The Sages in Sanhedrin
99a taught:
"The place occupied by the penitent cannot be attained even by
the completely righteous."
How could it be that a ba'al teshuvah is
greater than a tzaddik?
The Groom's Clothes
Jack
was a peddler from
a small village. Jack's son, a bright and talented young man, caught the
eye of a young lady from an extremely affluent family. Despite the vast
differences in social
status and wealth, the woman's father liked the hardworking young man
and approved
of the match.
When the time came close for the wedding, the bride's father approached Jack with a
request. 'Please buy your son a proper suit, so that when he comes to my city for the wedding celebration he will look respectable.'
Jack readily agreed, and
took his son to a local clothing shop in the village to buy him a nice suit.
The
evening before the
wedding, Jack and his family arrived in the city, and took a room
in a local hotel. The following morning, the father of the bride
together with his friends went to greet his future son-law. But they
were surprised to find a
great commotion in the hotel. What happened?
Jack was so upset that
he could barely speak. Agitated and shaken, he pointed to the broken door lock. In
the middle of the night, thieves had broken into their hotel room, stealing
their luggage, clothes, and other possessions. "Even the new suit which
I bought my son for the wedding is gone," Jack wailed. "This is
terrible!"
The
wealthy father of
the bride put his arm around Jack to calm him down . "Don't let this
trouble you at all. Don't
worry about the loss; I will make it up to you." He then asked his
butler to take them to the finest stores in town and buy them suitable
clothing for the wedding.
After
the wedding, the
wealthy man organized a reception for his friends and neighbors, and he
seated his new in-laws at the head of the table. Yet people noticed that
Jack looked
unhappy. A good friend of the bride's family took Jack aside. "This
should
be a time of great joy for you. You just married off your son to a
wonderful family. Why are you upset?"
"Why shouldn't I be
upset?" replied Jack. "Didn't you hear what happened to us in the hotel,
how thieves stole our clothes, including the new suit that I purchased for my
son?"
"Why should that
bother you so? Did not the bride's father buy splendid clothes for all of
you?"
"True - but why should I have
to resort to gifts? I had prepared everything myself!"
At
this point, the
friend smiled. "Fool! You have no idea what a favor that thief
did for you! You thought you bought a good suit for your son, and
probably in
your village it would have been considered very appropriate. But here in
the big city, people have very sophisticated tastes. They would have
laughed at the suit.
"But now that the thief
stole everything and his father-in-law bought new clothes for everyone, your son
was dressed in style, even according to the highest standards of our city. So
this was the best possible outcome for you!"
The Tzaddik and the Ba'al Teshuvah
The tzaddik fills
his
bags with valuable objects - a lifetime of good deeds, prayers, Torah
learning
and mitzvot. After 120 years in this world, he takes his collection of
'valuables' to the heavenly court, where each object is taken out and
examined.
The angels scrutinize each one. "Tell me, this you call Torah studied for
its own sake?" "You think that this is prayer recited with a pure heart?"
"And this you call a mitzvah?"
For there is no end to measuring the quality and intentions of good
deeds.
But the repentant ba'al
teshuvah arrives at the heavenly court in tears. "How could I have wasted my
time in the world? How could I have lost my days, spending them in worthless pursuits?"
Then the Holy One
Himself makes for him new 'clothes,' as it says, "Great is Teshuvah, for
it transforms sins into merits." The spiritual 'clothes' that God makes
for the ba'al teshuvah are certainly of the highest, purest quality. Like the new clothes that the wealthy man bought for his son-in-law, no one will find what to criticize.
This is what the Sages
meant when they said that "The place occupied by the penitent cannot be
attained even by the completely righteous."