPLE-BLUE MYSTERY” 

I wait and wait 

And see the seasons change 

day by day, year by year 

summer, spring, monsoon, winter 

life moves on at its normal pace. 

One, two, three… 

I stay here counting the years 

The world changes before my eyes. 

I see my brothers and sisters 

grow, bloom and flourish 

I see the world in all its magnificent glory 

And I wish I would have 

more memories to cherish. 

 

I envy my fellow beings 

They are free from this bondage                                                                     

They do not suffer for twelve long years, 

waiting in silence, with no place to go. 

And just sometimes I hear myself 

Hoping against hope 

to end this cycle of waiting, 

to break free from this chain 

that binds me down. 

                                                                                                      

They say I am a mystery 

I am unique, a true beauty; 

A remarkable work of nature. 

I blossom into a spectacular shade 

of purple and blue 

They call me a miracle 

And maybe, it’s true. 

Even then 

these unsettling thoughts cling on to me, 

To wait with uncertainty 

To see myself barren 

Feels like I live without dignity 

Unable to judge my self-worth 

Always in conflict with my identity. 

 

Am I a mere spectacle to humans? 

Do they see me valuable for my mysterious nature? 

Is this long wait of twelve years’ worth it? 

Why does my existence feel to me like pain and torture? 

Am I overthinking? Am I just overly sceptical? 

These questions keep on haunting me 

I feel anxious… or I am just a bit hysterical? 

My tears are invisible, 

My pain insurmountable 

But I cannot express it 

and my cries are left unheard. 

 

I know I cannot defy this fate 

This is my destiny. 

So, even if I bloom late 

Even when it takes a long journey 

I’ll learn to love myself 

for who I am. 

I maybe a miracle to some 

A mystery to many 

and my aura, mesmerising. 

So, when people from near and afar 

visit to see my beauty, oh! so captivating, 

I’ll take it in my stride 

And flaunt my purple blue flowers 

with great pride, 

and slowly but surely 

I’ll heal these wounds 

of the pain that I spend 

in these long years of waiting.