I am lonely

[Bleucrab]

Emptiness all around and a longing for a connection. A need to be
touched and to touch.

Where are you?

[Bleucrab]

The incident happens. Or, I get disappointed. Perhaps I am just
feeling a little down or sorry for myself. A wave of anger may sweep
over me. I catch myself, and tell myself, things are not that bad.


Then I cry. No matter what has happened, how little it may be or how
fast I stop myself from spiraling into depression, the pain is always
there. I cry.


I may cry for quite awhile, or just a very short time. It does not
matter because the result is always the same. As I dry my tears, and
take some deep breaths, I look around. There is no one. There is no
shoulder to lean on, or extended hand of compassion. There is no
embrace from a loving compassionate friend or relative. There is no
one to tell me that it is all going to be alright.


There is only me. Alone.